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MONT BLANC, the Dent du Midi, and the Aiguille Verte look across at
the bloodless faces that show above the blankets along the gallery of
the sanatorium. This roofed-in gallery of rustic wood-work on the
first floor of the palatial hospital is isolated in Space and
overlooks the world. The blankets of fine wool—red, green, brown, or
white—from which those wasted cheeks and shining eyes protrude are
quite still. No sound comes from the long couches except when some one
coughs, or that of the pages of a book turned over at long and regular
intervals, or the undertone of question and quiet answer between
neighbors, or now and again the crescendo disturbance of a daring
crow, escaped to the balcony from those flocks that seem threaded
across the immense transparency like chaplets of black pearls.
Silence is obligatory. Besides, the rich and high-placed who have
come here from all the ends of the earth, smitten by the same evil,
have lost the habit of talking. They have withdrawn into themselves,
to think of their life and of their death.
A servant appears in the balcony, dressed in white and walking
softly. She brings newspapers and hands them about.
"It's decided," says the first to unfold his paper. "War is
declared."
Expected as the news is, its effect is almost dazing, for this
audience feels that its portent is without measure or limit. These
men of culture and intelligence, detached from the affairs of the
world and almost from the world itself, whose faculties are deepened
by suffering and meditation, as far remote from their fellow men as
if they were already of the Future—these men look deeply into the
distance, towards the unknowable land of the living and the insane.
"Austria's act is a crime," says the Austrian.
"France must win," says the Englishman.
"I hope Germany will be beaten," says the German.
They settle down again under the blankets and on the pillows,
looking to heaven and the high peaks. But in spite of that vast
purity, the silence is filled with the dire disclosure of a moment
before.
War!
Some of the invalids break the silence, and say the word again
under their breath, reflecting that this is the greatest happening of
the age, and perhaps of all ages. Even on the lucid landscape at which
they gaze the news casts something like a vague and somber mirage.
The tranquil expanses of the valley, adorned with soft and smooth
pastures and hamlets rosy as the rose, with the sable shadow-stains
of the majestic mountains and the black lace and white of pines and
eternal snow, become alive with the movements of men, whose
multitudes swarm in distinct masses. Attacks develop, wave by wave,
across the fields and then stand still. Houses are eviscerated like
human beings and towns like houses. Villages appear in crumpled
whiteness as though fallen from heaven to earth. The very shape of
the plain is changed by the frightful heaps of wounded and slain.
Each country whose frontiers are consumed by carnage is seen
tearing from its heart ever more warriors of full blood and force.
One's eyes follow the flow of these living tributaries to the River of
Death. To north and south and west ajar there are battles on every
side. Turn where you will, there is war in every corner of that
vastness.
One of the pale-faced clairvoyants lifts himself on his elbow,
reckons and numbers the fighters present and to come—thirty millions
of soldiers. Another stammers, his eyes full of slaughter, "Two armies
at death-grips—that is one great army committing suicide."
"It should not have been," says the deep and hollow voice of the
first in the line. But another says, "It is the French Revolution
beginning again." "Let thrones beware!" says another's undertone.
The third adds, "Perhaps it is the last war of all." A silence
follows, then some heads are shaken in dissent whose faces have been
blanched anew by the stale tragedy of sleepless night—"Stop war?
Stop war? Impossible! There is no cure for the world's disease."
Some one coughs, and then the Vision is swallowed up in the huge
sunlit peace of the lush meadows. In the rich colors of the glowing
kine, the black forests, the green fields and the blue distance, dies
the reflection of the fire where the old world burns and breaks.
Infinite silence engulfs the uproar of hate and pain from the dark
swarmings of mankind. They who have spoken retire one by one within
themselves, absorbed once more in their own mysterious malady.
But when evening is ready to descend within the valley, a storm
breaks over the mass of Mont Blanc. One may not go forth in such
peril, for the last waves of the storm-wind roll even to the great
veranda, to that harbor where they have taken refuge; and these
victims of a great internal wound encompass with their gaze the
elemental convulsion.
They watch how the explosions of thunder on the mountain upheave
the level clouds like a stormy sea, how each one hurls a shaft of fire
and a column of cloud together into the twilight; and they turn their
wan and sunken faces to follow the flight of the eagles that wheel in
the sky and look from their supreme height down through the wreathing
mists, down to earth.
"Put an end to war?" say the watchers.—"Forbid the Storm!"
Cleansed from the passions of party and faction, liberated from
prejudice and infatuation and the tyranny of tradition, these
watchers on the threshold of another world are vaguely conscious of
the simplicity of the present and the yawning possibilities of the
future.
The man at the end of the rank cries, "I can see crawling things
down there"—"Yes, as though they were alive"—"Some sort of plant,
perhaps"—"Some kind of men"—
And there amid the baleful glimmers of the storm, below the dark
disorder of the clouds that extend and unfurl over the earth like
evil spirits, they seem to see a great livid plain unrolled, which to
their seeing is made of mud and water, while figures appear and fast
fix themselves to the surface of it, all blinded and borne down with
filth, like the dreadful castaways of shipwreck. And it seems to them
that these are soldiers.
The streaming plain, seamed and seared with long parallel canals
and scooped into water-holes, is an immensity, and these castaways who
strive to exhume themselves from it are legion. But the thirty
million slaves, hurled upon one another in the mud of war by guilt
and error, uplift their human faces and reveal at last a bourgeoning
Will. The future is in the hands of these slaves, and it is clearly
certain that the alliance to be cemented some day by those whose
number and whose misery alike are infinite will transform the old
world.
THE great pale sky is alive with thunderclaps. Each detonation
reveals together a shaft of red falling fire in what is left of the
night, and a column of smoke in what has dawned of the day. Up
there—so high and so far that they are heard unseen—a flight of
dreadful birds goes circling up with strong and palpitating cries to
look down upon the earth.
The earth! It is a vast and water-logged desert that begins to take
shape under the long-drawn desolation of daybreak. There are pools
and gullies where the bitter breath of earliest morning nips the
water and sets it a-shiver; tracks traced by the troops and the
convoys of the night in these barren fields, the lines of ruts that
glisten in the weak light like steel rails, mud-masses with broken
stakes protruding from them, ruined trestles, and bushes of wire in
tangled coils. With its slime-beds and puddles, the plain might be an
endless gray sheet that floats on the sea and has here and there gone
under. Though no rain is falling, all is drenched, oozing, washed out
and drowned, and even the wan light seems to flow.
Now you can make out a network of long ditches where the lave of
the night still lingers. It is the trench. It is carpeted at bottom
with a layer of slime that liberates the foot at each step with a
sticky sound; and by each dug-out it smells of the night's excretions.
The holes themselves, as you stoop to peer in, are foul of breath.
I see shadows coming from these sidelong pits and moving about,
huge and misshapen lumps, bear-like, that flounder and growl. They are
"us." We are muffled like Eskimos. Fleeces and blankets and sacking
wrap us up, weigh us down, magnify us strangely. Some stretch
themselves, yawning profoundly. Faces appear, ruddy or leaden,
dirt-disfigured, pierced by the little lamps of dull and heavy-lidded
eyes, matted with uncut beards and foul with forgotten hair.
Crack! Crack! Boom!—rifle fire and cannonade. Above us and all
around, it crackles and rolls, in long gusts or separate explosions.
The flaming and melancholy storm never, never ends. For more than
fifteen months, for five hundred days in this part of the world where
we are, the rifles and the big guns have gone on from morning to night
and from night to morning. We are buried deep in an everlasting
battlefield; but like the ticking of the clocks at home in the days
gone by—in the now almost legendary Past—you only hear the noise
when you listen.
A babyish face with puffy eyelids, and cheek-bones as lurid as if
lozenge-shaped bits of crimson paper had been stuck on, comes out of
the ground, opens one eye, then the other. It is Paradis. The skin of
his fat cheeks is scored with the marks of the folds in the tent-cloth
that has served him for night-cap. The glance of his little eye
wanders all round me; he sees me, nods, and says—"Another night gone,
old chap."
"Yes, sonny; how many more like it still?"
He raises his two plump arms skywards. He has managed to scrape out
by the steps of the dug-out and is beside me. After stumbling over
the dim obstacle of a man who sits in the shadows, fervently
scratches himself and sighs hoarsely, Paradis makes off—lamely
splashing like a penguin through the flooded picture.
One by one the men appear from the depths. In the corners, heavy
shadows are seen forming—human clouds that move and break up. One by
one they become recognizable. There is one who comes out hooded with
his blanket—a savage, you would say, or rather, the tent of a savage,
which walks and sways from side to side. Near by, and heavily framed
in knitted wool, a square face is disclosed, yellow-brown as though
iodized, and patterned with blackish patches, the nose broken, the
eyes of Chinese restriction and red-circled, a little coarse and moist
mustache like a greasing-brush.
"There's Volpatte. How goes it, Firmin?"
"It goes, it goes, and it comes," says Volpatte. His heavy and
drawling voice is aggravated by hoarseness. He coughs—"My number's
up, this time. Say, did you hear it last night, the attack? My boy,
talk about a bombardment—something very choice in the way of
mixtures!" He sniffles and passes his sleeve under his concave nose.
His hand gropes within his greatcoat and his jacket till it finds the
skin, and scratches. "I've killed thirty of them in the candle," he
growls; "in the big dug-out by the tunnel, mon vieux, there are some
like crumbs of metal bread. You can see them running about in the
straw like I'm telling you."
"Who's been attacking? The Boches?"
"The Boches and us too—out Vimy way—a counterattack—didn't you
hear it?"
"No," the big Lamuse, the ox-man, replies on my account; "I was
snoring; but I was on fatigue all night the night before."
"I heard it," declares the little Breton, Biquet; "I slept badly,
or rather, didn't sleep. I've got a doss-house all to myself. Look,
see, there it is—the damned thing." He points to a trough on the
ground level, where on a meager mattress of muck, there is just
body-room for one. "Talk about home in a nutshell!" he declares,
wagging the rough and rock-hard little head that looks as if it had
never been finished. "I hardly snoozed. I'd just got off, but was
woke up by the relief of the 129th that went by—not by the noise,
but the smell. Ah, all those chaps with their feet on the level with
my nose! It woke me up, it gave me nose-ache so."
I knew it. I have often been wakened in the trench myself by the
trail of heavy smell in the wake of marching men.
"It was all right, at least, if it killed the vermin," said
Tirette.
"On the contrary, it excites them," says Lamuse; "the worse you
smell, the more you have of 'em."
"And it's lucky," Biquet went on, "that their stink woke me up. As
I was telling that great tub just now, I got my peepers open just in
time to seize the tent-cloth that shut my hole up—one of those
muck-heaps was going to pinch it off me."
"Dirty devils, the 129th." The human form from which the words came
could now be distinguished down below at our feet, where the morning
had not yet reached it. Grasping his abundant clothing by handsful,
he squatted and wriggled. It was Papa Blaire. His little eyes blinked
among the dust that luxuriated on his face. Above the gap of his
toothless mouth, his mustache made a heavy sallow lump. His hands were
horribly black, the top of them shaggy with dirt, the palms plastered
in gray relief. Himself, shriveled and dirtbedight, exhaled the scent
of an ancient stewpan. Though busily scratching, he chatted with big
Barque, who leaned towards him from a little way off.
"I wasn't as mucky as this when I was a civvy," he said.
"Well, my poor friend, it's a dirty change for the worse," said
Barque.
"Lucky for you," says Tirette, going one better; "when it comes to
kids, you'll present madame with some little niggers!"
Blaire took offense, and gathering gloom wrinkled his brow. "What
have you got to give me lip about, you? What next? It's war-time. As
for you, bean-face, you think perhaps the war hasn't changed your
phizog and your manners? Look at yourself, monkey-snout,
buttock-skin! A man must be a beast to talk as you do." He passed his
hand over the dark deposit on his face, which the rains of those days
had proved finally indelible, and added, "Besides, if I am as I am,
it's my own choosing. To begin with, I have no teeth. The major said
to me a long time ago, 'You haven't a single tooth. It's not enough.
At your next rest,' he says, 'take a turn round to the estomalogical
ambulance.'"
"The tomatological ambulance," corrected Barque.
"Stomatological," Bertrand amended.
"You have all the making of an army cook—you ought to have been
one," said Barque.
"My idea, too," retorted Blaire innocently. Some one laughed. The
black man got up at the insult. "You give me belly-ache," he said
with scorn. "I'm off to the latrines."
When his doubly dark silhouette had vanished, the others
scrutinized once more the great truth that down here in the earth the
cooks are the dirtiest of men.
"If you see a chap with his skin and toggery so smeared and stained
that you wouldn't touch him with a barge-pole, you can say to
yourself, 'Probably he's a cook.' And the dirtier he is, the more
likely to be a cook."
"It's true, and true again," said Marthereau.
"Tiens, there's Tirloir! Hey, Tirloir!"
He comes up busily, peering this way and that, on an eager scent.
His insignificant head, pale as chlorine, hops centrally about in the
cushioning collar of a greatcoat that is much too heavy and big for
him. His chin is pointed, and his upper teeth protrude. A wrinkle
round his mouth is so deep with dirt that it looks like a muzzle. As
usual, he is angry, and as usual, he rages aloud.
"Some one cut my pouch in two last night!"
"It was the relief of the 129th. Where had you put it?"
He indicates a bayonet stuck in the wall of the trench close to the
mouth of a funk-hole—"There, hanging on the toothpick there."
"Ass!" comes the chorus. "Within reach of passing soldiers! Not
dotty, are you?"
"It's hard lines all the same," wails Tirloir. Then suddenly a fit
of rage seizes him, his face crumples, his little fists clench in
fury, he tightens them like knots in string and waves them about.
"Alors quoi? Ah, if I had hold of the mongrel that did it! Talk about
breaking his jaw—I'd stave in his bread-pan, I'd—there was a whole
Camembert in there, I'll go and look for it." He massages his stomach
with the little sharp taps of a guitar player, and plunges into the
gray of the morning, grinning yet dignified, with his awkward outlines
of an invalid in a dressing-gown. We hear him grumbling until he
disappears.
"Strange man, that," says Pepin; the others chuckle. "He's daft
and crazy," declares Marthereau, who is in the habit of fortifying the
expression of his thought by using two synonyms at once.
* * * * * *
"Tiens, old man," says Tulacque, as he comes up. "Look at this."
Tulacque is magnificent. He is wearing a lemon-yellow coat made out
of an oilskin sleeping-sack. He has arranged a hole in the middle to
get his head through, and compelled his shoulder-straps and belt to
go over it. He is tall and bony. He holds his face in advance as he
walks, a forceful face, with eyes that squint. He has something in
his hand. "I found this while digging last night at the end of the
new gallery to change the rotten gratings. It took my fancy off-hand,
that knick-knack. It's an old pattern of hatchet."
It was indeed an old pattern, a sharpened flint hafted with an old
brown bone—quite a prehistoric tool in appearance.
"Very handy," said Tulacque, fingering it. "Yes, not badly thought
out. Better balanced than the regulation ax. That'll be useful to me,
you'll see." As he brandishes that ax of Post-Tertiary Man, he would
himself pass for an ape-man, decked out with rags and lurking in the
bowels of the earth.
One by one we gathered, we of Bertrand's squad and the
half-section, at an elbow of the trench. Just here it is a little
wider than in the straight part where when you meet another and have
to pass you must throw yourself against the side, rub your back in the
earth and your stomach against the stomach of the other.
Our company occupies, in reserve, a second line parallel. No night
watchman works here. At night we are ready for making earthworks in
front, but as long as the day lasts we have nothing to do. Huddled up
together and linked arm in arm, it only remains to await the evening
as best we can.
Daylight has at last crept into the interminable crevices that
furrow this part of the earth, and now it finds the threshold of our
holes. It is the melancholy light of the North Country, of a
restricted and muddy sky, a sky which itself, one would say, is heavy
with the smoke and smell of factories. In this leaden light, the
uncouth array of these dwellers in the depths reveals the stark
reality of the huge and hopeless misery that brought it into being.
But that is like the rattle of rifles and the verberation of
artillery. The drama in which we are actors has lasted much too long
for us to be surprised any more, either at the stubbornness we have
evolved or the garb we have devised against the rain that comes from
above, against the mud that comes from beneath, and against the
cold—that sort of infinity that is everywhere. The skins of animals,
bundles of blankets, Balaklava helmets, woolen caps, furs, bulging
mufflers (sometimes worn turban-wise), paddings and quiltings,
knittings and double-knittings, coverings and roofings and cowls,
tarred or oiled or rubbered, black or all the colors (once upon a
time) of the rainbow—all these things mask and magnify the men, and
wipe out their uniforms almost as effectively as their skins. One has
fastened on his back a square of linoleum, with a big draught-board
pattern in white and red, that he found in the middle of the
dining-room of some temporary refuge. That is Pepin. We know him afar
off by his harlequin placard sooner even than by his pale Apache face.
Here is Barque's bulging chest-protector, carven from an eiderdown
quilt, formerly pink, but now fantastically bleached and mottled by
dust and rain. There, Lamuse the Huge rises like a ruined tower to
which tattered posters still cling. A cuirass of moleskin, with the
fur inside, adorns little Eudore with the burnished back of a beetle;
while the golden corselet of Tulacque the Big Chief surpasses all.
The "tin hat" gives a certain sameness to the highest points of the
beings that are there, but even then the divers ways of wearing
it—on the regulation cap like Biquet, over a Balaklava like
Cadilhac, or on a cotton cap like Barque—produce a complicated
diversity of appearance.
And our legs! I went down just now, bent double, into our dug-out,
the little low cave that smells musty and damp, where one stumbles
over empty jam-pots and dirty rags, where two long lumps lay asleep,
while in the corner a kneeling shape rummaged a pouch by
candle-light. As I climbed out, the rectangle of entry afforded me a
revelation of our legs. Flat on the ground, vertically in the air, or
aslant; spread about, doubled up, or mixed together; blocking the
fairway and cursed by passers-by, they present a collection of many
colors and many shapes—gaiters, leggings black or yellow, long or
short, in leather, in tawny cloth, in any sort of waterproof stuff;
puttees in dark blue, light blue, black, sage green, khaki, and
beige. Alone of all his kind, Volpatte has retained the modest
gaiters of mobilization. Mesnil Andre has displayed for a fortnight a
pair of thick woolen stockings, ribbed and green; and Tirette has
always been known by his gray cloth puttees with white stripes,
commandeered from a pair of civilian trousers that was hanging
goodness knows where at the beginning of the war. As for Marthereau's
puttees, they are not both of the same hue, for he failed to find two
fag-ends of greatcoat equally worn and equally dirty, to be cut up
into strips.
There are legs wrapped up in rags, too, and even in newspapers,
which are kept in place with spirals of thread or—much more
practical—telephone wire. Pepin fascinated his friends and the
passers-by with a pair of fawn gaiters, borrowed from a corpse.
Barque, who poses as a resourceful man, full of ideas—and Heaven
knows what a bore it makes of him at times!—has white calves, for he
wrapped surgical bandages round his leg-cloths to preserve them, a
snowy souvenir at his latter end of the cotton cap at the other, which
protrudes below his helmet and is left behind in its turn by a saucy
red tassel. Poterloo has been walking about for a month in the boots
of a German soldier, nearly new, and with horseshoes on the heels.
Caron entrusted them to Poterloo when he was sent back on account of
his arm. Caron had taken them himself from a Bavarian machine-gunner,
knocked out near the Pylones road. I can hear Caron telling about it
yet—
"Old man, he was there, his buttocks in a hole, doubled up, gaping
at the sky with his legs in the air, and his pumps offered themselves
to me with an air that meant they were worth my while. 'A tight fit,'
says I. But you talk about a job to bring those beetle-crushers of his
away! I worked on top of him, tugging, twisting and shaking, for half
an hour and no lie about it. With his feet gone quite stiff, the
patient didn't help me a bit. Then at last the legs of it—they'd been
pulled about so—came unstuck at the knees, and his breeks tore away,
and all the lot came, flop! There was me, all of a sudden, with a full
boot in each fist. The legs and feet had to be emptied out."
"You're going it a bit strong!"
"Ask Euterpe the cyclist if it isn't true. I tell you he did it
along of me, too. We shoved our arms inside the boots and pulled out
of 'em some bones and bits of sock and bits of feet. But look if they
weren't worth while!"
So, until Caron returns, Poterloo continues on his behalf the
wearing of the Bavarian machine-gunner's boots.
Thus do they exercise their wits, according to their intelligence,
their vivacity, their resources, and their boldness, in the struggle
with the terrible discomfort. Each one seems to make the revealing
declaration, "This is all that I knew, all I was able, all that I
dared to do in the great misery which has befallen me."
* * * * * *
Mesnil Joseph drowses; Blaire yawns; Marthereau smokes, "eyes
front." Lamuse scratches himself like a gorilla, and Eudore like a
marmoset. Volpatte coughs, and says, "I'm kicking the bucket." Mesnil
Andre has got out his mirror and comb and is tending his fine chestnut
beard as though it were a rare plant. The monotonous calm is disturbed
here and there by the outbreaks of ferocious resentment provoked by
the presence of parasites—endemic, chronic, and contagious.
Barque, who is an observant man, sends an itinerant glance around,
takes his pipe from his mouth, spits, winks, and says—"I say, we
don't resemble each other much."
"Why should we?" says Lamuse. "It would be a miracle if we did."
* * * * *
Our ages? We are of all ages. Ours is a regiment in reserve which
successive reinforcements have renewed partly with fighting units and
partly with Territorials. In our half-section there are reservists of
the Territorial Army, new recruits, and demi-poils. Fouillade is
forty; Blaire might be the father of Biquet, who is a gosling of Class
1913. The corporal calls Marthereau "Grandpa" or "Old Rubbish-heap,"
according as in jest or in earnest. Mesnil Joseph would be at the
barracks if there were no war. It is a comical effect when we are in
charge of Sergeant Vigile, a nice little boy, with a dab on his lip by
way of mustache. When we were in quarters the other day, he played at
skipping-rope with the kiddies. In our ill-assorted flock, in this
family without kindred, this home without a hearth at which we gather,
there are three generations side by side, living, waiting, standing
still, like unfinished statues, like posts.
Our races? We are of all races; we come from everywhere. I look at
the two men beside me. Poterloo, the miner from the Calonne pit, is
pink; his eyebrows are the color of straw, his eyes flax-blue. His
great golden head involved a long search in the stores to find the
vast steel-blue tureen that bonnets him. Fouillade, the boatman from
Cette, rolls his wicked eyes in the long, lean face of a musketeer,
with sunken cheeks and his skin the color of a violin. In good sooth,
my two neighbors are as unlike as day and night.
Cocon, no less, a slight and desiccated person in spectacles, whose
tint tells of corrosion in the chemical vapors of great towns,
contrasts with Biquet, a Breton in the rough, whose skin is gray and
his jaw like a paving-stone; and Mesnil Andre, the comfortable
chemist from a country town in Normandy, who has such a handsome and
silky beard and who talks so much and so well—he has little in common
with Lamuse, the fat peasant of Poitou, whose cheeks and neck are like
underdone beef. The suburban accent of Barque, whose long legs have
scoured the streets of Paris in all directions, alternates with the
semi-Belgian cadence of those Northerners who came from the 8th
Territorial; with the sonorous speech, rolling on the syllables as if
over cobblestone, that the 144th pours out upon us; with the dialect
blown from those ant-like clusters that the Auvergnats so obstinately
form among the rest. I remember the first words of that wag, Tirette,
when he arrived—"I, mes enfants, I am from Clichy-la-Garenne! Can any
one beat that?"—and the first grievance that Paradis brought to me,
"They don't give a damn for me, because I'm from Morvan!"
* * * * * *
Our callings? A little of all—in the lump. In those departed days
when we had a social status, before we came to immure our destiny in
the molehills that we must always build up again as fast as rain and
scrap-iron beat them down, what were we? Sons of the soil and
artisans mostly. Lamuse was a farm-servant, Paradis a carter.
Cadilhac, whose helmet rides loosely on his pointed head, though it
is a juvenile size—like a dome on a steeple, says Tirette—owns
land. Papa Blaire was a small farmer in La Brie. Barque, porter and
messenger, performed acrobatic tricks with his carrier-tricycle among
the trains and taxis of Paris, with solemn abuse (so they say) for the
pedestrians, fleeing like bewildered hens across the big streets and
squares. Corporal Bertrand, who keeps himself always a little aloof,
correct, erect, and silent, with a strong and handsome face and
forthright gaze, was foreman in a case-factory. Tirloir daubed carts
with paint—and without grumbling, they say. Tulacque was barman at
the Throne Tavern in the suburbs; and Eudore of the pale and pleasant
face kept a roadside cafe not very far from the front lines. It has
been ill-used by the shells—naturally, for we all know that Eudore
has no luck. Mesnil Andre, who still retains a trace of well-kept
distinction, sold bicarbonate and infallible remedies at his pharmacy
in a Grande Place. His brother Joseph was selling papers and
illustrated story-books in a station on the State Railways at the same
time that, in far-off Lyons, Cocon, the man of spectacles and
statistics, dressed in a black smock, busied himself behind the
counters of an ironmongery, his hands glittering with plumbago; while
the lamps of Becuwe Adolphe and Poterloo, risen with the dawn, trailed
about the coalpits of the North like weakling Will-o'-th'-wisps.
And there are others amongst us whose occupations one can never
recall, whom one confuses with one another; and the rural
nondescripts who peddled ten trades at once in their packs, without
counting the dubious Pepin, who can have had none at all. (While at
the depot after sick leave, three months ago, they say, he got
married—to secure the separation allowance.)
The liberal professions are not represented among those around me.
Some teachers are subalterns in the company or Red Cross men. In the
regiment a Marist Brother is sergeant in the Service de Sante; a
professional tenor is cyclist dispatch-rider to the Major; a
"gentleman of independent means" is mess corporal to the C.H.R. But
here there is nothing of all that. We are fighting men, we others, and
we include hardly any intellectuals, or men of the arts or of wealth,
who during this war will have risked their faces only at the
loopholes, unless in passing by, or under gold-laced caps.
Yes, we are truly and deeply different from each other. But we are
alike all the same. In spite of this diversity of age, of country, of
education, of position, of everything possible, in spite of the former
gulfs that kept us apart, we are in the main alike. Under the same
uncouth outlines we conceal and reveal the same ways and habits, the
same simple nature of men who have reverted to the state primeval.
The same language, compounded of dialect and the slang of workshop
and barracks, seasoned with the latest inventions, blends us in the
sauce of speech with the massed multitudes of men who (for seasons
now) have emptied France and crowded together in the North-East.
Here, too, linked by a fate from which there is no escape, swept
willy-nilly by the vast adventure into one rank, we have no choice
but to go as the weeks and months go—alike. The terrible narrowness
of the common life binds us close, adapts us, merges us one in the
other. It is a sort of fatal contagion. Nor need you, to see how
alike we soldiers are, be afar off—at that distance, say, when we
are only specks of the dust-clouds that roll across the plain.
We are waiting. Weary of sitting, we get up, our joints creaking
like warping wood or old hinges. Damp rusts men as it rusts rifles;
more slowly, but deeper. And we begin again, but not in the same way,
to wait. In a state of war, one is always waiting. We have become
waiting-machines. For the moment it is food we are waiting for. Then
it will be the post. But each in its turn. When we have done with
dinner we will think about the letters. After that, we shall set
ourselves to wait for something else.
Hunger and thirst are urgent instincts which formidably excite the
temper of my companions. As the meal gets later they become
grumblesome and angry. Their need of food and drink snarls from their
lips—"That's eight o'clock. Now, why the hell doesn't it come?"
"Just so, and me that's been pining since noon yesterday," sulks
Lamuse, whose eyes are moist with longing, while his cheeks seem to
carry great daubs of wine-colored grease-paint.
Discontent grows more acute every minute.
"I'll bet Plumet has poured down his own gullet my wine ration that
he's supposed to have, and others with it, and he's lying drunk over
there somewhere."
"It's sure and certain"—Marthereau seconds the proposition.
"Ah, the rotters, the vermin, these fatigue men!" Tirloir bellows.
"An abominable race—all of 'em—mucky-nosed idlers! They roll over
each other all day long at the rear, and they'll be damned before
they'll be in time. Ah, if I were boss, they should damn quick take
our places in the trenches, and they'd have to work for a change. To
begin with, I should say, 'Every man in the section will carry grease
and soup in turns.' Those who were willing, of course—"
"I'm confident," cries Cocon, "it's that Pepere that's keeping the
others back. He does it on purpose, firstly, and then, too, he can't
finish plucking himself in the morning, poor lad. He wants ten hours
for his flea-hunt, he's so finicking; and if he can't get 'em,
monsieur has the pip all day."
"Be damned to him," growls Lamuse. "I'd shift him out of bed if
only I was there! I'd wake him up with boot-toe, I'd—"
"I was reckoning, the other day," Cocon went on; "it took him seven
hours forty-seven minutes to come from thirty-one dug-out. It should
take him five good hours, but no longer."
Cocon is the Man of Figures. He has a deep affection, amounting to
rapacity, for accuracy in recorded computation. On any subject at
all, he goes burrowing after statistics, gathers them with the
industry of an insect, and serves them up on any one who will listen.
Just now, while he wields his figures like weapons, the sharp ridges
and angles and triangles that make up the paltry face where perch the
double discs of his glasses, are contracted with vexation. He climbs
to the firing-step (made in the days when this was the first line),
and raises his head angrily over the parapet. The light touch of a
little shaft of cold sunlight that lingers on the land sets a-glitter
both his glasses and the diamond that hangs from his nose.
"And that Pepere, too, talk about a drinking-cup with the bottom
out! You'd never believe the weight of stuff he can let drop on a
single journey."
With his pipe in the corner, Papa Blaire fumes in two senses. You
can see his heavy mustache trembling. It is like a comb made of bone,
whitish and drooping.
"Do you want to know what I think? These dinner men, they're the
dirtiest dogs of all. It's 'Blast this' and 'Blast that'—John Blast
and Co., I call 'em."
"They have all the elements of a dunghill about them," says Eudore,
with a sigh of conviction. He is prone on the ground, with his mouth
half-open and the air of a martyr. With one fading eye he follows the
movements of Pepin, who prowls to and fro like a hyaena.
Their spiteful exasperation with the loiterers mounts higher and
higher. Tirloir the Grumbler takes the lead and expands. This is
where he comes in. With his little pointed gesticulations he goads
and spurs the anger all around him.
"Ah, the devils, what? The sort of meat they threw at us yesterday!
Talk about whetstones! Beef from an ox, that? Beef from a bicycle,
yes rather! I said to the boys, 'Look here, you chaps, don't you chew
it too quick, or you'll break your front teeth on the nails!'"
Tirloir's harangue—he was manager of a traveling cinema, it
seems—would have made us laugh at other times, but in the present
temper it is only echoed by a circulating growl.
"Another time, so that you won't grumble about the toughness, they
send you something soft and flabby that passes for meat, something
with the look and the taste of a sponge—or a poultice. When you chew
that, it's the same as a cup of water, no more and no less."
"Tout ca," says Lamuse, "has no substance; it gets no grip on your
guts. You think you're full, but at the bottom of your tank you're
empty. So, bit by bit, you turn your eyes up, poisoned for want of
sustenance."
"The next time," Biquet exclaims in desperation, "I shall ask to
see the old man, and I shall say, 'Mon capitaine'—"
"And I," says Barque, "shall make myself look sick, and I shall
say, 'Monsieur le major'—"
"And get nix or the kick-out—they're all alike—all in a band to
take it out of the poor private."
"I tell you, they'd like to get the very skin off us!"
"And the brandy, too! We have a right to get it brought to the
trenches—as long as it's been decided somewhere—I don't know when
or where, but I know it—and in the three days that we've been here,
there's three days that the brandy's been dealt out to us on the end
of a fork!"
"Ah, malheur!"
* * * * * *
"There's the grub!" announces a poilu [note 1] who was on the
look-out at the corner.
"Time, too!"
And the storm of revilings ceases as if by magic. Wrath is changed
into sudden contentment.
Three breathless fatigue men, their faces streaming with tears of
sweat, put down on the ground some large tins, a paraffin can, two
canvas buckets, and a file of loaves, skewered on a stick. Leaning
against the wall of the trench, they mop their faces with their
handkerchiefs or sleeves. And I see Cocon go up to Pepere with a
smile, and forgetful of the abuse he had been heaping on the other's
reputation, he stretches out a cordial hand towards one of the cans
in the collection that swells the circumference of Pepere. after the
manner of a life-belt.
"What is there to eat?"
"It's there," is the evasive reply of the second fatigue man, whom
experience has taught that a proclamation of the menu always evokes
the bitterness of disillusion. So they set themselves to panting
abuse of the length and the difficulties of the trip they have just
accomplished: "Some crowds about, everywhere! It's a tough job to get
along—got to disguise yourself as a cigarette paper,
sometimes."—"And there are people who say they're shirkers in the
kitchens!" As for him, he would a hundred thousand times rather be
with the company in the trenches, to mount guard and dig, than earn
his keep by such a job, twice a day during the night!
Paradis, having lifted the lids of the jars, surveys the recipients
and announces, "Kidney beans in oil, bully, pudding, and
coffee—that's all."
"Nom de Dieu!" bawls Tulacque. "And wine?" He summons the crowd:
"Come and look here, all of you! That—that's the limit! We're done
out of our wine!"
Athirst and grimacing, they hurry up; and from the profoundest
depths of their being wells up the chorus of despair and
disappointment, "Oh, Hell!"
"Then what's that in there?" says the fatigue man, still ruddily
sweating, and using his foot to point at a bucket.
"Yes," says Paradis, "my mistake, there is some."
The fatigue man shrugs his shoulders, and hurls at Paradis a look
of unspeakable scorn—"Now you're beginning! Get your gig-lamps on, if
your sight's bad." He adds, "One cup each—rather less perhaps—some
chucklehead bumped against me, coming through the Boyau du Bois, and
a drop got spilled." "Ah!" he hastens to add, raising his voice, "if
I hadn't been loaded up, talk about the boot-toe he'd have got in the
rump! But he hopped it on his top gear, the brute!"
In spite of this confident assurance, the fatigue man makes off
himself, curses overtaking him as he goes, maledictions charged with
offensive reflections on his honesty and temperance, imprecations
inspired by this revelation of a ration reduced.
All the same, they throw themselves on the food, and eat it
standing, squatting, kneeling, sitting on tins, or on haversacks
pulled out of the holes where they sleep—or even prone, their backs
on the ground, disturbed by passers-by, cursed at and cursing. Apart
from these fleeting insults and jests, they say nothing, the primary
and universal interest being but to swallow, with their mouths and
the circumference thereof as greasy as a rifle-breech. Contentment is
theirs.
At the earliest cessation of their jaw-bones' activity, they serve
up the most ribald of raillery. They knock each other about, and
clamor in riotous rivalry to have their say. One sees even Farfadet
smiling, the frail municipal clerk who in the early days kept himself
so decent and clean amongst us all that he was taken for a foreigner
or a convalescent. One sees the tomato-like mouth of Lamuse dilate and
divide, and his delight ooze out in tears. Poterloo's face, like a
pink peony, opens out wider and wider. Papa Blaire's wrinkles flicker
with frivolity as he stands up, pokes his head forward, and
gesticulates with the abbreviated body that serves as a handle for his
huge drooping mustache. Even the corrugations of Cocon's poor little
face are lighted up.
Becuwe goes in search of firewood to warm the coffee. While we
wait for our drink, we roll cigarettes and fill pipes. Pouches are
pulled out. Some of us have shop-acquired pouches in leather or
rubber, but they are a minority. Biquet extracts his tobacco from a
sock, of which the mouth is drawn tight with string. Most of the
others use the bags for anti-gas pads, made of some waterproof
material which is an excellent preservative of shag, be it coarse or
fine; and there are those who simply fumble for it in the bottom of
their greatcoat pockets.
The smokers spit in a circle, just at the mouth of the dug-out
which most of the half-section inhabit, and flood with tobacco-stained
saliva the place where they put their hands and feet when they
flatten themselves to get in or out.
But who notices such a detail?
* * * * * *
Now, a propos of a letter to Marthereau from his wife, they
discuss produce.
"La mere Marthereau has written," he says. "That fat pig we've got
at home, a fine specimen, guess how much she's worth now?"
But the subject of domestic economy degenerates suddenly into a
fierce altercation between Pepin and Tulacque. Words of quite
unmistakable significance are exchanged. Then—"I don't care a what
you say or what you don't say! Shut it up!"—"I shall shut it when I
want, midden!"—"A seven-pound thump would shut it up quick
enough!"—"Who from? Who'll give it me?"—"Come and find out!"
They grind their teeth and approach each other in a foaming rage.
Tulacque grasps his prehistoric ax, and his squinting eyes are
flashing. The other is pale and his eyes have a greenish glint; you
can see in his blackguard face that his thoughts are with his knife.
But between the two, as they grip each other in looks and mangle in
words, Lamuse intervenes with his huge pacific head, like a baby's,
and his face of sanguinary hue: "Allons, allons! You're not going to
cut yourselves up! Can't be allowed!"
The others also interpose, and the antagonists are separated, but
they continue to hurl murderous looks at each other across the
barrier of their comrades. Pepin mutters a residue of slander in
tones that quiver with malice—
"The hooligan, the ruffian, the blackguard! But wait a bit! I'll
see him later about this!"
On the other side, Tulacque confides in the poilu who is beside
him: "That crab-louse! Non, but you know what he is! You know—there's
no more to be said. Here, we've got to rub along with a lot of people
that we don't know from Adam. We know 'em and yet we don't know 'em;
but that man, if he thinks he can mess me about, he'll find himself
up the wrong street! You wait a bit. I'll smash him up one of these
days, you'll see!"
Meanwhile the general conversation is resumed, drowning the last
twin echoes of the quarrel.
"It's every day alike, alors!" says Paradis to me; "yesterday it
was Plaisance who wanted to let Fumex have it heavy on the jaw, about
God knows what—a matter of opium pills, I think. First it's one and
then it's another that talks of doing some one in. Are we getting to
be a lot of wild animals because we look like 'em?"
"Mustn't take them too seriously, these men," Lamuse declares;
"they're only kids."
"True enough, seeing that they're men."
* * * * * *
The day matures. A little more light has trickled through the mists
that enclose the earth. But the sky has remained overcast, and now it
dissolves in rain; With a slowness which itself disheartens, the wind
brings back its great wet void upon us. The rain-haze makes everything
clammy and dull—even the Turkey red of Lamuse s cheeks, and even the
orange armor that caparisons Tulacque. The water penetrates to the
deep joy with which dinner endowed us, and puts it out. Space itself
shrinks; and the sky, which is a field of melancholy, comes closely
down upon the earth, which is a field of death.
We are still there, implanted and idle. It will be hard to-day to
reach the end of it, to get rid of the afternoon. We shiver in
discomfort, and keep shifting our positions, like cattle enclosed.
Cocon is explaining to his neighbor the arrangement and intricacy
of our trenches. He has seen a military map and made some
calculations. In the sector occupied by our regiment there are fifteen
lines of French trenches. Some are abandoned, invaded by grass, and
half leveled; the others solidly upkept and bristling with men. These
parallels are joined up by innumerable galleries which hook and crook
themselves like ancient streets. The system is much more dense than we
believe who live inside it. On the twenty-five kilometers' width that
form the army front, one must count on a thousand kilometers of
hollowed lines—trenches and saps of all sorts. And the French Army
consists of ten such armies. There are then, on the French side, about
10,000 kilometers [note 2] of trenches, and as much again on the
German side. And the French front is only about one-eighth of the
whole war-front of the world.
Thus speaks Cocon, and he ends by saying to his neighbor, "In all
that lot, you see what we are, us chaps?"
Poor Barque's head droops. His face, bloodless as a slum child's,
is underlined by a red goatee that punctuates his hair like an
apostrophe: "Yes, it's true, when you come to think of it. What's a
soldier, or even several soldiers?—Nothing, and less than nothing,
in the whole crowd; and so we see ourselves lost, drowned, like the
few drops of blood that we are among all this flood of men and
things."
Barque sighs and is silent, and the end of his discourse gives a
chance of hearing to a bit of jingling narrative, told in an
undertone: "He was coming along with two horses—Fs-s-s—a shell; and
he's only one horse left."
"You get fed up with it," says Volpatte.
"But you stick it," growls Barque.
"You've got to," says Paradis.
"Why?" asks Marthereau, without conviction.
"No need for a reason, as long as we've got to."
"There is no reason," Lamuse avers.
"Yes, there is," says Cocon. "It's—or rather, there are several."
"Shut it up! Much better to have no reason, as long as we've got to
stick it."
"All the same," comes the hollow voice of Blaire, who lets no
chance slip of airing his pet phrase—"All the same, they'd like to
steal the very skin off us!"
"At the beginning of it," says Tirette, "I used to think about a
heap of things. I considered and calculated. Now, I don't think any
more."
"Nor me either."
"Nor me."
"I've never tried to."
"You're not such a fool as you look, flea-face," says the shrill
and jeering voice of Mesnil Andre. Obscurely flattered, the other
develops his theme—
"To begin with, you can't know anything about anything."
Says Corporal Bertrand, "There's only one thing you need know, and
it's this; that the Boches are here in front of us, deep dug in, and
we've got to see that they don't get through, and we've got to put
'em out, one day or another—as soon as possible."
"Oui, oui, they've got to leg it, and no mistake about it. What
else is there? Not worth while to worry your head thinking about
anything else. But it's a long job."
An explosion of profane assent comes from Fouillade, and he adds,
"That's what it is!"
"I've given up grousing," says Barque. "At the beginning of it, I
played hell with everybody—with the people at the rear, with the
civilians, with the natives, with the shirkers. Yes, I played hell;
but that was at the beginning of the war—I was young. Now, I take
things better."
"There's only one way of taking 'em—as they come!"
Volpatte assents with a nod of profound conviction. He spits, and
then contemplates his missile with a fixed and unseeing eye.
"You were saying?" insists Barque.
"Here, you haven't got to look too far in front. You must live from
day to day and from hour to hour, as well as you can."
"Certain sure, monkey-face. We've got to do what they tell us to
do, until they tell us to go away."
"That's all," yawns Mesnil Joseph.
Silence follows the recorded opinions that proceed from these dried
and tanned faces, inlaid with dust. This, evidently, is the credo of
the men who, a year and a half ago, left all the corners of the land
to mass themselves on the frontier: Give up trying to understand, and
give up trying to be yourself. Hope that you will not die, and fight
for life as well as you can.
"Do what you've got to do, oui, but get out of your own messes
yourself," says Barque, as he slowly stirs the mud to and fro.
"No choice"—Tulacque backs him up. "If you don't get out of 'em
yourself, no one'll do it for you."
"He's not yet quite extinct, the man that bothers about the other
fellow."
"Every man for himself, in war!"
"That's so, that's so."
Silence. Then from the depth of their destitution, these men summon
sweet souvenirs—"All that," Barque goes on, "isn't worth much,
compared with the good times we had at Soissons."
"Ah, the Devil!"
A gleam of Paradise lost lights up their eyes and seems even to
redden their cold faces.
"Talk about a festival!" sighs Tirloir, as he leaves off scratching
himself, and looks pensively far away over Trenchland.
"Ah, nom de Dieu! All that town, nearly abandoned, that used to be
ours! The houses and the beds—"
"And the cupboards!"
"And the cellars!"
Lamuse's eyes are wet, his face like a nosegay, his heart full.
"Were you there long?" asks Cadilhac, who came here later, with the
drafts from Auvergne.
"Several months."
The conversation had almost died out, but it flames up again
fiercely at this vision of the days of plenty.
"We used to see," said Paradis dreamily, "the poilus pouring along
and behind the houses on the way back to camp with fowls hung round
their middles, and a rabbit under each arm, borrowed from some good
fellow or woman that they hadn't seen and won't ever see again."
We reflect on the far-off flavor of chicken and rabbit. "There were
things that we paid for, too. The spondu-licks just danced about. We
held all the aces in those days."
"A hundred thousand francs went rolling round the shops."
"Millions, oui. All the day, just a squandering that you've no idea
of, a sort of devil's delight."
"Believe me or not," said Blaire to Cadilhac, "but in the middle of
it all, what we had the least of was fires, just like here and
everywhere else you go. You had to chase it and find it and stick to
it. Ah, mon vieux, how we did run after the kindlings!"
"Well, we were in the camp of the C.H.R. The cook there was the
great Martin Cesar. He was the man for finding wood!"
"Ah, oui, oui! He was the ace of trumps! He got what he wanted
without twisting himself."
"Always some fire in his kitchen, young fellow. You saw cooks
chasing and gabbling about the streets in all directions, blubbering
because they had no coal or wood. But he'd got a fire. When he hadn't
any, he said, 'Don't worry, I'll see you through.' And he wasn't long
about it, either."
"He went a bit too far, even. The first time I saw him in his
kitchen, you'd never guess what he'd got the stew going with! With a
violin that he'd found in the house!"
"Rotten, all the same," says Mesnil Andre. "One knows well enough
that a violin isn't worth much when it comes to utility, but all the
same—"
"Other times, he used billiard cues. Zizi just succeeded in
pinching one for a cane, but the rest—into the fire! Then the
arm-chairs in the drawing-room went by degrees—mahogany, they were.
He did 'em in and cut them up by night, case some N.C.O. had something
to say about it."
"He knew his way about," said Pepin. "As for us, we got busy with
an old suite of furniture that lasted us a fortnight."
"And what for should we be without? You've got to make dinner, and
there's no wood or coal. After the grub's served out, there you are
with your jaws empty, with a pile of meat in front of you, and in the
middle of a lot of pals that chaff and bullyrag you!"
"It's the War Office's doing, it isn't ours."
"Hadn't the officers a lot to say about the pinching?"
"They damn well did it themselves, I give you my word! Desmaisons,
do you remember Lieutenant Virvin's trick, breaking down a cellar
door with an ax? And when a poilu saw him at it, he gave him the door
for firewood, so that he wouldn't spread it about."
"And poor old Saladin, the transport officer. He was found coming
out of a basement in the dusk with two bottles of white wine in each
arm, the sport, like a nurse with two pairs of twins. When he was
spotted, they made him go back down to the wine-cellar, and serve out
bottles for everybody. But Corporal Bertrand, who is a man of
scruples, wouldn't have any. Ah, you remember that, do you,
sausage-foot!"
"Where's that cook now that always found wood?" asks Cadilhac.
"He's dead. A bomb fell in his stove. He didn't get it, but he's
dead all the same—died of shock when he saw his macaroni with its
legs in the air. Heart seizure, so the doc' said. His heart was
weak—he was only strong on wood. They gave him a proper
funeral—made him a coffin out of the bedroom floor, and got the
picture nails out of the walls to fasten 'em together, and used
bricks to drive 'em in. While they were carrying him off, I thought
to myself, 'Good thing for him he's dead. If he saw that, he'd never
be able to forgive himself for not having thought of the bedroom
floor for his fire.'—Ah, what the devil are you doing, son of a
pig?"
Volpatte offers philosophy on the rude intrusion of a passing
fatigue party: "The private gets along on the back of his pals. When
you spin your yarns in front of a fatigue gang, or when you take the
best bit or the best place, it's the others that suffer."
"I've often," says Lamuse, "put up dodges so as not to go into the
trenches, and it's come off no end of times. I own up to that. But
when my pals are in danger, I'm not a dodger any more. I forget
discipline and everything else. I see men, and I go. But otherwise,
my boy, I look after my little self."
Lamuse's claims are not idle words. He is an admitted expert at
loafing, but all the same he has brought wounded in under fire and
saved their lives. Without any brag, he relates the deed—
"We were all lying on the grass, and having a hot time. Crack,
crack! Whizz, whizz! When I saw them downed, I got up, though they
yelled at me, 'Get down!' Couldn't leave 'em like that. Nothing to
make a song about, seeing I couldn't do anything else,"
Nearly all the boys of the squad have some high deed of arms to
their credit, and the Croix de Guerre has been successively set upon
their breasts.
"I haven't saved any Frenchmen," says Biquet, "but I've given some
Boches the bitter pill." In the May attacks, he ran off in advance
and was seen to disappear in the distance, but came back with four
fine fellows in helmets.
"I, too," says Tulacque, "I've killed some." Two months ago, with
quaint vanity, he laid out nine in a straight row, in front of the
taken trench. "But," he adds, "it's always the Boche officer that I'm
after."
"Ah, the beasts!" The curse comes from several men at once and from
the bottom of their hearts.
"Ah, mon vieux," says Tirloir, "we talk about the dirty Boche race;
but as for the common soldier, I don't know if it's true or whether
we're codded about that as well, and if at bottom they're not men
pretty much like us."
"Probably they're men like us," says Eudore.
"Perhaps!" cries Cocon, "and perhaps not."
"Anyway," Tirloir goes on, "we've not got a dead set on the men,
but on the German officers; non, non, non, they're not men, they're
monsters. I tell you, they're really a specially filthy sort o'
vermin. One might say that they're the microbes of the war. You ought
to see them close to—the infernal great stiff-backs, thin as nails,
though they've got calf-heads."
"And snouts like snakes."
Tirloir continues: "I saw one once, a prisoner, as I came back from
liaison. The beastly bastard! A Prussian colonel, that wore a
prince's crown, so they told me, and a gold coat-of-arms. He was mad
because we took leave to graze against him when they were bringing
him back along the communication trench, and he looked down on
everybody—like that. I said to myself, 'Wait a bit, old cock, I'll
make you rattle directly!' I took my time and squared up behind him,
and kicked into his tailpiece with all my might. I tell you, he fell
down half-strangled."
"Strangled?"
"Yes, with rage, when it dawned on him that the rump of an officer
and nobleman had been bust in by the hobnailed socks of a poor
private! He went off chattering like a woman and wriggling like an
epileptic—"
"I'm not spiteful myself," says Blaire, "I've got kiddies. And it
worries me, too, at home, when I've got to kill a pig that I
know—but those, I shall run 'em through—Bing!—full in the
linen-cupboard."
"I, too."
"Not to mention," says Pepin, "that they've got silver hats, and
pistols that you can get four quid for whenever you like, and
field-glasses that simply haven't got a price. Ah, bad luck, what a
lot of chances I let slip in the early part of the campaign! I was
too much of a beginner then, and it serves me right. But don't worry,
I shall get a silver hat. Mark my words, I swear I'll have one. I must
have not only the skin of one of Wilhelm's red-tabs, but his togs as
well. Don't fret yourself; I'll fasten on to that before the war
ends."
"You think it'll have an end, then?" asks some one.
"Don't worry!" replies the other.
* * * * * *
Meanwhile, a hubbub has arisen to the right of us, and suddenly a
moving and buzzing group appears, in which dark and bright forms
mingle.
"What's all that?"
Biquet has ventured on a reconnaissance, and returns contemptuously
pointing with his thumb towards the motley mass: "Eh, boys! Come and
have a squint at them! Some people!"
"Some people?"
"Oui, some gentlemen, look you. Civvies, with Staff officers."
It is the sacramental saying and evokes laughter, although we have
heard it a hundred times, and although the soldier has rightly or
wrongly perverted the original meaning and regards it as an ironical
reflection on his life of privations and peril.
Two Somebodies come up; two Somebodies with overcoats and canes.
Another is dressed in a sporting suit, adorned with a plush hat and
binoculars. Pale blue tunics, with shining belts of fawn color or
patent leather, follow and steer the civilians.
With an arm where a brassard glitters in gold-edged silk and golden
ornament, a captain indicates the firing-step in front of an old
emplacement and invites the visitors to get up and try it. The
gentleman in the touring suit clambers up with the aid of his
umbrella.
Says Barque, "You've seen the station-master at the Gare du Nord,
all in his Sunday best, and opening the door of a first-class
compartment for a rich sportsman on the first day of the shooting?
With his 'Montez, monsieur le Propritaire!'—you know, when the toffs
are all togged up in brand-new outfits and leathers and ironmongery,
and showing off with all their paraphernalia for killing poor little
animals!"
Three or four poilus who were quite without their accouterments
have disappeared underground. The others sit as though paralyzed. Even
the pipes go out, and nothing is heard but the babble of talk
exchanged by the officers and their guests.
"Trench tourists," says Barque in an undertone, and then
louder—"This way, mesdames et messieurs"—in the manner of the
moment.
"Chuck it!" whispers Farfadet, fearing that Barque's malicious
tongue will draw the attention of the potent personages.
Some heads in the group are now turned our way. One gentleman who
detaches himself and comes up wears a soft hat and a loose tie. He
has a white billy-goat beard, and might be an artiste. Another
follows him, wearing a black overcoat, a black bowler hat, a black
beard, a white tie and an eyeglass.
"Ah, ah! There are some poilus," says the first gentleman. "These
are real poilus, indeed."
He comes up to our party a little timidly, as though in the
Zoological Gardens, and offers his hand to the one who is nearest to
him—not without awkwardness, as one offers a piece of bread to the
elephant.
"He, he! They are drinking coffee," he remarks.
"They call it 'the juice,'" corrects the magpie-man.
"Is it good, my friends?" The soldier, abashed in his turn by this
alien and unusual visitation, grunts, giggles, and reddens, and the
gentleman says, "He, he!" Then, with a slight motion of the head, he
withdraws backwards.
The assemblage, with its neutral shades of civilian cloth and its
sprinkling of bright military hues—like geraniums and hortensias in
the dark soil of a flowerbed—oscillates, then passes, and moves off
the opposite way it came. One of the officers was heard to say, "We
have yet much to see, messieurs les journalistes."
When the radiant spectacle has faded away, we look at each other.
Those who had fled into the funk-holes now gradually and head first
disinter themselves. The group recovers itself and shrugs its
shoulders.
"They're journalists," says Tirette.
"Journalists?"
"Why, yes, the individuals that lay the newspapers. You don't seem
to catch on, fathead. Newspapers must have chaps to write 'em."
"Then it's those that stuff up our craniums?" says Marthereau.
Barque assumes a shrill treble, and pretending that he has a
newspaper in front of his nose, recites—"'The Crown Prince is mad,
after having been killed at the beginning of the campaign, and
meanwhile he has all the diseases you can name. William will die this
evening, and again to-morrow. The Germans have no more munitions and
are chewing wood. They cannot hold out, according to the most
authoritative calculations, beyond the end of the week. We can have
them when we like, with their rifles slung. If one can wait a few days
longer, there will be no desire to forsake the life of the trenches.
One is so comfortable there, with water and gas laid on, and
shower-baths at every step. The only drawback is that it is rather too
hot in winter. As for the Austrians, they gave in a long time since
and are only pretending.' For fifteen months now it's been like that,
and you can hear the editor saying to his scribes, 'Now, boys, get
into it! Find some way of brushing that up again for me in five secs,
and make it spin out all over those four damned white sheets that
we've got to mucky.'"
"Ah, yes!" says Fouillade.
"Look here, corporal; you're making fun of it—isn't it true what I
said?"
"There's a little truth in it, but you're too slashing on the poor
boys, and you'd be the first to make a song about it if you had to go
without papers. Oui, when the paper-man's going by, why do you all
shout, 'Here, here'?"
"And what good can you get out of them all?" cries Papa Blaire.
"Read 'em by the tubful if you like, but do the same as me—don't
believe 'em!"
"Oui, oui, that's enough about them. Turn the page over,
donkey-nose."
The conversation is breaking up; interest in it follows suit and is
scattered. Four poilus join in a game of manille, that will last
until night blacks out the cards. Volpatte is trying to catch a leaf
of cigarette paper that has escaped his fingers and goes hopping and
dodging in the wind along the wall of the trench like a fragile
butterfly.
Cocon and Tirette are recalling their memories of barrack-life. The
impressions left upon their minds by those years of military training
are ineffaceable. Into that fund of abundant souvenirs, of abiding
color and instant service, they have been wont to dip for their
subjects of conversation for ten, fifteen, or twenty years. So that
they still frequent it, even after a year and a half of actual war in
all its forms.
I can hear some of the talk and guess the rest of it. For it is
everlastingly the same sort of tale that they get out of their
military past;—the narrator once shut up a bad-tempered N.C.O. with
words of extreme appropriateness and daring. He wasn't afraid, he
spoke out loud and strong! Some scraps of it reach my ears—
"Alors, d'you think I flinched when Nenoeil said that to me? Not a
bit, my boy. All the pals kept their jaws shut but me; I spoke up,
'Mon adjudant,' I says, 'it's possible, but—'" A sentence follows
that I cannot secure—"Oh, tu sais, just like that, I said it. He
didn't get shirty; 'Good, that's good,' he says as he hops it, and
afterwards he was as good as all that, with me."
"Just like me, with Dodore, 'jutant of the 13th, when I was on
leave—a mongrel. Now he's at the Pantheon, as caretaker. He'd got it
in for me, so—"
So each unpacks his own little load of historical anecdote. They
are all alike, and not one of them but says, "As for me, I am not like
the others."
* * * * * *
The post-orderly! He is a tall and broad man with fat calves;
comfortable looking, and as neat and tidy as a policeman. He is in a
bad temper. There are new orders, and now he has to go every day as
far as Battalion Headquarters. He abuses the order as if it had been
directed exclusively against himself; and he continues to complain
even while he calls up the corporals for the post and maintains his
customary chat en passant with this man and that. And in spite of his
spleen he does not keep to himself all the information with which he
comes provided. While removing the string from the letter-packets he
dispenses his verbal news, and announces first, that according to
rumor, there is a very explicit ban on the wearing of hoods.
"Hear that?" says Tirette to Tirloir. "Got to chuck your fine hood
away!"
"Not likely! I'm not on. That's nothing to do with me," replies the
hooded one, whose pride no less than his comfort is at stake.
"Order of the General Commanding the Army."
"Then let the General give an order that it's not to rain any more.
I want to know nothing about it."
The majority of Orders, even when less peculiar than this one, are
always received in this way—and then carried out.
"There's a reported order as well," says the man of letters, "that
beards have got to be trimmed and hair got to be clipped close."
"Talk on, my lad," says Barque, on whose head the threatened order
directly falls; "you didn't see me! You can draw the curtains!"
"I'm telling you. Do it or don't do it—doesn't matter a damn to
me."
Besides what is real and written, there is bigger news, but still
more dubious and imaginative—the division is going to be relieved,
and sent either to rest—real rest, for six weeks—or to Morocco, or
perhaps to Egypt.
Divers exclamations. They listen, and let themselves be tempted by
the fascination of the new, the wonderful.
But some one questions the post-orderly: "Who told you that?"
"The adjutant commanding the Territorial detachment that fatigues
for the H.Q. of the A.C."
"For the what?"
"For Headquarters of the Army Corps, and he's not the only one that
says it. There's—you know him—I've forgotten his name—he's like
Galle, but he isn't Galle—there's some one in his family who is Some
One. Anyway, he knows all about it."
"Then what?" With hungry eyes they form a circle around the
story-teller.
"Egypt, you say, we shall go to? Don't know it. I know there were
Pharaohs there at the time when I was a kid and went to school, but
since—"
"To Egypt!" The idea finds unconscious anchorage in their minds.
"Ah, non," says Blaire, "for I get sea-sick. Still, it doesn't
last, sea-sickness. Oui, but what would my good lady say?"
"What about it? She'll get used to it. You see niggers, and streets
full of big birds, like we see sparrows here."
"But haven't we to go to Alsace?"
"Yes," says the post-orderly, "there are some who think so at the
Pay-office."
"That'd do me well enough."
But common sense and acquired experience regain the upper hand and
put the visions to flight. We have been told so often that we were
going a long way off, so often have we believed it, so often been
undeceived! So, as if at a moment arranged, we wake up.
"It's all my eye—they've done it on us too often. Wait before
believing—and don't count a crumb's worth on it."
We reoccupy our corner. Here and there a man bears in his hand the
light momentous burden of a letter.
"Ah," says Tirloir, "I must be writing. Can't go eight days without
writing."
"Me too," says Eudore, "I must write to my p'tit' femme."
"Is she all right, Mariette?"
"Oui, oui, don't fret about Mariette."
A few have already settled themselves for correspondence. Barque is
standing up. He stoops over a sheet of paper flattened on a note-book
upon a jutting crag in the trench wall. Apparently in the grip of an
inspiration, he writes on and on, with his eyes in bondage and the
concentrated expression of a horseman at full gallop.
When once Lamuse—who lacks imagination—has sat down, placed his
little writing-block on the padded summit of his knees, and moistened
his copying-ink pencil, he passes the time in reading again the last
letters received, in wondering what he can say that he has not already
said, and in fostering a grim determination to say something else.
A sentimental gentleness seems to have overspread little Eudore,
who is curled up in a sort of niche in the ground. He is lost in
meditation, pencil in hand, eyes on paper. Dreaming, he looks and
stares and sees. It is another sky that lends him light, another to
which his vision reaches. He has gone home.
In this time of letter-writing, the men reveal the most and the
best that they ever were. Several others surrender to the past, and
its first expression is to talk once more of fleshly comforts.
Through their outer crust of coarseness and concealment, other
hearts venture upon murmured memories, and the rekindling of bygone
brightness: the summer morning, when the green freshness of the
garden steals in upon the purity of the country bedroom; or when the
wind in the wheat of the level lands sets it slowly stirring or
deeply waving, and shakes the square of oats hard by into quick
little feminine tremors; or the winter evening, with women and their
gentleness around the shaded luster of the lamp.
But Papa Blaire resumes work upon the ring he has begun. He has
threaded the still formless disc of aluminium over a bit of rounded
wood, and rubs it with the file. As he applies himself to the job,
two wrinkles of mighty meditation deepen upon his forehead. Anon he
stops, straightens himself, and looks tenderly at the trifle, as
though she also were looking at it.
"You know," he said to me once, speaking of another ring, "it's not
a question of doing it well or not well. The point is that I've done
it for my wife, d'you see? When I had nothing to do but scratch
myself, I used to have a look at this photo"—he showed me a
photograph of a big, chubby-faced woman—"and then it was quite easy
to set about this damned ring. You might say that we've made it
together, see? The proof of that is that it was company for me, and
that I said Adieu to it when I sent it off to Mother Blaire."
He is making another just now, and this one will have copper in it,
too. He works eagerly. His heart would fain express itself to the
best advantage in this the sort of penmanship upon which he is so
tenaciously bent.
As they stoop reverently, in their naked earth-holes, over the
slender rudimentary trinkets—so tiny that the great hide-bound hands
hold them with difficulty or let them fall—these men seem still more
wild, more primitive, and more human, than at all other times.
You are set thinking of the first inventor, the father of all
craftsmen, who sought to invest enduring materials with the shapes of
what he saw and the spirit of what he felt.
* * * * * *
"People coming along," announces Biquet the mobile, who acts as
hall-porter to our section of the trench—"buckets of 'em."
Immediately an adjutant appears, with straps round his belly and his
chin, and brandishing his sword-scabbard.
"Out of the way, you! Out of the way, I tell you! You loafers
there, out of it! Let me see you quit, hey!" We make way indolently.
Those at the sides push back into the earth by slow degrees.
It is a company of Territorials, deputed to our sector for the
fortification of the second line and the upkeep of its communication
trenches. They come into view—miserable bundles of implements, and
dragging their feet.
We watch them, one by one, as they come up, pass, and disappear.
They are stunted and elderly, with dusty faces, or big and
broken-winded, tightly enfolded in greatcoats stained and over-worn,
that yawn at the toothless gaps where the buttons are missing.
Tirette and Barque, the twin wags, leaning close together against
the wall, stare at them, at first in silence. Then they begin to
smile.
"March past of the Broom Brigade," says Tirette.
"We'll have a bit of fun for three minutes," announces Barque.
Some of the old toilers are comical. This one whom the file brings
up has bottle-shaped shoulders. Although extremely narrow-chested and
spindle-shanked, he is big-bellied. He is too much for Barque. "Hullo,
Sir Canteen!" he says.
When a more outrageously patched-up greatcoat appears than all the
others can show, Tirette questions the veteran recruit. "Hey, Father
Samples! Hey, you there!" he insists.
The other turns and looks at him, open-mouthed.
"Say there, papa, if you will be so kind as to give me the address
of your tailor in London!"
A chuckle comes from the antiquated and wrinkle-scrawled face, and
then the poilu, checked for an instant by Barque's command, is
jostled by the following flood and swept away.
When some less striking figures have gone past, a new victim is
provided for the jokers. On his red and wrinkled neck luxuriates some
dirty sheep's-wool. With knees bent, his body forward, his back bowed,
this Territorial's carriage is the worst.
"Tiens!" bawls Tirette, with pointed finger, "the famous
concertina-man! It would cost you something to see him at the
fair—here, he's free gratis!"
The victim stammers responsive insults amid the scattered laughter
that arises.
No more than that laughter is required to excite the two comrades.
It is the ambition to have their jests voted funny by their easy
audience that stimulates them to mock the peculiarities of their old
comrades-in-arms, of those who toil night and day on the brink of the
great war to make ready and make good the fields of battle.
And even the other watchers join in. Miserable themselves, they
scoff at the still more miserable.
"Look at that one! And that, look!"
"Non, but take me a snapshot of that little rump-end! Hey,
earth-worm!"
"And that one that has no ending! Talk about a sky-scratcher!
Tiens, la, he takes the biscuit. Yes, you take it, old chap!"
This man goes with little steps, and holds his pickax up in front
like a candle; his face is withered, and his body borne down by the
blows of lumbago.
"Like a penny, gran'pa?" Barque asks him, as he passes within reach
of a tap on the shoulder.
The broken-down poilu replies with a great oath of annoyance, and
provokes the harsh rejoinder of Barque: "Come now, you might be
polite, filthy-face, old muck-mill!"
Turning right round in fury, the old one defies his tormentor.
"Hullo!" cries Barque, laughing, "He's showing fight; the ruin!
He's warlike, look you, and he might be mischievous if only he were
sixty years younger!"
"And if he wasn't alone," wantonly adds Pepin, whose eye is in
quest of other targets among the flow of new arrivals.
The hollow chest of the last straggler appears, and then his
distorted back disappears.
The march past of the worn-out and trench-foul veterans comes to an
end among the ironical and almost malevolent faces of these sinister
troglodytes, whom their caverns of mud but half reveal.
Meanwhile, the hours slip away, and evening begins to veil the sky
and darken the things of earth. It comes to blend itself at once with
the blind fate and the ignorant dark minds of the multitude there
enshrouded.
Through the twilight comes the rolling hum of tramping men, and
another throng. rubs its way through.
"Africans!"
They march past with faces red-brown, yellow or chestnut, their
beards scanty and fine or thick and frizzled, their greatcoats
yellowish-green, and their muddy helmets sporting the crescent in
place of our grenade. Their eyes are like balls of ivory or onyx,
that shine from faces like new pennies, flattened or angular. Now and
again comes swaying along above the line the coal-black mask of a
Senegalese sharpshooter. Behind the company goes a red flag with a
green hand in the center.
We watch them in silence. These are asked no questions. They
command respect, and even a little fear.
All the same, these Africans seem jolly and in high spirits. They
are going, of course, to the first line. That is their place, and
their passing is the sign of an imminent attack. They are made for
the offensive.
"Those and the 75 gun we can take our hats off to. They're
everywhere sent ahead at big moments, the Moroccan Division."
"They can't quite fit in with us. They go too fast—and there's no
way of stopping them."
Some of these diabolical images in yellow wood or bronze or ebony
are serious of mien, uneasy, and taciturn. Their faces have the
disquieting and secret look of the snare suddenly discovered. The
others laugh with a laugh that jangles like fantastic foreign
instruments of music, a laugh that bares the teeth.
We talk over the characteristics of these Africans; their ferocity
in attack, their devouring passion to be in with the bayonet, their
predilection for "no quarter." We recall those tales that they
themselves willingly tell, all in much the same words and with the
same gestures. They raise their arms over their heads—"Kam'rad,
Kam'rad!" "Non, pas Kam'rad!" And in pantomime they drive a bayonet
forward, at belly-height, drawing it back then with the help of a
foot.
One of the sharpshooters overhears our talk as he passes. He looks
upon us, laughs abundantly in his helmeted turban, and repeats our
words with significant shakes of his head: "Pas Kam'rad, non pas
Kam'rad, never! Cut head off!"
"No doubt they're a different race from us, with their tent-cloth
skin," Barque confesses, though he does not know himself what "cold
feet" are. "It worries them to rest, you know; they only live for the
minute when the officer puts his watch back in his pocket and says,
'Off you go!'"
"In fact, they're real soldiers."
"We are not soldiers," says big Lamuse, "we're men." Though the
evening has grown darker now, that plain true saying sheds something
like a glimmering light on the men who are waiting here, waiting
since the morning. waiting since months ago.
They are men, good fellows of all kinds, rudely torn away from the
joy of life. Like any other men whom you take in the mass, they are
ignorant and of narrow outlook, full of a sound common sense—which
some-times gets off the rails—disposed to be led and to do as they
are bid, enduring under hardships, long-suffering.
They are simple men further simplified, in whom the merely
primitive instincts have been accentuated by the force of
circumstances—the instinct of self-preservation, the hard-gripped
hope of living through, the joy of food, of drink, and of sleep. And
at intervals they are cries and dark shudders of humanity that issue
from the silence and the shadows of their great human hearts.
When we can no longer see clearly, we hear down there the murmur of
a command, which comes nearer and rings loud—"Second half-section!
Muster!" We fall in; it is the call.
"Gee up!" says the corporal. We are set in motion. In front of the
tool-depot there is a halt and trampling. To each is given a spade or
pickax. An N.C.O. presents the handles in the gloom: "You, a spade;
there, hop it! You a spade, too; you a pick. Allons, hurry up and get
off."
We leave by the communication trench at right angles to our own,
and straight ahead towards the changeful frontier, now alive and
terrible.
Up in the somber sky, the strong staccato panting of an invisible
aeroplane circles in wide descending coils and fills infinity. In
front, to right and left, everywhere, thunderclaps roll with great
glimpses of short-lived light in the dark-blue sky.
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[note 1:] The popular and international name for a French soldier.
Its literal meaning is "hairy, shaggy," but the word has conveyed for
over a century the idea of the virility of a Samson, whose strength
lay in his locks.—Tr.
[note 2:] 6250 miles.
[note 3:] Pourvu que les civils tiennent. In the early days of the
war it was a common French saying that victory was certain—"if the
civilians hold out."—Tr.
RELUCTANTLY the ashen dawn is bleaching the still dark and formless
landscape. Between the declining road on the right that falls into
the gloom, and the black cloud of the Alleux Wood—where we hear the
convoy teams assembling and getting under way—a field extends. We
have reached it, we of the 6th Battalion, at the end of the night. We
have piled arms, and now, in the center of this circle of uncertain
light, our feet in the mist and mud, we stand in dark clusters (that
yet are hardly blue), or as solitary phantoms; and the heads of all
are turned towards the road that comes from "down there." We are
waiting for the rest of the regiment, the 5th Battalion, who were in
the first line and left the trenches after us.
Noises; "There they are!" A long and shapeless mass appears in the
west and comes down out of the night upon the dawning road.
At last! It is ended, the accursed shift that began at six o'clock
yesterday evening and has lasted all night, and now the last man has
stepped from the last communication trench.
This time it has been an awful sojourn in the trenches. The 18th
company was foremost and has been cut up, eighteen killed and fifty
wounded—one in three less in four days. And this without attack—by
bombardment alone.
This is known to us, and as the mutilated battalion approaches down
there, and we join them in trampling the muddy field and exchanging
nods of recognition, we cry, "What about the 18th?" We are thinking
as we put the question, "If it goes on like this, what is to become
of all of us? What will become of me?"
The 17th, the 19th, and the 20th arrive in turn and pile arms.
"There's the 18th!" It arrives after all the others; having held the
first trench, it has been last relieved.
The light is a little cleaner, and the world is paling. We can make
out, as he comes down the road, the company's captain, ahead of his
men and alone. He helps himself along with a stick, and walks with
difficulty, by reason of his old wound of the Marne battle that
rheumatism is troubling; and there are other pangs, too. He lowers
his hooded head, and might be attending a funeral. We can see that in
his mind he is indeed following the dead, and his thoughts are with
them.
Here is the company, debouching in dire disorder, and our hearts
are heavy. It is obviously shorter than the other three, in the march
past of the battalion.
I reach the road, and confront the descending mass of the 18th. The
uniforms of these survivors are all earth-yellowed alike, so that
they appear to be clad in khaki. The cloth is stiff with the ochreous
mud that has dried underneath. The skirts of their greatcoats are like
lumps of wood, jumping about on the yellow crust that reaches to their
knees. Their faces are drawn and blackened; dust and dirt have
wrinkled them anew; their eyes are big and fevered. And from these
soldiers whom the depths of horror have given back there rises a
deafening din. They talk all at once, and loudly; they gesticulate,
they laugh and sing. You would think, to see them, that it was a
holiday crowd pouring over the road!
These are the second section and its big sub-lieutenant, whose
greatcoat is tightened and strapped around a body as stiff as a
rolled umbrella. I elbow my way along the marching crowd as far as
Marchal's squad, the most sorely tried of all. Out of eleven comrades
that they were, and had been without a break for a year and a half,
there were three men only with Corporal Marchal.
He sees me—with a glad exclamation and a broad smile. He lets go
his rifle-sling and offers me his hands, from one of which hangs his
trench stick—"Eh, vieux frere, still going strong? What's become of
you lately?"
I turn my head away and say, almost under my breath, "So, old chap,
it's happened badly."
His smile dies at once, and he is serious: "Eh, oui, old man; it
can't be helped; it was awful this time. Barbier is killed."
"They told us—Barbier!"
"Saturday night it was, at eleven o'clock. He had the top of his
back taken away by a shell," says Marchal, "cut off like a razor.
Besse got a bit of shell that went clean through his belly and
stomach. Barthlemy and Baubex got it in the head and neck. We passed
the night skedaddling up and down the trench at full speed, to dodge
the showers. And little Godefroy—did you know him?—middle of his
body blown away. He was emptied of blood on the spot in an instant,
like a bucket kicked over. Little as he was, it was remarkable how
much blood he had, it made a stream at least fifty meters long.
Gougnard got his legs cut up by one explosion. They picked him up not
quite dead. That was at the listening post. I was there on duty with
them. But when that shell fell I had gone into the trench to ask the
time. I found my rifle, that I'd left in my place, bent double, as if
some one had folded it in his hands, the barrel like a corkscrew, and
half of the stock in sawdust. The smell of fresh blood was enough to
bring your heart up."
"And Mondain—him, too?"
"Mondain—that was the day after, yesterday in fact, in a dug-out
that a shell smashed in. He was lying down, and his chest was
crushed. Have they told you about Franco, who was alongside Mondain?
The fall of earth broke his spine. He spoke again after they'd got
him out and set him down. He said, with his head falling to one side,
'I'm dying,' and he was gone. Vigile was with them, too; his body
wasn't touched, but they found him with his head completely flattened
out, flat as a pancake, and huge-as big as that. To see it spread out
on the ground, black and distorted, it made you think of his
shadow—the shadow one gets on the ground sometimes when one walks
with a lantern at night."
"Vigile—only Class 1913—a child! And Mondain and Franco—such
good sorts, in spite of their stripes. We're so many old special pals
the less, mon vieux Marchal."
"Yes," says Marchal. But he is swallowed up in a crowd of his
friends, who worry and catechise him. He bandies jests with them, and
answers their raillery, and all hustle each other, and laugh.
I look from face to face. They are merry, and in spite of the
contractions of weariness, and the earth-stains, they look
triumphant.
What does it mean? If wine had been possible during their stay in
the first line, I should have said, "All these men are drunk."
I single out one of the survivors, who hums as he goes, and steps
in time with it flippantly, as hussars of the stage do. It is
Vanderborn, the drummer.
"Hullo, Vanderborn, you look pleased with yourself!" Vanderborn,
who is sedate in the ordinary, cries, "It's not me yet, you see! Here
I am!" With a mad gesticulation he serves me a thump on the shoulder.
I understand.
If these men are happy in spite of all, as they come out of hell,
it is because they are coming out of it. They are returning, they are
spared. Once again the Death that was there has passed them over.
Each company in its turn goes to the front once in six weeks. Six
weeks! In both great and minor matters, fighting soldiers manifest
the philosophy of the child. They never look afar, either ahead or
around. Their thought strays hardly farther than from day to day.
To-day, every one of those men is confident that he will live yet a
little while.
And that is why, in spite of the weariness that weighs them down
and the new slaughter with which they are still bespattered, though
each has seen his brothers torn away from his side, in spite of all
and in spite of themselves, they are celebrating the Feast of the
Survivors. The boundless glory in which they rejoice is this—they
still stand straight.
AS we reached quarters again, some one cried: "But where's
Volpatte?"—"And Fouillade, where's he?"
They had been requisitioned and taken off to the front line by the
5th Battalion. No doubt we should find them somewhere in quarters. No
success. Two men of the squad lost!
"That's what comes of lending men," said the sergeant with a great
oath. The captain, when apprised of the loss, also cursed and swore
and said, "I must have those men. Let them be found at once. Allez!"
Farfadet and I are summoned by Corporal Bertrand from the barn
where at full length we have already immobilized ourselves, and are
growing torpid: "You must go and look for Volpatte and Fouillade."
Quickly we got up, and set off with a shiver of uneasiness. Our two
comrades have been taken by the 5th and carried off to that infernal
shift. Who knows where they are and what they may be by now!
We climb up the hill again. Again we begin, but in the opposite
direction, the journey done since the dawn and the night. Though we
are without our heavy stuff, and only carry rifles and accouterments,
we feel idle, sleepy, and stiff; and the country is sad, and the sky
all wisped with mist. Farfadet is soon panting. He talked a little at
first, till fatigue enforced silence on him. He is brave enough, but
frail, and during all his prewar life, shut up in the Town Hall office
where he scribbled since the days of his "first sacrament" between a
stove and some ageing cardboard files, he hardly learned the use of
his legs.
Just as we emerge from the wood, slipping and floundering, to
penetrate the region of communication trenches, two faint shadows are
outlined in front. Two soldiers are coming up. We can see the
protuberance of their burdens and the sharp lines of their rifles.
The swaying double shape becomes distinct—"It's them!"
One of the shadows has a great white head, all swathed—"One of
them's wounded! It's Volpatte!"
We run up to the specters, our feet making the sounds of sinking in
sponge and of sticky withdrawal, and our shaken cartridges rattle in
their pouches. They stand still and wait for us. When we are close
up, "It's about time!" cries Volpatte.
"You're wounded, old chap?"—"What?" he says; the manifold bandages
all round his head make him deaf, and we must shout to get through
them. So we go close and shout. Then he replies, "That's nothing;
we're coming from the hole where the 5th Battalion put us on
Thursday."
"You've stayed there—ever since?" yells Farfadet, whose shrill and
almost feminine voice goes easily through the quilting that protects
Volpatte's ears.
"Of course we stayed there, you blithering idiot!" says Fouillade.
"You don't suppose we'd got wings to fly away with, and still less
that we should have legged it without orders?"
Both of them let themselves drop to a sitting position on the
ground. Volpatte's head—enveloped in rags with a big knot on the top
and the same dark yellowish stains as his face—looks like a bundle of
dirty linen.
"They forgot you, then, poor devils?"
"Rather!" cries Fouillade, "I should say they did. Four days and
four nights in a shell-hole, with bullets raining down, a hole that
stunk like a cesspool."
"That's right," says Volpatte. "It wasn't an ordinary
listening-post hole, where one comes and goes regularly. It was just a
shell-hole, like any other old shell-hole, neither more nor less. They
said to us on Thursday, 'Station yourselves in there and keep on
firing,' they said. Next day, a liaison chap of the 5th Battalion came
and showed his neb: 'What the hell are you doing there?'—'Why, we're
firing. They told us to fire, so we're firing,' I says. 'If they told
us to do it, there must be some reason at the back of it. We're
wanting for them to tell us to do something else.' The chap made
tracks. He looked a bit uneasy, and suffering from the effects of
being bombed. 'It's 22,' he says."
"To us two," says Fouillade, "there was a loaf of bread and a
bucket of wine that the 18th gave us when they planted us there, and a
whole case of cartridges, my boy. We fired off the cartridges and
drank the booze, but we had sense to keep a few cartridges and a
hunch of bread, though we didn't keep any wine."
"That's where we went wrong," says Volpatte, "seeing that it was a
thirsty job. Say, boys, you haven't got any gargle?"
"I've still nearly half a pint of wine," replies Farfadet. "Give it
to him," says Fouillade, pointing to Volpatte, "seeing that he's been
losing blood. I'm only thirsty."
Volpatte was shivering, and his little strapped-up eyes burned with
fever in the enormous dump of rags set upon his shoulders. "That's
good," he says, drinking.
"Ah! And then, too," he added, emptying—as politeness
requires—the drop of wine that remained at the bottom of Farfadet's
cup, "we got two Boches. They were crawling about outside, and fell
into our holes, as blindly as moles into a spring snare, those chaps
did. We tied 'em up. And see us then—after firing for thirty-six
hours, we'd no more ammunition. So we filled our magazines with the
last, and waited, in front of the parcels of Boche. The liaison chap
forgot to tell his people that we were there. You, the 6th, forgot to
ask for us; the 18th forgot us, too; and as we weren't in a
listening-post where you're relieved as regular as if at H.Q., I
could almost see us staying there till the regiment came back. In the
long run, it was the loafers of the 204th, come to skulk about looking
for fuses, that mentioned us. So then we got the order to fall
back—immediately, they said. That 'immediately' was a good joke, and
we got into harness at once. We untied the legs of the Boches, led
them off and handed them over to the 204th, and here we are."
"We even fished out, in passing, a sergeant who was piled up in a
hole and didn't dare come out, seeing he was shell-shocked. We
slanged him, and that set him up a bit, and he thanked us. Sergeant
Sacerdote he called himself."
"But your wound, old chap?"
"It's my ears. Two shells, a little one and a big one, my lad—went
off while you're saying it. My head came between the two bursts, as
you might say, but only just; a very close shave, and my lugs got
it."
"You should have seen him," says Fouillade, "it was disgusting,
those two ears hanging down. We had two packets of bandages, and the
stretcher-men fired us one in. That makes three packets he's got
rolled round his nut."
"Give us your traps, we're going back."
Farfadet and I divide Volpatte's equipment between us. Fouillade,
sullen with thirst and racked by stiff joints, growls, and insists
obstinately on keeping his weapons and bundles.
We stroll back, finding diversion—as always—in walking without
ranks. It is so uncommon that one finds it surprising and profitable.
So it is a breach of liberty which soon enlivens all four of us. We
are in the country as though for the pleasure of it.
"We are pedestrians!" says Volpatte proudly. When we reach the
turning at the top of the hill, he relapses upon rosy visions: "Old
man, it's a good wound, after all. I shall be sent back, no mistake
about it."
His eyes wink and sparkle in the huge white clump that dithers on
his shoulders—a clump reddish on each side, where the ears were.
From the depth where the village lies we hear ten o'clock strike.
"To hell with the time," says Volpatte "it doesn't matter to me any
more what time it is."
He becomes loquacious. It is a low fever that inspires his
dissertation, and condenses it to the slow swing of our walk, in
which his step is already jaunty.
"They'll stick a red label on my greatcoat, you'll see, and take me
to the rear. I shall be bossed this time by a very polite sort of
chap, who'll say to me, 'That's one side, now turn the other way—so,
my poor fellow.' Then the ambulance, and then the sick-train, with the
pretty little ways of the Red Cross ladies all the way along, like
they did to Crapelet Jules, then the base hospital. Beds with white
sheets, a stove that snores in the middle of us all, people with the
special job of looking after you, and that you watch doing it,
regulation slippers—sloppy and comfortable—and a chamber-cupboard.
Furniture! And it's in those big hospitals that you're all right for
grub! I shall have good feeds, and baths. I shall take all I can get
hold of. And there'll be presents—that you can enjoy without having
to fight the others for them and get yourself into a bloody mess. I
shall have my two hands on the counterpane, and they'll do damn well
nothing, like things to look at—like toys, what? And under the sheets
my legs'll be white-hot all the way through, and my trotters'll be
expanding like bunches of violets."
Volpatte pauses, fumbles about, and pulls out of his pocket, along
with his famous pair of Soissons scissors, something that he shows to
me: "Tiens, have you seen this?"
It is a photograph of his wife and two children. He has already
shown it to me many a time. I look at it and express appreciation.
"I shall go on sick-leave," says Volpatte, "and while my ears are
sticking themselves on again, the wife and the little ones will look
at me, and I shall look at them. And while they're growing again like
lettuces, my friends, the war, it'll make progress—the Russians—one
doesn't know, what?" He is thinking aloud, lulling himself with happy
anticipations, already alone with his private festival in the midst of
us.
"Robber!" Feuillade shouts at him. "You've too much luck, by God!"
How could we not envy him? He would be going away for one, two, or
three months; and all that time, instead of our wretched privations,
he would be transformed into a man of means!
"At the beginning," says Farfadet, "it sounded comic when I heard
them wish for a 'good wound.' But all the same, and whatever can be
said about it, I understand now that it's the only thing a poor
soldier can hope for if he isn't daft."
* * * * * *
We were drawing near to the village and passing round the wood. At
its corner, the sudden shape of a woman arose against the sportive
sunbeams that outlined her with light. Alertly erect she stood,
before the faintly violet background of the wood's marge and the
crosshatched trees. She was slender, her head all afire with fair
hair, and in her pale face we could see the night-dark caverns of
great eyes. The resplendent being gazed fixedly upon us, trembling,
then plunged abruptly into the undergrowth and disappeared like a
torch.
The apparition and its flight so impressed Volpatte that he lost
the thread of his discourse.
"She's something like, that woman there!"
"No," said Fouillade, who had misunderstood, "she's called Eudoxie.
I knew her because I've seen her before. A refugee. I don't know
where she comes from, but she's at Gamblin, in a family there."
"She's thin and beautiful," Volpatte certified; "one would like to
make her a little present—she's good enough to eat—tender as a
chicken. And look at the eyes she's got!"
"She's queer," says Fouillade. "You don't know when you've got her.
You see her here, there, with her fair hair on top, then—off! Nobody
about. And you know, she doesn't know what danger is; marching about,
sometimes, almost in the front line, and she's been seen knocking
about in No Man's Land. She's queer."
"Look! There she is again. The spook! She's keeping an eye on us.
What's she after?"
The shadow-figure, traced in lines of light, this time adorned the
other end of the spinney's edge.
"To hell with women," Volpatte declared, whom the idea of his
deliverance has completely recaptured.
"There's one in the squad, anyway, that wants her pretty badly.
See—when you speak of the wolf—"
"You see its tail—"
"Not yet, but almost—look!" From some bushes on our right we saw
the red snout of Lamuse appear peeping, like a wild boar's.
He was on the woman's trail. He had seen the alluring vision,
dropped to the crouch of a setting dog, and made his spring. But in
that spring he fell upon us.
Recognizing Volpatte and Fouillade, big Lamuse gave shouts of
delight. At once he had no other thought than to get possession of
the bags, rifles, and haversacks—"Give me all of it—I'm
resting—come on, give it up."
He must carry everything. Farfadet and I willingly gave up
Volpatte's equipment; and Fouillade, now at the end of his strength,
agreed to surrender his pouches and his rifle.
Lamuse became a moving heap. Under the huge burden he disappeared,
bent double, and made progress only with shortened steps.
But we felt that he was still under the sway of a certain project,
and his glances went sideways. He was seeking the woman after whom he
had hurled himself. Every time he halted, the better to trim some
detail of the load, or puffingly to mop the greasy flow of
perspiration, he furtively surveyed all the corners of the horizon
and scrutinized the edges of the wood. He did not see her again.
I did see her again, and got a distinct impression this time that
it was one of us she was after. She half arose on our left from the
green shadows of the undergrowth. Steadying herself with one hand on
a branch, she leaned forward and revealed the night-dark eyes and
pale face, which showed—so brightly lighted was one whole side of
it—like a crescent moon.
I saw that she was smiling. And following the course of the look
that smiled, I saw Farfadet a little way behind us, and he was
smiling too. Then she slipped away into the dark foliage, carrying
the twin smile with her.
Thus was the understanding revealed to me between this lissom and
dainty gypsy, who was like no one at all, and Farfadet, conspicuous
among us all—slender, pliant and sensitive as lilac. Evidently—!
Lamuse saw nothing, blinded and borne down as he was by the load he
had taken from Farfadet and me, occupied in the poise of them, and in
finding where his laden and leaden feet might tread.
But he looks unhappy; he groans. A weighty and mournful obsession
is stifling him. In his harsh breathing it seems to me that I can hear
his heart beating and muttering. Looking at Volpatte, hooded in
bandages, and then at the strong man, muscular and full-blooded, with
that profound and eternal yearning whose sharpness he alone can gauge,
I say to myself that the worst wounded man is not he whom we think.
We go down at last to the village. "Let's have a drink," says
Fouillade. "I'm going to be sent back," says Volpatte. Lamuse puffs
and groans.
Our comrades shout and come running, and we gather in the little
square where the church stands with its twin towers—so thoroughly
mutilated by a shell that one can no longer look it in the face.
THE dim road which rises through the middle of the night-bound wood
is so strangely full of obstructing shadows that the deep darkness of
the forest itself might by some magic have overflowed upon it. It is
the regiment on the march, in quest of a new home.
The weighty ranks of the shadows, burdened both high and broad,
hustle each other blindly. Each wave, pushed by the following,
stumbles upon the one in front, while alongside and detached are the
evolutions of those less bulky ghosts, the N.C.O.'s. A clamor of
confusion, compound of exclamations, of scraps of chat, of words of
command, of spasms of coughing and of song, goes up from the dense
mob enclosed between the banks. To the vocal commotion is added the
tramping of feet, the jingling of bayonets in their scabbards, of
cans and drinking-cups, the rumbling and hammering of the sixty
vehicles of the two convoys—fighting and regimental—that follow the
two battalions. And such a thing is it that trudges and spreads itself
over the climbing road that, in spite of the unbounded dome of night,
one welters in the odor of a den of lions.
In the ranks one sees nothing. Sometimes, when one can lift his
nose up, by grace of an eddy in the tide, one cannot help seeing the
whiteness of a mess-tin, the blue steel of a helmet, the black steel
of a rifle. Anon, by the dazzling jet of sparks that flies from a
pocket flint-and-steel, or the red flame that expands upon the
lilliputian stem of a match, one can see beyond the vivid near relief
of hands and faces to the silhouetted and disordered groups of
helmeted shoulders, swaying like surges that would storm the sable
stronghold of the night. Then, all goes out, and while each tramping
soldier's legs swing to and fro, his eye is fixed inflexibly upon the
conjectural situation of the back that dwells in front of him.
After several halts, when we have allowed ourselves to collapse on
our haversacks at the foot of the stacked rifles—stacks that form on
the call of the whistle with feverish haste and exasperating delay,
through our blindness in that atmosphere of ink-dawn reveals itself,
extends, and acquires the domain of Space. The walls of the Shadow
crumble in vague ruin. Once more we pass under the grand panorama of
the day's unfolding upon the ever-wandering horde that we are.
We emerge at last from this night of marching, across concentric
circles as it seems, of darkness less dark, then of half-shadow, then
of gloomy light. Legs have a wooden stiffness, backs are benumbed,
shoulders bruised. Faces are still so gray or so black, one would say
they had but half rid themselves of the night. Now, indeed, one never
throws it off altogether.
It is into new quarters that the great company is going—this time
to rest. What will the place be like that we have to live in for
eight days? It is called, they say—but nobody is certain of
anything—Gauchin-l'Abbe. We have heard wonders about it—"It appears
to be just it."
In the ranks of the companies whose forms and features one begins
to make out in the birth of morning, and to distinguish the lowered
heads and yawning mouths, some voices are heard in still higher
praise. "There never were such quarters. The Brigade's there, and the
court-martial. You can get anything in the shops."—"If the Brigade's
there, we're all right."—
"Think we can find a table for the squad?"—"Everything you want, I
tell you."
A pessimist prophet shakes his head: "What these quarters'll be
like where we ye never been, I don't know," he says. "What I do know
is that it'll be like the others."
But we don't believe him, and emerging from the fevered turmoil of
the night, it seems to all that it is a sort of Promised Land we are
approaching by degrees the light brings us out of the east and the
icy air towards the unknown village.
At the foot of a bill in the half-light, we reach some houses,
still slumbering and wrapped in heavy grayness
"There it is!"
Poof! We've done twenty-eight kilometers in the night. But what of
that? There is no halt. We go past the houses, and they sink back
again into their vague vapors and their mysterious shroud.
"Seems we've got to march a long time yet. It's always there,
there, there!"
We march like machines, our limbs invaded by a sort of petrified
torpor; our joints cry aloud, and force us to make echo.
Day comes slowly, for a blanket of mist covers the earth. It is so
cold that the men dare not sit down during the halts, though
overborne by weariness, and they pace to and fro in the damp
obscurity like ghosts. The besom of a biting wintry wind whips our
skin, sweeps away and scatters our words and our sighs.
At last the sun pierces the reek that spreads over us and soaks
what it touches, and something like a fairy glade opens out in the
midst of this gloom terrestrial. The regiment stretches itself and
wakes up in truth, with slow-lifted faces to the gilded silver of the
earliest rays. Quickly, then, the sun grows fiery, and now it is too
hot. In the ranks we pant and sweat, and our grumbling is louder even
than just now, when our teeth were chattering and the fog wet-sponged
our hands and faces.
It is a chalk country through which we are passing on this torrid
forenoon—"They mend this road with lime, the dirty devils!" The road
has become blinding—a long-drawn cloud of dessicated chalk and dust
that rises high above our columns and powders us as we go. Faces turn
red, and shine as though varnished; some of the full-blooded ones
might be plastered with vaseline. Cheeks and foreheads are coated with
a rusty paste which agglutinates and cracks. Feet lose their dubious
likeness to feet and might have paddled in a mason's mortar-trough.
Haversacks and rifles are powdered in white, and our legion leaves to
left and right a long milky track on the bordering grass. And to crown
all—"To the right! A convoy!"
We bear to the right, hurriedly, and not without bumpings. The
convoy of lorries, a long chain of foursquare and huge projectiles,
rolling up with diabolical din, hurls itself along the road. Curse
it! One after another, they gather up the thick carpet of white
powder that upholsters the ground and send it broadcast over our
shoulders! Now we are garbed in a stuff of light gray and our faces
are pallid masks, thickest on the eyebrows and mustaches, on beards,
and the cracks of wrinkles. Though still ourselves, we look like
strange old men.
"When we're old buffers, we shall be as ugly as this," says
Tirette.
"Tu craches blanc," declares Biquet. [note 1]
When a halt puts us out of action, you might take us for rows of
plaster statues, with some dirty indications of humanity showing
through.
We move again, silent and chagrined. Every step becomes hard to
complete. Our faces assume congealed and fixed grimaces under the wan
leprosy of dust. The unending effort contracts us and quite fills us
with dismal weariness and disgust.
We espy at last the long-sought oasis. Beyond a hill, on a still
higher one, some slated roofs peep from clusters of foliage as
brightly green as a salad. The village is there, and our looks
embrace it, but we are not there yet. For a long time it seems to
recede as fast as the regiment crawls towards it.
At long last, on the stroke of noon, we reach the quarters that had
begun to appear a pretense and a legend. In regular step and with
rifles on shoulders, the regiment floods the street of Gauchin-l'Abbe
right to its edges. Most of the villages of the Pas du Calais are
composed of a single street, but such a street! It is often several
kilometers long. In this one, the street divides in front of the
mairie and forms two others, so that the hamlet becomes a big Y,
brokenly bordered by low-built dwellings.
The cyclists, the officers, the orderlies, break away from the long
moving mass. Then, as they come up, a few of the men at a time are
swallowed up by the barns, the still available houses being reserved
for officers and departments. Our half-company is led at first to the
end of the village, and then—by some misunderstanding among the
quartermasters—back to the other end, the one by which we entered.
This oscillation takes up time, and the squad, dragged thus from
north to south and from south to north, heavily fatigued and
irritated by wasted walking, evinces feverish impatience. For it is
supremely important to be installed and set free as early as possible
if we are to carry out the plan we have cherished so long—to find a
native with some little place to let, and a table where the squad can
have its meals. We have talked a good deal about this idea and its
delightful advantages. We have taken counsel, subscribed to a common
fund, and decided that this time we will take the header into the
additional outlay.
But will it be possible? Very many places are already snapped up.
We are not the only ones to bring our dream of comfort here, and it
will be a race for that table. Three companies are coming in after
ours, but four were here before us, and there are the officers, the
cooks of the hospital staff for the Section, and the clerks, the
drivers, the orderlies and others, official cooks of the sergeants'
mess, and I don't know how many more. All these men are more
influential than the soldiers of the line, they have more mobility
and more money, and can bring off their schemes beforehand. Already,
while we march four abreast towards the barn assigned to the squad,
we see some of these jokers across the conquered thresholds,
domestically busy.
Tirette imitates the sounds of lowing and bleating—"There's our
cattle-shed." A fairly big barn. The chopped straw smells of
night-soil, and our feet stir up clouds of dust. But it is almost
enclosed. We choose our places and cast off our equipment.
Those who dreamed yet once again of a special sort of Paradise sing
low—yet once again. "Look now, it seems as ugly as the other
places."—"It's something like the same."—"Naturally."
But there is no time to waste in talking. The thing is to get clear
and be after the others with all strength and speed. We hurry out. In
spite of broken backs and aching feet, we set ourselves savagely to
this last effort on which the comfort of a week depends.
The squad divides into two patrols and sets off at the double, one
to left and one to right along the street, which is already
obstructed by busy questing poilus; and all the groups see and watch
each other—and hurry. In places there are collisions, jostlings, and
abuse.
"Let's begin down there at once, or our goose'll be cooked!" I have
an impression of a kind of fierce battle between all the soldiers, in
the streets of the village they have just occupied. "For us," says
Marthereau, "war is always struggling and fighting—always, always."
We knock at door after door, we show ourselves timidly, we offer
ourselves like undesirable goods. A voice arises among us, "You
haven't a bit of a corner, madame, for some soldiers? We would pay."
"No—you see, I've got officers—under-officers, that is—you see,
it's the mess for the band, and the secretaries, and the gentlemen of
the ambulance—"
Vexation after vexation. We close again, one after the other, all
the doors we had half-opened, and look at each other, on the wrong
side of the threshold, with dwindling hope in our eyes.
"Bon Dieu! You'll see that we shan't find anything," growls Barque.
"Damn those chaps that got on the midden before us!"
The human flood reaches high-water mark everywhere. The three
streets are all growing dark as each overflows into another. Some
natives cross our path, old men or ill-shapen, contorted in their
walk, stunted in the face; and even young people, too, over whom
hovers the mystery of secret disorders or political connections. As
for the petticoats, there are old women and many young ones—fat,
with well-padded cheeks, and equal to geese in their whiteness.
Suddenly, in an alley between two houses, I have a fleeting vision
of a woman who crossed the shadowy gap—Eudoxie! Eudoxie, the fairy
woman whom Lamuse hunted like a satyr, away back in the country, that
morning we brought back Volpatte wounded, and Fouillade, the woman I
saw leaning from the spinney's edge and bound to Farfadet in a mutual
smile. It is she whom I just glimpsed like a gleam of sunshine in that
alley. But the gleam was eclipsed by the tail of a wall, and the place
thereof relapsed upon gloom. She here, already! Then she has followed
our long and painful trek! She is attracted—?
And she looks like one allured, too. Brief glimpse though it was of
her face and its crown of fair hair, plainly I saw that she was
serious, thoughtful, absentminded.
Lamuse, following close on my heels, saw nothing, and I do not tell
him. He will discover quite soon enough the bright presence of that
lovely flame where he would fain cast himself bodily, though it
evades him like a Will-o'-th'-wisp. For the moment, besides, we are
on business bent. The coveted corner must be won. We resume the hunt
with the energy of despair. Barque leads us on; he has taken the
matter to heart. He is trembling—you can see it in his dusty scalp.
He guides us, nose to the wind. He suggests that we make an attempt
on that yellow door over there. Forward!
Near the yellow door, we encounter a shape down-bent. Blaire, his
foot on a milestone, is reducing the bulk of his boot with his knife,
and plaster-like debris is falling fast. He might be engaged in
sculpture.
"You never had your feet so white before," jeers Barque. "Rotting
apart," says Blaire, "you don't know where it is, that special van?"
He goes on to explain: "I've got to look up the dentist-van, so they
can grapple with my ivories, and strip off the old grinders that's
left. Oui, seems it's stationed here, the chop-caravan."
He folds up his knife, pockets it, and goes off alongside the wall,
possessed by the thought of his jaw-bones' new lease of life.
Once more we put up our beggars' petition: "Good-day, madame; you
haven't got a little corner where we could feed? We would pay, of
course, we would pay—"
Through the glass of the low window we see lifted the face of an
old man—like a fish in a bowl, it looks—a face curiously flat, and
lined with parallel wrinkles, like a page of old manuscript.
"You've the little shed there."
"There's no room in the shed, and when the washing's done there—"
Barque seizes the chance. "It'll do very likely. May we see it?"
"We do the washing there," mutters the woman, continuing to wield
her broom.
"You know," says Barque, with a smile and an engaging air, "we're
not like those disagreeable people who get drunk and make themselves
a nuisance. May we have a look?"
The woman has let her broom rest. She is thin and inconspicuous.
Her jacket hangs from her shoulders as from a valise. Her face is like
cardboard, stiff and without expression. She looks at us and
hesitates, then grudgingly leads the way into a very dark little
place, made of beaten earth and piled with dirty linen.
"It's splendid," cries Lamuse, in all honesty.
"Isn't she a darling, the little kiddie!" says Barque, as he pats
the round cheek, like painted india-rubber, of a little girl who is
staring at us with her dirty little nose uplifted in the gloom. "Is
she yours, madame?"
"And that one, too?" risks Marthereau, as he espies an over-ripe
infant on whose bladder-like cheeks are shining deposits of jam, for
the ensnaring of the dust in the air. He offers a half-hearted caress
in the direction of the moist and bedaubed countenance. The woman does
not deign an answer.
So there we are, trifling and grinning, like beggars whose plea
still hangs fire.
Lamuse whispers to me, in a torment of fear and cupidity, "Let's
hope she'll catch on, the filthy old slut. It's grand here, and, you
know, everything else is pinched!"
"There's no table," the woman says at last.
"Don't worry about the table," Barque exclaims. "Tenez! there, put
away in that corner, the old door; that would make us a table."
"You're not going to trail me about and upset all my work!" replies
the cardboard woman suspiciously, and with obvious regret that she
had not chased us away immediately.
"Don't worry, I tell you. Look, I'll show you. Hey, Lamuse, old
cock, give me a hand."
Under the displeased glances of the virago we place the old door on
a couple of barrels.
"With a bit of a rub-down," says I, "that will be perfect."
"Eh, oui, maman, a flick with a brush'll do us instead of
tablecloth."
The woman hardly knows what to say; she watches us spitefully:
"There's only two stools, and how many are there of you?"
"About a dozen."
"A dozen. Jesus Maria!"
"What does it matter? That'll be all right, seeing there's a plank
here—and that's a bench ready-made, eh, Lamuse?"
"Course," says Lamuse.
"I want that plank," says the woman. "Some soldiers that were here
before you have tried already to take it away."
"But us, we're not thieves," suggests Lamuse gently, so as not to
irritate the creature that has our comfort at her disposal.
"I don't say you are, but soldiers, vous savez, they smash
everything up. Oh, the misery of this war!"
"Well then, how much'll it be, to hire the table, and to heat up a
thing or two on the stove?"
"It'll be twenty sous a day," announces the hostess with restraint,
as though we were wringing that amount from her.
"It's dear," says Lamuse.
"It's what the others gave me that were here, and they were very
kind, too, those gentlemen, and it was worth my while to cook for
them. I know it's not difficult for soldiers. If you think it's too
much, it's no job to find other customers for this room and this
table and the stove, and who wouldn't be in twelves. They're coming
along all the time, and they'd pay still more, if I wanted. A
dozen!—"
Lamuse hastens to add, "I said 'It's dear,' but still, it'll do,
eh, you others?" On this downright question we record our votes.
"We could do well with a drop to drink," says Lamuse. "Do you sell
wine?"
"No," said the woman, but added, shaking with anger, "You see, the
military authority forces them that's got wine to sell it at fifteen
sous! Fifteen sous! The misery of this cursed war! One loses at it,
at fifteen sous, monsieur. So I don't sell any wine. I've got plenty
for ourselves. I don't say but sometimes, and just to oblige, I don't
allow some to people that one knows, people that knows what things
are, but of course, messieurs, not at fifteen sous."
Lamuse is one of those people "that knows what things are." He
grabs at his water-bottle, which is hanging as usual on his hip. "Give
me a liter of it. That'll be what?"
"That'll be twenty-two sous, same as it cost me. But you know it's
just to oblige you, because you're soldiers."
Barque, losing patience, mutters an aside. The woman throws him a
surly glance, and makes as if to hand Lamuse's bottle back to him.
But Lamuse, launched upon the hope of drinking wine at last, so that
his cheeks redden as if the draught already pervaded them with its
grateful hue, hastens to intervene—
"Don't be afraid—it's between ourselves, la mere, we won't give
you away."
She raves on, rigid and bitter, against the limited price on wine;
and, overcome by his lusty thirst, Lamuse extends the humiliation and
surrender of conscience so far as to say, "No help for it, madame!
It's a military order, so it's no use trying to understand it."
She leads us into the store-room. Three fat barrels occupy it in
impressive rotundity. "Is this your little private store?"
"She knows her way about, the old lady," growls Barque.
The shrew turns on her heel, truculent: "Would you have me ruin
myself by this miserable war? I've about enough of losing money all
ways at once."
"How?" insists Barque.
"I can see you're not going to risk your money!"
"That's right—we only risk our skins."
We intervene, disturbed by the tone of menace for our present
concern that the conversation has assumed. But the door of the
wine-cellar is shaken, and a man's voice comes through. "Hey,
Palmyra!" it calls.
The woman hobbles away, discreetly leaving the door open. "That's
all right—we've taken root!" Lamuse says.
"What dirty devils these, people are!" murmurs Barque, who finds
his reception hard to stomach.
"It's shameful and sickening," says Marthereau.
"One would think it was the first time you'd had any of it!"
"And you, old gabbler," chides Barque, "that says prettily to the
wine-robber, 'Can't be helped, it's a military order'! Gad, old man,
you're not short of cheek!"
"What else could I do or say? We should have had to go into
mourning for our table and our wine. She could make us pay forty sous
for the wine, and we should have had it all the same, shouldn't we?
Very well, then, got to think ourselves jolly lucky. I'll admit I'd no
confidence, and I was afraid it was no go."
"I know; it's the same tale everywhere and always, but all the
same—"
"Damn the thieving natives, ah, oui! Some of 'em must be making
fortunes. Everybody can't go and get killed."
"Ah, the gallant people of the East!"
"Yes, and the gallant people of the North!"
"Who welcome us with open arms!"
"With open hands, yes—"
"I tell you," Marthereau says again, "it's a shame and it's
sickening."
"Shut it up—there's the she-beast coming back." We took a turn
round to quarters to announce our success, and then went shopping.
When we returned to our new dining-room, we were hustled by the
preparations for lunch. Barque had been to the rations distribution,
and had managed, thanks to personal relations with the cook (who was
a conscientious objector to fractional divisions), to secure the
potatoes and meat that formed the rations for all the fifteen men of
the squad. He had bought some lard—a little lump for fourteen
sous—and some one was frying. He had also acquired some green peas
in tins, four tins. Mesnil Andre's tin of veal in jelly would be a
hors-d'oeuvre.
"And not a dirty thing in all the lot!" said Lamuse, enchanted.
* * * * * *
We inspected the kitchen. Barque was moving cheerfully about the
iron Dutch oven whose hot and steaming bulk furnished all one side of
the room.
"I've added a stewpan on the quiet for the soup," he whispered to
me. Lifting the lid of the stove—"Fire isn't too hot. It's half an
hour since I chucked the meat in, and the water's clean yet."
A minute later we heard some one arguing with the hostess. This
extra stove was the matter in dispute. There was no more room left
for her on her stove. They had told her they would only need a
casserole, and she had believed them. If she had known they were
going to make trouble she would not have let the room to them.
Barque, the good fellow, replied jokingly, and succeeded in soothing
the monster.
One by one the others arrived. They winked and rubbed their hands
together, full of toothsome anticipation, like the guests at a
wedding-breakfast. As they break away from the dazzling light outside
and penetrate this cube of darkness, they are blinded, and stand like
bewildered owls for several minutes.
"It's not too brilliant in here," says Mesnil Joseph. "Come, old
chap, what do you want?" The others exclaim in chorus, "We're damned
well off here." And I can see heads nodding assent in the cavern's
twilight.
An incident: Farfadet having by accident rubbed against the damp
and dirty wall, his shoulder has brought away from it a smudge so big
and black that it can be seen even here. Farfadet, so careful of his
appearance, growls, and in avoiding a second contact with the wall,
knocks the table so that his spoon drops to the ground. Stooping, he
fumbles among the loose earth, where dust and spiders' webs for years
have silently fallen. When he recovers his spoon it is almost black,
and webby threads hang from it. Evidently it is disastrous to let
anything fall on the ground. One must live here with great care.
Lamuse brings down his fat hand, like a pork-pie, between two of
the places at table. "Allons, a table!" We fall to. The meal is
abundant and of excellent quality. The sound of conversation mingles
with those of emptying bottles and filling jaws. While we taste the
joy of eating at a table, a glimmer of light trickles through a
vent-hole, and wraps in dusty dawn a piece of the atmosphere and a
patch of the table, while its reflex lights up a plate, a cap's peak,
an eye. Secretly I take stock of this gloomy little celebration that
overflows with gayety. Biquet is telling about his suppliant sorrows
in quest of a washerwoman who would agree to do him the good turn of
washing some linen, but "it was too damned dear." Tulacque describes
the queue outside the grocer's. One might not go in; customers were
herded outside, like sheep. "And although you were outside, if you
weren't satisfied, and groused too much, they chased you off."
Any news yet? It is said that severe penalties have been imposed on
those who plunder the population, and there is already a list of
convictions. Volpatte has been sent down. Men of Class '93 are going
to be sent to the rear, and Pepere is one of them.
When Barque brings in the harvest of the fry-pan, he announces that
our hostess has soldiers at her table—ambulance men of the
machine-guns. "They thought they were the best off, but it's us
that's that," says Fouillade with decision, lolling grandly in the
darkness of the narrow and tainted hole where we are just as
confusedly heaped together as in a dug-out. But who would think of
making the comparison?
"Vous savez pas," says Pepin, "the chaps of the 9th, they're in
clover! An old woman has taken them in for nothing, because of her old
man that's been dead fifty years and was a rifleman once on a time.
Seems she's even given them a rabbit for nix, and they're just
worrying it jugged."
"There's good sorts everywhere. But the boys of the 9th had famous
luck to fall into the only shop of good sorts in the whole village."
Palmyra comes with the coffee, which she supplies. She thaws a
little, listens to us, and even asks questions in a supercilious way:
"Why do you call the adjutant 'le juteux'?"
Barque replies sententiously, "'Twas ever thus."
When she has disappeared, we criticize our coffee. "Talk about
clear! You can see the sugar ambling round the bottom of the
glass."—"She charges six sous for it."—"It's filtered water."
The door half opens, and admits a streak of light. The face of a
little boy is defined in it. We entice him in like a kitten and give
him a bit of chocolate.
Then, "My name's Charlie," chirps the child. "Our house, that's
close by. We've got soldiers, too. We always had them, we had. We
sell them everything they want. Only, voila, sometimes they get
drunk."
"Tell me, little one, come here a bit," says Cocon, taking the boy
between his knees. "Listen now. Your papa, he says, doesn't he,
'Let's hope the war goes on,' eh?" [note 2]
"Of course," says the child, tossing his head, "because we're
getting rich. He says, by the end of May, we shall have got fifty
thousand francs."
"Fifty thousand francs! Impossible!"
"Yes, yes!" the child insists, stamping, "he said it to mamma. Papa
wished it could be always like that. Mamma, sometimes, she isn't
sure, because my brother Adolphe is at the front. But we're going to
get him sent to the rear, and then the war can go on."
These confidences are disturbed by sharp cries, coming from the
rooms of our hosts. Biquet the mobile goes to inquire. "It's
nothing," says he, coming back; "it's the good man slanging the woman
because she doesn't know how to do things, he says, because she's made
the mustard in a tumbler, and he never heard of such a thing, he
says."
We get up, and leave the strong odor of pipes, wine, and stale
coffee in our cave. As soon as we have crossed the threshold, a
heaviness of heat puffs in our faces, fortified by the mustiness of
frying that dwells in the kitchen and emerges every time the door is
opened. We pass through legions of flies which, massed on the walls
in black hordes, fly abroad in buzzing swarms as we pass: "It's
beginning again like last year! Flies outside, lice inside.—"
"And microbes still farther inside!"
In a corner of this dirty little house and its litter of old
rubbish, its dusty debris of last year and the relics of so many
summers gone by, among the furniture and household gear, something is
moving. It is an old simpleton with a long bald neck, pink and rough,
making you think of a fowl's neck which has prematurely molted through
disease. His profile is that of a hen, too—no chin and a long nose. A
gray overlay of beard felts his receded cheek, and you see his heavy
eyelids, rounded and horny, move up and down like shutters on the dull
beads of his eyes.
Barque has already noticed him: "Watch him—he's a treasure-seeker.
He says there's one somewhere in this hovel that he's stepfather to.
You'll see him directly go on all-fours and push his old phizog in
every corner there is. Tiens, watch him."
With the aid of his stick, the old man proceeded to take methodical
soundings. He tapped along the foot of the walls and on the
floor-tiles.. He was hustled by the coming and going of the occupants
of the house, by callers, and by the swing of Palmyra's broom; but she
let him alone and said nothing, thinking to herself, no doubt, that
the exploitation of the national calamity is a more profitable
treasure than problematical caskets.
Two gossips are standing in a recess and exchanging confidences in
low voices, hard by an old map of Russia that is peopled with flies.
"Oui, but it's with the Picon bitters that you've got to be careful.
If you haven't got a light touch, you can't get your sixteen glasses
out of a bottle, and so you lose too much profit. I don't say but
what one's all right in one's purse, even so, but one doesn't make
enough. To guard against that, the retailers ought to agree among
themselves, but the understanding's so difficult to bring off, even
when it's in the general interest."
Outside there is torrid sunshine, riddled with flies. The little
beasts, quite scarce but a few days ago, multiply everywhere the
murmur of their minute and innumerable engines. I go out in the
company of Lamuse; we are going for a saunter. One can be at peace
today—it is complete rest, by reason of the overnight march. We
might sleep, but it suits us much better to use the rest for an
extensive promenade. To-morrow, the exercise and fatigues will get us
again. There are some, less lucky than we, who are already caught in
the cogwheels of fatigue. To Lamuse, who invites him to come and
stroll with us, Corvisart replies, screwing up the little round nose
that is laid flatly on his oblong face like a cork, "Can't—I'm on
manure!" He points to the shovel and broom by whose help he is
performing his task of scavenger and night-soil man.
We walk languidly. The afternoon lies heavy on the drowsy land and
on stomachs richly provided and embellished with food. The remarks we
exchange are infrequent.
Over there, we hear noises. Barque has fallen a victim to a
menagerie of housewives; and the scene is pointed by a pale little
girl, her hair tied behind in a pencil of tow and her mouth
embroidered with fever spots, and by women who are busy with some
unsavory job of washing in the meager shade before their doors.
Six men go by, led by a quartermaster corporal. They carry heaps of
new greatcoats and bundles of boots. Lamuse regards his bloated and
horny feet—"I must have some new sheds, and no mistake; a bit more
and you'll see my splay-feet through these ones. Can't go marching on
the skin of my tongs, eh?"
An aeroplane booms overhead. We follow its evolutions with our
faces skyward, our necks twisted, our eyes watering at the piercing
brightness of the sky.
Lamuse declares to me, when we have brought our gaze back to earth,
"Those machines'll never become practical, never."
"How can you say that? Look at the progress they've made already,
and the speed of it."
"Yes, but they'll stop there. They'll never do any better, never."
This time I do not challenge the dull and obstinate denial that
ignorance opposes to the promise of progress, and I let my big
comrade alone in his stubborn belief that the wonderful effort of
science and industry has been suddenly cut short.
Having thus begun to reveal to me his inmost thoughts, Lamuse
continues. Coming nearer and lowering his head, he says to me, "You
know she's here—Eudoxie?"
"Ah!" said I.
"Yes, old chap. You never notice anything, you don't, but I
noticed," and Lamuse smiles at me indulgently. "Now, do you catch on?
If she's come here, it's because we interest her, eh? She's followed
us for one of us, and don't you forget it."
He gets going again. "My boy, d'you want to know what I say? She's
come after me."
"Are you sure of it, old chap?"
"Yes," says the ox-man, in a hollow voice. "First, I want her.
Then, twice, old man, I've found her exactly in my path, in mine,
d'you understand? You may tell me that she ran away; that's because
she's timid, that, yes—"
He stopped dead in the middle of the street and looked straight at
me. The heavy face, greasily moist on the cheeks and nose, was
serious. His rotund fist went up to the dark yellow mustache, so
carefully pointed, and smoothed it tenderly. Then he continued to lay
bare his heart to me "I want her; but, you know, I shall marry her all
right, I shall. She's called Eudoxie Dumail. At first, I wasn't
thinking of marrying her. But since I've got to know her family name,
it seems to me that it's different, and I should get on all right. Ah,
nom de Dieu! She's so pretty, that woman! And it's not only that she's
pretty—ah!"
The huge child was overflowing with sentiment and emotion, and
trying to make them speak to me. "Ah, my boy, there are times when
I've just got to hold myself back with a hook," came the strained and
gloomy tones, while the blood flushed to the fleshy parts of his
cheeks and neck. "She's so beautiful, she's—and me I'm—she's so
unlike—you'll have noticed it, surely, you that notices—she's a
country girl, oui; eh bien, she's got a God knows what that's better
than a Parisienne, even a toffed-up and stylish Parisienne, pas?
She—as for me, I—"
He puckered his red eyebrows. He would have liked to tell me all
the splendor of his thoughts, but he knew not the art of expressing
himself, so he was silent. He remained alone in his voiceless
emotion, as always alone.
We went forward side by side between the rows of houses. In front
of the doors, drays laden with casks were drawn up. The front windows
blossomed with many-hued heaps of jam-pots, stacks of tinder
pipe-lighters—everything that the soldier is compelled to buy.
Nearly all the natives had gone into grocery. Business had been
getting out of gear locally for a long time, but now it was booming.
Every one, smitten with the fever of sum-totals and dazzled by the
multiplication table, plunged into trade.
Bells tolled, and the procession of a military funeral came out. A
forage wagon, driven by a transport man, carried a coffin wrapped in
a flag. Following, were a detachment of men, an adjutant, a padre,
and a civilian.
"The poor little funeral with its tail lopped off!" said Lamuse.
"Ah, those that are dead are very happy. But only sometimes, not
always—voila!"
We have passed the last of the houses. In the country, beyond the
end of the street, the fighting convoy and the regimental convoy have
settled themselves, the traveling kitchens and jingling carts that
follow them with odds and ends of equipment, the Red Cross wagons, the
motor lorries, the forage carts, the baggage-master's gig. The tents
of drivers and conductors swarm around the vehicles. On the open
spaces horses lift their metallic eyes to the sky's emptiness, with
their feet on barren earth. Four poilus are setting up a table. The
open-air smithy is smoking. This heterogeneous and swarming city,
planted in ruined fields whose straight or winding ruts are stiffening
in the heat, is already broadly valanced with rubbish and dung.
On the edge of the camp a big, white-painted van stands out from
the others in its tidy cleanliness. Had it been in the middle of a
fair, one would have said it was the stylish show where one pays more
than at the others.
This is the celebrated "stomatological" van that Blaire was asking
about. In point of fact, Blaire is there in front, looking at it. For
some long time, no doubt, he has been going round it and gazing.
Field-hospital orderly Sambremeuse, of the Division, returning from
errands, is climbing the portable stair of painted wood which leads
to the van door. In his arms he carries a bulky box of biscuits, a
loaf of fancy bread, and a bottle of champagne. Blaire questions
him—"Tell me, Sir Rump, this horse-box—is it the dentist's?"
"It's written up there," replies Sambremeuse—a little corpulent
man, clean, close-shaven, and his chin starch-white. "If you can't
see it, you don't want the dentist to look after your grinders, you
want the vet to clean your eyesight."
Blaire comes nearer and scrutinizes the establishment. "It's a
queer shop," he says. He goes nearer yet, draws back, hesitates to
risk his gums in that carriage. At last he decides, puts a foot on the
stair, and disappears inside the caravan.
We continue our walk, and turn into a footpath where are high,
dusty bushes and the noises are subdued. The sunshine blazes
everywhere; it heats and roasts the hollow of the way, spreading
blinding and burning whiteness in patches, and shimmers in the sky of
faultless blue.
At the first turning, almost before we had heard the light grating
of a footstep, we are face to face with Eudoxie!
Lamuse utters a deep exclamation. Perhaps he fancies once more that
she is looking for him, and believes that she is the gift of his
destiny. He goes up to her—all the bulk of him.
She looks at him and stops, framed by the hawthorn. Her strangely
slight and pale face is apprehensive, the lids tremble on her
magnificent eyes. She is bareheaded, and in the hollowed neck of her
linen corsage there is the dawning of her flesh. So near, she is
truly enticing in the sunshine, this woman crowned with gold, and
one's glance is impelled and astonished by the moon-like purity of
her skin. Her eyes sparkle; her teeth, too, glisten white in the
living wound of her half-open mouth, red as her heart.
"Tell me—I am going to tell you "pants Lamuse. "I like you so
much—" He outstretches his arm towards the motionless, beloved
wayfarer.
She starts, and replies to him, "Leave me alone—you disgust me!"
The man's hand is thrown over one of her little ones. She tries to
draw it back, and shakes it to free herself. Her intensely fair hair
falls loose, flaming. He draws her to him. His head bends towards
her, and his lips are ready. His desire—the wish of all his strength
and all his life—is to caress her. He would die that he might touch
her with his lips. But she struggles, and utters a choking cry. She is
trembling, and her beautiful face is disfigured with abhorrence.
I go up and put my hand on my friend's shoulder, but my
intervention is not needed. Lamuse recoils and growls, vanquished.
"Are you taken that way often?" cries Eudoxie.
"No!" groans the miserable man, baffled, overwhelmed, bewildered.
"Don't do it again, vous savez!" she says, and goes off panting,
and he does not even watch her go. He stands with his arms hanging,
gazing at the place whence she has gone, tormented to the quick, torn
from his dreams of her, and nothing left him to desire.
I lead him away and he comes in dumb agitation, sniffling and out
of breath, as though he had run a long way. The mass of his big head
is bent. In the pitiless light of eternal spring, he is like the poor
Cyclops who roamed the shores of ancient Sicily in the beginnings of
time—like a huge toy, a thing of derision, that a child's shining
strength could subdue.
The itinerant wine-seller, whose barrow is hunchbacked with a
barrel, has sold several liters to the men on guard duty. He
disappears round the bend in the road, with his face flat and yellow
as a Camembert, his scanty, thin hair frayed into dusty flakes, and
so emaciated himself that one could fancy his feet were fastened to
his trunk by strings through his flopping trousers.
And among the idle poilus of the guard-room at the end of the
place, under the wing of the shaking and rattling signboard which
serves as advertisement of the village, [note 3] a conversation is set
up on the subject of this wandering buffoon.
"He has a dirty neb," says Bigornot; "and I'll tell you what I
think—they've no business to let civvies mess about at the front
with their pretty ringlets, and especially individuals that you don't
know where they come from."
"You're quite crushing, you portable louse," replies Cornet.
"Never mind, shoe-sole face," Bigornot insists; "we trust 'em too
much. I know what I'm saying when I open it."
"You don't," says Canard. "Pepere's going to the rear."
"The women here," murmurs La Mollette, "they're ugly; they're a lot
of frights."
The other men on guard, their concentrated gaze roaming in space,
watch two enemy aeroplanes and the intricate skeins they are
spinning. Around the stiff mechanical birds up there that appear now
black like crows and now white like gulls, according to the play of
the light, clouds of bursting shrapnel stipple the azure, and seem
like a long flight of snowflakes in the sunshine.
As we are going back, two strollers come up—Carassus and
Cheyssier. They announce that mess-man Pepere is going to the rear,
to be sent to a Territorial regiment, having come under the operation
of the Dalbiez Act.
"That's a hint for Blaire," says Carassus, who has a funny big nose
in the middle of his face that suits him ill.
In the village groups of poilus go by, or in twos, joined by the
crossing bonds of converse. We see the solitary ones unite in
couples, separate, then come together again with a new inspiration of
talk, drawn to each other as if magnetized.
In the middle of an excited crowd white papers are waving. It is
the newspaper hawker, who is selling for two sous papers which should
be one sou. Fouillade is standing in the middle of the road, thin as
the legs of a hare. At the corner of a house Paradis shows to the sun
face pink as ham.
Biquet joins us again, in undress, with a jacket and cap of the
police. He is licking his chops: "I met some pals and we've had a
drink. You see, to-morrow one starts scratching again, and cleaning
his old rags and his catapult. But my greatcoat!—going to be some
job to filter that! It isn't a greatcoat any longer—it's
armor-plate."
Montreuil, a clerk at the office, appears and hails Biquet: "Hey,
riff-raff! A letter! Been chasing you an hour. You're never to be
found, rotter!"
"Can't be both here and there, looney. Give us a squint." He
examines the letter, balances it in his hand, and announces as he
tears the envelope, "It's from the old woman."
We slacken our pace. As he reads, he follows the lines with his
finger, wagging his head with an air of conviction, and his lips
moving like a woman's in prayer.
The throng increases the nearer we draw to the middle of the
village. We salute the commandant and the black-skirted padre who
walks by the other's side like his nurse. We are questioned by
Pigeon, Guenon, young Escutenaire, and Chasseur Clodore. Lamuse
appears blind and deaf, and concerned only to walk.
Bizouarne, Chanrion, and Roquette arrive excitedly to announce big
news—"D'you know, Pepere's going to the rear."
"Funny," says Biquet, raising his nose from his letter, "how people
kid themselves. The old woman's bothered about me!" He shows me a
passage in the maternal epistle: "'When you get my letter,'" he
spells out, "'no doubt you will be in the cold and mud, deprived of
everything, mon pauvre Eugene'" He laughs: "It's ten days since she
put that down for me, and she's clean off it. We're not cold, 'cos
it's been fine since this morning; and we're not miserable, because
we've got a room that's good enough. We've had hard times, but we're
all right now."
As we reach the kennel in which we are lodgers, we are thinking
that sentence over. Its touching simplicity affects me, shows me a
soul—a host of souls. Because the sun has shown himself, because we
have felt a gleam and a similitude of comfort, suffering exists no
longer, either of the past or the terrible future. "We're all right
now." There is no more to say.
Biquet establishes himself at the table, like a gentleman, to write
a reply. Carefully he lays abroad his pen ink, and paper, and
examines each, then smilingly traces the strictly regular lines of
his big handwriting across the meager page.
"You'd laugh," he says, "if you knew what I've written to the old
woman." He reads his letter again, fondles it, and smiles to himself.
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[note 1:] Pity to spoil this jest by translation, but Biquet's
primary meaning was "You're cross because you've a throat like a
lime-kiln." His secondary or literal meaning is obvious.—Tr.
[note 2:] See p. 34 ante; [chapter 5, note 3] another reference to
the famous phrase. "Pourvu que les civils tiennent."—Tr.
[note 3:] Every French village has a plaque attached to the first
house on each road of approach, giving its name and the distance to
the next.—Tr.
WE are enthroned in the back yard. The big hen, white as a cream
cheese, is brooding in the depths of a basket near the coop whose
imprisoned occupant is rummaging about. But the black hen is free to
travel. She erects and withdraws her elastic neck in jerks, and
advances with a large and affected gait. One can just see her profile
and its twinkling spangle, and her talk appears to proceed from a
metal spring. She marches, glistening black and glossy like the
love-locks of a gypsy; and as she marches, she unfolds here and there
upon the ground a faint trail of chickens.
These trifling little yellow balls, kept always by a whispering
instinct on the ebb-tide to safety, hurry along under the maternal
march in short, sharp jerks, pecking as they go. Now the train comes
to a full stop, for two of the chickens are thoughtful and immobile,
careless of the parental clucking.
"A bad sign," says Paradis; "the hen that reflects is ill." And
Paradis uncrosses and recrosses his legs. Beside him on the bench,
Blaire extends his own, lets loose a great yawn that he maintains in
placid duration, and sets himself again to observe, for of all of us
he most delights in watching fowls during the brief life when they
are in such a hurry to eat.
And we watch them in unison, not forgetting the shabby old cock,
worn threadbare. Where his feathers have fallen appears the naked
india-rubber leg, lurid as a grilled cutlet. He approaches the white
sitter, which first turns her head away in tart denial, with several
"No's" in a muffled rattle, and then watches him with the little blue
enamel dials of her eyes.
"We're all right," says Barque.
"Watch the little ducks," says Blaire, "going along the
communication trench."
We watch a single file of all-golden ducklings go past—still
almost eggs on feet—their big heads pulling their little lame bodies
along by the string of their necks, and that quickly. From his corner,
the big dog follows them also with his deeply dark eye, on which the
slanting sun has shaped a fine tawny ring.
Beyond this rustic yard and over the scalloping of the low wall,
the orchard reveals itself, where a green carpet, moist and thick,
covers the rich soil and is topped by a screen of foliage with a
garniture of blossom, some white as statuary, others pied and glossy
as knots in neckties. Beyond again is the meadow, where the shadowed
poplars throw shafts of dark or golden green. Still farther again is
a square patch of upstanding hops, followed by a patch of cabbages,
sitting on the ground and dressed in line. In the sunshine of air and
of earth we hear the bees, as they work and make music (in deference
to the poets), and the cricket which, in defiance of the fable, sings
with no humility and fills Space by himself.
Over yonder, there falls eddying from a poplar's peak a
magpie—half white, half black, like a shred of partly-burned paper.
The soldiers outstretch themselves luxuriously on the stone bench,
their eyes half closed, and bask in the sunshine that warms the basin
of the big yard till it is like a bath.
"That's seventeen days we've been here! After thinking we were
going away day after day!"
"One never knows," said Paradis, wagging his head and smacking his
lips.
Through the yard gate that opens on to the road we see a group of
poilus strolling, nose in air, devouring the sunshine; and then, all
alone, Tellurure. In the middle of the street he oscillates the
prosperous abdomen of which he is proprietor, and rocking on legs
arched like basket-handles, he expectorates in wide abundance all
around him.
"We thought, too, that we should be as badly off here as in the
other quarters. But this time it's real rest, both in the time it
lasts and the kind it is."
"You're not given too many exercises and fatigues."
"And between whiles you come in here to loll about."
The old man huddled up at the end of the seat—no other than the
treasure-seeking grandfather whom we saw the day of our arrival—came
nearer and lifted his finger. "When I was a young man, I was thought a
lot of by women," he asserted, shaking his head. "I have led young
ladies astray!"
"Ah!" said we, heedless, our attention taken away from his senile
prattle by the timely noise of a cart that was passing, laden and
laboring.
"Nowadays," the old man went on, "I only think about money."
"Ah, oui, the treasure you're looking for, papa."
"That's it," said the old rustic, though he felt the skepticism
around him. He tapped his cranium with his forefinger, which he then
extended towards the house. "Take that insect there," he said,
indicating a little beast that ran along the plaster. "What does it
say? It says, 'I am the spider that spins the Virgin's thread.'" And
the archaic simpleton added, "One must never judge what people do,
for one can never tell what may happen."
"That's true," replied Paradis politely. "He's funny," said Mesnil
Andre, between his teeth, while he sought the mirror in his pocket to
look at the facial benefit of fine weather. "He's crazy," murmured
Barque in his ecstasy.
"I leave you," said the old man, yielding in annoyance.
He got up to go and look for his treasure again, entered the house
that supported our backs, and left the door open, where beside the
huge fireplace in the room we saw a little girl, so seriously playing
with a doll that Blaire fell considering, and said, "She's right."
The games of children are a momentous preoccupation. Only the
grown-ups play.
After we have watched the animals and the strollers go by, we watch
the time go by, we watch everything.
We are seeing the life of things, we are present with Nature,
blended with climates, mingled even with the sky, colored by the
seasons. We have attached ourselves to this corner of the land where
chance has held us back from our endless wanderings in longer and
deeper peace than elsewhere; and this closer intercourse makes us
sensible of all its traits and habits. September—the morrow of
August and eve of October, most affecting of months—is already
sprinkling the fine days with subtle warnings. Already one knows the
meaning of the dead leaves that flit about the flat stones like a
flock of sparrows.
In truth we have got used to each other's company, we and this
place. So often transplanted, we are taking root here, and we no
longer actually think of going away, even when we talk about it.
"The 11th Division jolly well stayed a month and a half resting,"
says Blaire.
"And the 375th, too, nine weeks!" replies Barque, in a tone of
challenge.
"I think we shall stay here at least as long—at least, I say."
"We could finish the war here all right."
Barque is affected by the words, nor very far from believing them.
"After all, it will finish some day, what!"
"After all!" repeat the others.
"To be sure, one never knows," says Paradis. He says this weakly,
without deep conviction. It is, however, a saying which leaves no
room for reply. We say it over again, softly, lulling ourselves with
it as with an old song.
* * * * * *
Farfadet rejoined us a moment ago. He took his place near us, but a
little withdrawn all the same, and sits on an overturned tub, his
chin on his fists.
This man is more solidly happy than we are. We know it well, and he
knows it well. Lifting his head he has looked in turn, with the same
distant gaze, at the back of the old man who went to seek his
treasure, and at the group that talks of going away no more. There
shines over our sensitive and sentimental comrade a sort of personal
glamour, which makes of him a being apart, which gilds him and
isolates him from us, in spite of himself, as though an officer's
tabs had fallen on him from the sky.
His idyll with Eudoxie has continued here. We have had the proofs;
and once, indeed, he spoke of it. She is not very far away, and they
are very near to each other. Did I not see her the other evening,
passing along the wall of the parsonage, her hair but half quenched
by a mantilla, as she went obviously to a rendezvous? Did I not see
that she began to hurry and to lean forward, already smiling?
Although there is no more between them yet than promises and
assurances, she is his, and he is the man who will hold her in his
arms.
Then, too, he is going to leave us, called to the rear, to Brigade
H.Q., where they want a weakling who can work a typewriter. It is
official; it is in writing; he is saved. That gloomy future at which
we others dare not look is definite and bright for him.
He looks at an open window and the dark gap behind it of some room
or other over there, a shadowy room that bemuses him. His life is
twofold in hope; he is happy, for the imminent happiness that does
not yet exist is the only real happiness down here.
So a scanty spirit of envy grows around him. "One never knows,"
murmurs Paradis again, but with no more confidence than when before,
in the straitened scene of our life to-day, he uttered those
immeasurable words.
THE next day, Barque began to address us, and said: "I'll just
explain to you what it is. There are some i—"
A ferocious whistle cut his explanation off short, on the syllable.
We were in a railway station, on a platform. A night alarm had torn
us from our sleep in the village and we had marched here. The rest
was over; our sector was being changed; they were throwing us
somewhere else. We had disappeared from Gauchin under cover of
darkness without seeing either the place or the people, without
bidding them good-by even in a look, without bringing away a last
impression.
A locomotive was shunting, near enough to elbow us, and screaming
full-lunged. I saw Barque's mouth, stoppered by the clamor of our
huge neighbor, pronounce an oath, and I saw the other faces grimacing
in deafened impotence, faces helmeted and chin-strapped, for we were
sentries in the station.
"After you!" yelled Barque furiously, addressing the white-plumed
whistle. But the terrible mechanism continued more imperiously than
ever to drive his words back in his throat. When it ceased, and only
its echo rang in our ears, the thread of the discourse was broken for
ever, and Barque contented himself with the brief conclusion, "Oui."
Then we looked around us. We were lost in a sort of town.
Interminable strings of trucks, trains of forty to sixty carriages,
were taking shape like rows of dark-fronted houses, low built, all
alike, and divided by alleys. Before us, alongside the collection of
moving houses, was the main line, the limitless street where the
white rails disappeared at both ends, swallowed up in distance.
Sections of trains and complete trains were staggering in great
horizontal columns, leaving their places, then taking them again. On
every side one heard the regular hammering on the armored ground,
piercing whistles, the ringing of warning bells, the solid metallic
crash of the colossal cubes telescoping their steel stumps, with the
counter-blows of chains and the rattle of the long carcases'
vertebrae. On the ground floor of the building that arises in the
middle of the station like a town ball, the hurried bell of telegraph
and telephone was at work, punctuated by vocal noises. All about on
the dusty ground were the goods sheds, the low stores through whose
doors one could dimly see the stacked interiors—the pointsmen's
cabins, the bristling switches, the hydrants, the latticed iron posts
whose wires ruled the sky like music-paper; here and there the
signals, and rising naked over this flat and gloomy city, two steam
cranes, like steeples.
Farther away, on waste ground and vacant sites in the environs of
the labyrinth of platforms and buildings, military carts and lorries
were standing idle, and rows of horses, drawn out farther than one
could see.
"Talk about the job this is going to be!"—"A whole army corps
beginning to entrain this evening!"—"Tiens, they're coming now!"
A cloud which overspread a noisy vibration of wheels and the rumble
of horses' hoofs was coming near and getting bigger in the approach
to the station formed by converging buildings.
"There are already some guns on board." On some flat trucks down
there, between two long pyramidal dumps of chests, we saw indeed the
outline of wheels, and some slender muzzles. Ammunition wagons, guns
and wheels were streaked and blotched with yellow, brown, and green.
"They're camoufles. [note 1] Down there, there are even horses
painted. Look! spot that one, there, with the big feet as if he had
trousers on. Well, he was white, and they've slapped some paint on to
change his color."
The horse in question was standing apart from the others, which
seemed to mistrust it, and displayed a grayish yellow tone, obviously
with intent to deceive. "Poor devil!" said Tulacque.
"You see," said Paradis, "we not only take 'em to get killed, but
mess them about first!"
"It's for their good, any way!"
"Eh oui, and us too, it's for our good!"
Towards evening soldiers arrived. From all sides they flowed
towards the station. Deep-voiced non-coms. ran in front of the files.
They were stemming the tide of men and massing them along the barriers
or in railed squares—pretty well everywhere. The men piled their
arms, dropped their knapsacks, and not being free to go out, waited,
buried side by side in shadow.
The arrivals followed each other in volume that grew as the
twilight deepened. Along with the troops, the motors flowed up, and
soon there was an unbroken roar. Limousines glided through an enormous
sea of lorries, little, middling, and big. All these cleared aside,
wedged themselves in, subsided in their appointed places. A vast hum
of voices and mingled noises arose from the ocean of men and vehicles
that beat upon the approaches to the station and began in places to
filter through.
"That's nothing yet," said Cocon, The Man of Figures. "At Army
Corps Headquarters alone there are thirty officers' motors; and you
don't know," he added, "how many trains of fifty trucks it takes to
entrain all the Corpsmen and all the box of tricks—except, of
course, the lorries, that'll join the new sector on their feet? Don't
guess, fiat-face. It takes ninety."
"Great Scott! And there are thirty-three Corps?"
"There are thirty-nine, lousy one!"
The turmoil increases; the station becomes still more populous. As
far as the eye can make out a shape or the ghost of a shape, there is
a hurly-burly of movement as lively as a panic. All the hierarchy of
the non-coms. expand themselves and go into action, pass and repass
like meteors, wave their bright-striped arms, and multiply the
commands and counter-commands that are carried by the worming
orderlies and cyclists, the former tardy, the latter maneuvering in
quick dashes, like fish in water.
Here now is evening, definitely. The blots made by the uniforms of
the poilus grouped about the hillocks of rifles become indistinct,
and blend with the ground; and then their mass is betrayed only by
the glow of pipes and cigarettes. In some places on the edge of the
clusters, the little bright points festoon the gloom like illuminated
streamers in a merry-making street.
Over this confused and heaving expanse an amalgam of voices rises
like the sea breaking on the shore: and above this unending murmur,
renewed commands, shouts, the din of a shot load or of one
transferred, the crash of steam-hammers redoubling their dull
endeavors, and the roaring of boilers.
In the immense obscurity, surcharged with men and with all things,
lights begin everywhere to appear. These are the flash-lamps of
officers and detachment leaders, and the cyclists' acetylene lamps,
whose intensely white points zigzag hither and thither and reveal an
outer zone of pallid resurrection.
An acetylene searchlight blazes blindingly out and depicts a dome
of daylight. Other beams pierce and rend the universal gray.
Then does the station assume a fantastic air. Mysterious shapes
spring up and adhere to the sky's dark blue. Mountains come into
view, rough-modeled, and vast as the ruins of a town. One can see the
beginning of unending rows of objects, finally plunged in night. One
guesses what the great bulks may be whose outermost outlines flash
forth from a black abyss of the unknown.
On our left, detachments of cavalry and infantry move ever forward
like a ponderous flood. We hear the diffused obscurity of voices. We
see some ranks delineated by a flash of phosphorescent light or a
ruddy glimmering, and we listen to long-drawn trails of noise.
Up the gangways of the vans whose gray trunks and black mouths one
sees by the dancing and smoking flame of torches, artillerymen are
leading horses. There are appeals and shouts, a frantic trampling of
conflict, and the angry kicking of some restive animal—insulted by
its guide—against the panels of the van where he is cloistered.
Not far away, they are putting wagons on to railway trucks.
Swarming humanity surrounds a hill of trusses of fodder. A scattered
multitude furiously attacks great strata of bales.
"That's three hours we've been on our pins," sighs Paradis.
"And those, there, what are they?" In some snatches of light we see
a group of goblins, surrounded by glowworms and carrying strange
instruments, come out and then disappear.
"That's the searchlight section," says Cocon.
"You've got your considering cap on, camarade; what's it about?"
"There are four Divisions, at present, in an Army Corps," replies
Cocon; "the number changes, sometimes it is three, sometimes five.
Just now, it's four. And each of our Divisions," continues the
mathematical one, whom our squad glories in owning, "includes three
R.I.—regiments of infantry; two B.C.P.—battalions of chasseurs
pied; one R.T.I.—regiment of territorial infantry—without counting
the special regiments, Artillery, Engineers, Transport, etc., and not
counting either Headquarters of the D.I. and the departments not
brigaded but attached directly to the D.I. A regiment of the line of
three battalions occupies four trains, one for H.Q., the machine-gun
company, and the C.H.R. (compagnie hors rang [note 2]), and one to
each battalion. All the troops won't entrain here. They'll entrain in
echelons along the line according to the position of the quarters and
the period of reliefs."
"I'm tired," says Tulacque. "We don't get enough solids to eat,
mark you. We stand up because it's the fashion, but we've no longer
either force or freshness."
"I've been getting information," Cocon goes on; "the troops—the
real troops—will only entrain as from midnight. They are still
mustered here and there in the villages ten kilometers round about.
All the departments of the Army Corps will first set off, and the
E.N.E.—elements non endivisionnes," Cocon obligingly explains, "that
is, attached directly to the A.C. Among the E.N.E. you won't see the
Balloon Department nor the Squadron—they're too big goods, and they
navigate on their own, with their staff and officers and hospitals.
The chasseurs regiment is another of these E.N.E."
"There's no regiment of chasseurs," says Barque, thoughtlessly,
"it's battalions. One says 'such and such a battalion of chasseurs.'"
We can see Cocon shrugging his shoulders in the shadows, and his
glasses cast a scornful gleam. "Think so, duck-neb? Then I'll tell
you, since you're so clever, there are two—foot chasseurs and horse
chasseurs."
"Gad! I forgot the horsemen," says Barque.
"Only them!" Cocon said. "In the E.N.E. of the Army Corps, there's
the Corps Artillery, that is to say, the central artillery that's
additional to that of the divisions. It includes the H.A.—heavy
artillery; the T.A.—trench artillery; the A.D.—artillery depot, the
armored cars, the anti-aircraft batteries—do I know, or don't I?
There's the Engineers; the Military Police—to wit, the service of
cops on foot and slops on horseback; the Medical Department; the
Veterinary ditto; a squadron of the Draught Corps; a Territorial
regiment for the guards and fatigues at H.Q.—Headquarters; the
Service de l'lntendance, [note 3] and the supply column. There's also
the drove of cattle, the Remount Depot, the Motor Department—talk
about the swarm of soft jobs I could tell you about in an hour if I
wanted to!—the Paymaster that controls the pay-offices and the Post,
the Council of War, the Telegraphists, and all the electrical lot. All
those have chiefs, commandants, sections and sub-sections, and they're
rotten with clerks and orderlies of sorts, and all the bally box of
tricks. You can see from here the sort of job the C.O. of a Corp's
got!"
At this moment we were surrounded by a party of soldiers carrying
boxes in addition to their equipment, and parcels tied up in paper
that they bore reluctantly and anon placed on the ground, puffing.
"Those are the Staff secretaries. They are a part of the
H.Q.—Headquarters—that is to say, a sort of General's suite. When
they're flitting, they lug about their chests of records, their
tables, their registers, and all the dirty oddments they need for
their writing. Tiens! see that, there; it's a typewriter those two
are carrying, the old papa and the little sausage, with a rifle
threaded through the parcel. They're in three offices, and there's
also the dispatch-riders' section, the Chancellerie, the
A.C.T.S.—Army Corps Topographical Section—that distributes maps to
the Divisions, and makes maps and plans from the aviators and the
observers and the prisoners. It's the officers of all the departments
who, under the orders of two colonels, form the Staff of the Army
Corps. But the H.Q., properly so called, which also includes
orderlies, cooks, storekeepers, workpeople, electricians, police, and
the horsemen of the Escort, is bossed by a commandant."
At this moment we receive collectively a tremendous bump. "Hey,
look out! Out of the way!" cries a man, by way of apology, who is
being assisted by several others to push a cart towards the wagons.
The work is hard, for the ground slopes up, and so soon as they cease
to buttress themselves against the cart and adhere to the wheels, it
slips back. The sullen men crush themselves against it in the depth
of the gloom, grinding their teeth and growling, as though they fell
upon some monster.
Barque, all the while rubbing his back, questions one of the
frantic gang: "Think you're going to do it, old duckfoot?"
"Nom de Dieu!" roars he, engrossed in his job, "mind these setts!
You're going to wreck the show!" With a sudden movement he jostles
Barque again, and this time turns round on him: "What are you doing
there, dung-guts, numskull?"
"Non, it can't be that you're drunk?" Barque retorts. "'What am I
doing here?' It's good, that! Tell me, you lousy gang, wouldn't you
like to do it too!"
"Out of the way!" cries a new voice, which precedes some men
doubled up under burdens incongruous, but apparently overwhelming.
One can no longer remain anywhere. Everywhere we are in the way. We
go forward, we scatter, we retire in the turmoil.
"In addition, I tell you," continues Cocon, tranquil as a
scientist, "there are the Divisions, each organized pretty much like
an Army Corps—"
"Oui, we know it; miss the deal!"
"He makes a fine to-do about it all, that mountebank in the
horse-box on casters. What a mother-in-law he'd make!"
"I'll bet that's the Major's wrong-headed horse, the one that the
vet said was a calf in process of becoming a cow."
"It's well organized, all the same, all that, no doubt about it,"
says Lamuse admiringly, forced back by a wave of artillerymen
carrying boxes.
"That's true," Marthereau admits; "to get all this lot on the way,
you've not got to be a lot of turnip-heads nor a lot of custards—Bon
Dieu, look where you're putting your damned boots, you black-livered
beast!"
"Talk about a flitting! When I went to live at Marcoussis with my
family, there was less fuss than this. But then I'm not built that
way myself."
We are silent; and then we hear Cocon saying, "For the whole French
Army that holds the lines to go by—I'm not speaking of those who are
fixed up at the rear, where there are twice as many men again, and
services like the ambulance that cost nine million francs and can
clear you seven thousand cases a day—to see them go by in trains of
sixty coaches each, following each other without stopping, at
intervals of a quarter of an hour, it would take forty days and forty
nights."
"Ah!" they say. It is too much effort for their imagination; they
lose interest and sicken of the magnitude of these figures. They
yawn, and with watering eyes they follow, in the confusion of haste
and shouts and smoke, of roars and gleams and flashes, the terrible
line of the armored train that moves in the distance, with fire in
the sky behind it.
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[note 1:] The word is likely to become of international usage. It
stands for the use of paint in blotches of different colors, and of
branches and other things to disguise almost any object that may be
visible to hostile aircraft.—Tr.
EUDORE sat down awhile, there by the roadside well, before taking
the path over the fields that led to the trenches, his hands crossed
over one knee, his pale face uplifted. He had no mustache under his
nose—only a little flat smear over each corner of his mouth. He
whistled, and then yawned in the face of the morning till the tears
came.
An artilleryman who was quartered on the edge of the wood—over
there where a line of horses and carts looked like a gypsies'
bivouac—came up, with the well in his mind, and two canvas buckets
that danced at the end of his arms in time with his feet. In front of
the sleepy unarmed soldier with a bulging bag he stood fast.
"On leave?"
"Yes," said Eudore; "just back."
"Good for you," said the gunner as he made off.
"You've nothing to grumble at—with six days' leave in your
water-bottle!"
And here, see, are four more men coming down the road, their gait
heavy and slow, their boots turned into enormous caricatures of boots
by reason of the mud. As one man they stopped on espying the profile
of Eudore.
"There's Eudore! Hello, Eudore! hello, the old sport! You're back
then!" they cried together, as they hurried up and offered him hands
as big and ruddy as if they were hidden in woolen gloves.
"Morning, boys," said Eudore.
"Had a good time? What have you got to tell us, my boy?"
"Yes," replied Eudore, "not so bad."
"We've been on wine fatigue, and we've finished. Let's go back
together, pas?"
In single file they went down the embankment of the road—arm in
arm they crossed the field of gray mud, where their feet fell with the
sound of dough being mixed in the kneading-trough.
"Well, you've seen your wife, your little Mariette—the only girl
for you—that you could never open your jaw without telling us a tale
about her, eh?"
Eudore's wan face winced.
"My wife? Yes, I saw her, sure enough, but only for a little
while—there was no way of doing any better—but no luck, I admit,
and that's all about it."
"How's that?"
"How? You know that we live at Villers-l'Abbaye, a hamlet of four
houses neither more nor less, astraddle over the road. One of those
houses is our cafe, and she runs it, or rather she is running it
again since they gave up shelling the village.
"Now then, with my leave coming along, she asked for a permit to
Mont-St-Eloi, where my old folks are, and my permit was for
Mont-St-Eloi too. See the move?
"Being a little woman with a head-piece, you know, she had applied
for her permit long before the date when my leave was expected. All
the same, my leave came before her permit. Spite o' that I set
off—for one doesn't let his turn in the company go by, eh? So I
stayed with the old people, and waited. I like 'em well enough, but I
got down in the mouth all the same. As for them, it was enough that
they could see me, and it worried them that I was bored by their
company-how else could it be? At the end of the sixth day—at the
finish of my leave, and the very evening before returning—a young man
on a bicycle, son of the Florence family, brings me a letter from
Mariette to say that her permit had not yet come—"
"Ah, rotten luck," cried the audience.
"And that," continued Eudore, "there was only one thing to do.—I
was to get leave from the mayor of Mont-St-Eloi, who would get it
from the military, and go myself at full speed to see her at
Villers."
"You should have done that the first day, not the sixth!"
"So it seems, but I was afraid we should cross and me miss
her—y'see, as soon as I landed, I was expecting her all the time,
and every minute I fancied I could see her at the open door. So I did
as she told me."
"After all, you saw her?"
"Just one day—or rather, just one night."
"Quite sufficient!" merrily said Lamuse, and Eudore the pale and
serious shook his head under the shower of pointed and perilous jests
that followed.
"Shut your great mouths for five minutes, chaps."
"Get on with it, petit."
"There isn't a great lot of it," said Eudore.
"Well, then, you were saying you had got a hump with your old
people?"
"Ah, yes. They had tried their best to make up for Mariette—with
lovely rashers of our own ham, and plum brandy, and patching up my
linen, and all sorts of little spoiled-kid tricks—and I noticed they
were still slanging each other in the old familiar way! But you talk
about a difference! I always had my eye on the door to see if some
time or other it wouldn't get a move on and turn into a woman. So I
went and saw the mayor, and set off, yesterday, towards two in the
afternoon—towards fourteen o'clock I might well say, seeing that I
had been counting the hours since the day before! I had just one day
of my leave left then.
"As we drew near in the dusk, through the carriage window of the
little railway that still keeps going down there on some fag-ends of
line, I recognized half the country, and the other half I didn't.
Here and there I got the sense of it, all at once, and it came back
all fresh to me, and melted away again, just as if it was talking to
me. Then it shut up. In the end we got out, and I found—the limit,
that was—that we had to pad the hoof to the last station.
"Never, old man, have I been in such weather. It had rained for six
days. For six days the sky washed the earth and then washed it again.
The earth was softening and shifting, and filling up the holes and
making new ones."
"Same here—it only stopped raining this morning."
"It was just my luck. And everywhere there were swollen new
streams, washing away the borders of the fields as though they were
lines on paper. There were hills that ran with water from top to
bottom. Gusts of wind sent the rain in great clouds flying and
whirling about, and lashing our hands and faces and necks.
"So you bet, when I had tramped to the station, if some one had
pulled a really ugly face at me, it would have been enough to make me
turn back.
"But when we did get to the place, there were several of us—some
more men on leave—they weren't bound for Villers, but they had to go
through it to get somewhere else. So it happened that we got there in
a lump—five old cronies that didn't know each other.
"I could make out nothing of anything. They've been worse shelled
over there than here, and then there was the water everywhere, and it
was getting dark.
"I told you there are only four houses in the little place, only
they're a good bit off from each other. You come to the lower end of
a slope. I didn't know too well where I was, no more than my pals
did, though they belonged to the district and had some notion of the
lay of it—and all the less because of the rain falling in
bucketsful.
"It got so bad that we couldn't keep from hurrying and began to
run. We passed by the farm of the Alleux—that's the first of the
houses—and it looked like a sort of stone ghost. Bits of walls like
splintered pillars standing up out of the water; the house was
shipwrecked. The other farm, a little further, was as good as drowned
dead.
"Our house is the third. It's on the edge of the road that runs
along the top of the slope. We climbed up, facing the rain that beat
on us in the dusk and began to blind us—the cold and wet fairly
smacked us in the eye, flop!—and broke our ranks like machine-guns.
"The house! I ran like a greyhound—like an African attacking.
Mariette! I could see her with her arms raised high in the doorway
behind that fine curtain of night and rain—of rain so fierce that it
drove her back and kept her shrinking between the doorposts like a
statue of the Virgin in its niche. I just threw myself forward, but
remembered to give my pals the sign to follow me. The house swallowed
the lot of us. Mariette laughed a little to see me, with a tear in her
eye. She waited till we were alone together and then laughed and cried
all at once. I told the boys to make themselves at home and sit down,
some on the chairs and the rest on the table.
"'Where are they going, ces messieurs?' asked Manette.
"'We are going to Vauvelles.'
"'Jesus!' she said, 'you'll never get there. You can't do those
two miles and more in the night, with the roads washed away, and
swamps everywhere. You mustn't even try to.'
"'Well, we'll go on to-morrow, then; only we must find somewhere to
pass the night.'
"'I'll go with you,' I said, 'as far as the Pendu farm—they're not
short of room in that shop. You'll snore in there all right, and you
can start at daybreak.'
"'Right! let's get a move on so far.'
"We went out again. What a downpour! We were wet past bearing. The
water poured into our socks through the boot-soles and by the trouser
bottoms, and they too were soaked through and through up to the knees.
Before we got to this Pendu, we meet a shadow in a big black cloak,
with a lantern. The lantern is raised, and we see a gold stripe on the
sleeve, and then an angry face.
"'What the hell are you doing there?' says the shadow, drawing back
a little and putting one fist on his hip, while the rain rattled like
hail on his hood.
"'They're men on leave for Vauvelles—they can't set off again
to-night—they would like to sleep in the Pendu farm.'
"'What do you say? Sleep here?—This is the police station—I am
the officer on guard and there are Boche prisoners in the buildings.'
And I'll tell you what he said as well—'I must see you hop it from
here in less than two seconds. Bonsoir.'
"So we right about face and started back again—stumbling as if we
were boozed, slipping, puffing, splashing and bespattering ourselves.
One of the boys cried to me through the wind and rain, 'We'll go back
with you as far as your home, all the same. If we haven't a house
we've time enough.'
"'Where will you sleep?'
"'Oh, we'll find somewhere, don't worry, for the little time we
have to kill here.'
"'Yes, we'll find somewhere, all right,' I said. 'Come in again for
a minute meanwhile—I won't take no—and Mariette sees us enter once
more in single file, all five of us soaked like bread in soup.
"So there we all were, with only one little room to go round in and
go round again—the only room in the house, seeing that it isn't a
palace.
"'Tell me, madame,' says one of our friends, 'isn't there a cellar
here?'
"'There's water in it,' says Mariette; 'you can't see the bottom
step and it's only got two.'
"'Damn,' says the man, 'for I see there's no loft, either.'
"After a minute or two he gets up: 'Good-night, old pal,' he says
to me, and they get their hats on.
"'What, are you going off in weather like this, boys?'
"'Do you think,' says the old sport, 'that we're going to spoil
your stay with your wife?'
"'But, my good man—'
"'But me no buts. It's nine o'clock, and you've got to take your
hook before day. So good-night. Coming, you others?'
"'Rather,' say the boys. 'Good-night all.'
"There they are at the door and opening it. Mariette and me, we
look at each other—but we don't move. Once more we look at each
other, and then we sprang at them. I grabbed the skirt of a coat and
she a belt—all wet enough to wring out.
"'Never! We won't let you go—it can't be done.'
"'But—'
"'But me no buts,' I reply, while she locks the door."
"Then what?" asked Lamuse.
"Then? Nothing at all," replied Eudore. "We just stayed like that,
very discreetly—all the night—sitting, propped up in the corners,
yawning—like the watchers over a dead man. We made a bit of talk at
first. From time to time some one said, 'Is it still raining?' and
went and had a look, and said, 'It's still raining'—we could hear
it, by the way. A big chap who had a mustache like a Bulgarian fought
against sleeping like a wild man. Sometimes one or two among the crowd
slept, but there was always one to yawn and keep an eye open for
politeness, who stretched himself or half got up so that he could
settle more comfortably.
"Mariette and me, we never slept. We looked at each other, but we
looked at the others as well, and they looked at us, and there you
are.
"Morning came and cleaned the window. I got up to go and look
outside. The rain was hardly less. In the room I could see dark forms
that began to stir and breathe hard. Mariette's eyes were red with
looking at me all night. Between her and me a soldier was filling his
pipe and shivering.
"Some one beats a tattoo on the window, and I half open it. A
silhouette with a streaming hat appears, as though carried and driven
there by the terrible force of the blast that came with it, and asks—
"'Hey, in the cafe there! Is there any coffee to be had?'
"'Coming, sir, coming,' cried Mariette.
"She gets up from her chair, a little benumbed. Without a word she
looks at her self in our bit of a mirror, touches her hair lightly,
and says quite simply, the good lass—
"'I am going to make coffee for everybody.'
"When that was drunk off, we had all of us to go. Besides,
customers turned up every minute.
"'Hey, la p'tite mere,' they cried, shoving their noses in at the
half-open window, 'let's have a coffee—or three—or four'—'and two
more again,' says another voice.
"We go up to Mariette to say good-by. They knew they had played
gooseberry that night most damnably, but I could see plainly that
they didn't know if it would be the thing to say something about it
or just let it drop altogether.
"Then the Bulgarian made up his mind: 'We've made a hell of a mess
of it for you, eh, ma p'tite dame?'
"He said that to show he'd been well brought up, the old sport.
"Mariette thanks him and offers him her hand—'That's nothing at
all, sir. I hope you'll enjoy your leave.'
"And me, I held her tight in my arms and kissed her as long as I
could—half a minute—discontented—my God, there was reason to
be—but glad that Mariette had not driven the boys out like dogs, and
I felt sure she liked me too for not doing it.
"'But that isn't all,' said one of the leave men, lifting the skirt
of his cape and fumbling in his coat pocket; 'that's not all. What do
we owe you for the coffees?'
"'Nothing, for you stayed the night with me; you are my guests.'
"'Oh, madame, we can't have that!'
"And how they set to to make protests and compliments in front of
each other! Old man, you can say what you like—we may be only poor
devils, but it was astonishing, that little palaver of good manners.
"'Come along! Let's be hopping it, eh?'
"They go out one by one. I stay till the last. Just then another
passer-by begins to knock on the window—another who was dying for a
mouthful of coffee. Mariette by the open door leaned forward and
cried, 'One second!'
"Then she put into my arms a parcel that she had ready. 'I had
bought a knuckle of ham—it was for supper—for us—for us two—and a
liter of good wine. But, ma foi! when I saw there were five of you, I
didn't want to divide it out so much, and I want still less now.
There's the ham, the bread, and the wine. I give them to you so that
you can enjoy them by yourself, my boy. As for them, we have given
them enough,' she says.
"Poor Mariette," sighs Eudore. "Fifteen months since I'd seen her.
And when shall I see her again? Ever?—It was jolly, that idea of
hers. She crammed all that stuff into my bag—"
He half opens his brown canvas pouch.
"Look, here they are! The ham here, and the bread, and there's the
booze. Well, seeing it's there, you don't know what we're going to do
with it? We're going to share it out between us, eh, old pals?"
WHEN Volpatte arrived from his sick-leave, after two months'
absence, we surrounded him. But he was sullen and silent, and tried
to get away.
"Well, what about it? Volpatte, have you nothing to tell us?"
"Tell us all about the hospital and the sick-leave, old cock, from
the day when you set off in your bandages, with your snout in
parenthesis! You must have seen something of the official shops.
Speak then, nome de Dieu!"
"I don't want to say anything at all about it," said Volpatte.
"What's that? What are you talking about?"
"I'm fed up—that's what I am! The people back there, I'm sick of
them—they make me spew, and you can tell 'em so!"
"What have they done to you?"
"A lot of sods, they are!" says Volpatte.
There he was, with his head as of yore, his ears "stuck on again"
and his Mongolian cheekbones—stubbornly set in the middle of the
puzzled circle that besieged him; amid we felt that the mouth fast
closed on ominous silence meant high pressure of seething
exasperation in the depth of him.
Some words overflowed from him at last. He turned round—facing
towards the rear and the bases—and shook his fist at infinite space.
"There are too many of them," he said between his teeth, "there are
too many!" He seemed to be threatening and repelling a rising sea of
phantoms.
A little later, we questioned him again, knowing well that his
anger could not thus be retained within, and that the savage silence
would explode at the first chance.
It was in a deep communication trench, away back, where we had come
together for a meal after a morning spent in digging. Torrential rain
was falling. We were muddled and drenched and hustled by the flood,
and we ate standing in single file, without shelter, under the
dissolving sky. Only by feats of skill could we protect the bread and
bully from the spouts that flowed from every point in space; and while
we ate we put our hands and faces as much as possible under our cowls.
The rain rattled and bounced and streamed on our limp woven armor, and
worked with open brutality or sly secrecy into ourselves and our food.
Our feet were sinking farther and farther, taking deep root in the
stream that flowed along the clayey bottom of the trench. Some faces
were laughing, though their mustaches dripped. Others grimaced at the
spongy bread and flabby meat, or at the missiles which attacked their
skin from all sides at every defect in their heavy and miry
armor-plate.
Barque, who was hugging his mess-tin to his heart, bawled at
Volpatte: "Well then, a lot of sods, you say, that you've seen down
there where you've been?"
"For instance?" cried Blaire, while a redoubled squall shook and
scattered his words; "what have you seen in the way of sods?"
"There are—" Volpatte began, "and then—there are too many of
them, nom de Dieu! There are—"
He tried to say what was the matter with him, but could only
repeat, "There are too many of them!" oppressed and panting. He
swallowed a pulpy mouthful of bread as if there went with it the
disordered and suffocating mass of his memories.
"Is it the shirkers you want to talk about?"
"By God!" He had thrown the rest of his beef over the parapet, and
this cry, this gasp, escaped violently from his mouth as if from a
valve.
"Don't worry about the soft-job brigade, old cross-patch," advised
Barque, banteringly, but not without some bitterness. "What good does
it do?"
Concealed and huddled up under the fragile and unsteady roof of his
oiled hood, while the water poured down its shining slopes, and
holding his empty mess-tin out for the rain to clean it, Volpatte
snarled, "I'm not daft—not a bit of it—and I know very well
there've got to be these individuals at the rear. Let them have their
dead-heads for all I care—but there's too many of them, and they're
all alike, and all rotters, voila!"
Relieved by this affirmation, which shed a little light on the
gloomy farrago of fury he was loosing among us, Volpatte began to
speak in fragments across the relentless sheets of rain—
"At the very first village they sent me to, I saw duds, and duds
galore, and they began to get on my nerves. All sorts of departments
and sub-departments and managements and centers and offices and
committees—you're no sooner there than you meet swarms of fools,
swam-ms of different services that are only different in name-enough
to turn your brain. I tell you, the man that invented the names of
all those committees, he was wrong in his head.
"So could I help but be sick of it? Ah, mon vieux," said our
comrade, musing, "all those individuals fiddle-faddling and making
believe down there, all spruced up with their fine caps and officers'
coats and shameful boots, that gulp dainties and can put a dram of
best brandy down their gullets whenever they want, and wash themselves
oftener twice than once, and go to church, and never stop smoking, and
pack themselves up in feathers at night to read the newspaper—and
then they say afterwards, 'I've been in the war!'"
One point above all had got hold of Volpatte and emerged from his
confused and impassioned vision: "All those soldiers, they haven't to
run away with their table-tools and get a bite any old way—they've
got to be at their ease—they'd rather go and sit themselves down with
some tart in the district, at a special reserved table, and guzzle
vegetables, and the fine lady puts their crockery out all square for
them on the dining-table, and their pots of jam and every other
blasted thing to eat; in short, the advantages of riches and peace in
that doubly-damned hell they call the Rear!"
Volpatte's neighbor shook his head under the torrents that fell
from heaven and said," So much the better for them."
"I'm not crazy—" Volpatte began again.
"P'raps, but you're not fair."
Volpatte felt himself insulted by the word. He started, and raised
his head furiously, and the rain, that was waiting for the chance,
took him plump in the face. "Not fair—me? Not fair—to those
dung-hills?"
"Exactly, monsieur," the neighbor replied; "I tell you that you
play hell with them and yet you'd jolly well like to be in the
rotters' place."
"Very likely—but what does that prove, rump-face? To begin with,
we, we've been in danger, and it ought to be our turn for the other.
But they're always the same, I tell you; and then there's young men
there, strong as bulls and poised like wrestlers, and then—there are
too many of them! D'you hear? It's always too many, I say, because it
is so."
"Too many? What do you know about it, vilain? These departments and
committees, do you know what they are?"
"I don't know what they are," Volpatte set off again, "but I
know—"
"Don't you think they need a crowd to keep all the army's affairs
going?"
"I don't care a damn, but—"
"But you wish it was you, eh?" chaffed the invisible neighbor, who
concealed in the depth of the hood on which the reservoirs of space
were emptying either a supreme indifference or a cruel desire to take
a rise out of Volpatte.
"I can't help it," said the other, simply.
"There's those that can help it for you," interposed the shrill
voice of Barque; "I knew one of 'em—"
"I, too, I've seen 'em!" Volpatte yelled with a desperate effort
through the storm. "Tiens! not far from the front, don't know where
exactly, where there's an ambulance clearing-station and a
sous-intendance—I met the reptile there."
The wind, as it passed over us, tossed him the question, "What was
it?"
At that moment there was a lull, and the weather allowed Volpatte
to talk after a fashion. He said: "He took me round all the jumble of
the depot as if it was. a fair, although he was one of the sights of
the place. He led me along the passages and into the dining-rooms of
houses and supplementary barracks. He half opened doors with labels
on them, and said, 'Look here, and here too—look!' I went inspecting
with him, but he didn't go back, like I did, to the trenches, don't
fret yourself, and he wasn't coming back from them either. don't
worry! The reptile, the first time I saw him he was walking nice and
leisurely in the yard—'I'm in the Expenses Department,' he says. We
talked a bit, and the next day he got an orderly job so as to dodge
getting sent away, seeing it was his turn to go since the beginning of
the war.
"On the step of the door where he'd laid all night on a feather
bed, he was polishing the pumps of his monkey master—beautiful yellow
pumps—rubbing 'em with paste, fairly glazing 'em, my boy. I stopped
to watch him, and the chap told me all about himself. Mon vieux, I
don't remember much more of the stuffing that came out of his crafty
skull than I remember of the History of France and the dates we
whined at school. Never, I tell you, bad be been sent to the front,
although he was Class 1903, [note 1] and a lusty devil at that, he
was. Danger and dog-tiredness and all the ugliness of war—not for
him, but for the others, oui. He knew damned well that if he set foot
in the firing-line, the line would see that the beast got it, so he
ran like hell from it, and stopped where he was. He said they'd tried
all ways to get him, but he'd given the slip to all the captains, all
the colonels, all the majors, and they were all damnably mad with him.
He told me about it. How did he work it? He'd sit down all of a
sudden, put on a stupid look, do the scrim-shanker stunt, and flop
like a bundle of dirty linen. 'I've got a sort of general fatigue,'
he'd blubber. They didn't know how to take him, and after a bit they
just let him drop—everybody was fit to spew on him. And he changed
his tricks according to the circumstances, d'you catch on? Sometimes
he had something wrong with his foot—he was damned clever with his
feet. And then he contrived things, and he knew one head from another,
and how to take his opportunities. He knew what's what, he did. You
could see him go and slip in like a pretty poilu among the depot
chaps, where the soft jobs were, and stay there; and then he'd put
himself out no end to be useful to the pals. He'd get up at three
o'clock in the morning to make the juice, go and fetch the water while
the others were getting their grub. At last, he'd wormed himself in
everywhere, he came to be one of the family, the rotter, the carrion.
He did it so he wouldn't have to do it. He seemed to me like an
individual that would have earned five quid honestly with the same
work and bother that he puts into forging a one-pound note. But there,
he'll get his skin out of it all right, he will. At the front he'd be
lost sight of in the throng of it, but he's not so stupid. Be damned
to them, he says, that take their grub on the ground, and be damned to
them still more when they're under it. When we've all done with
fighting, he'll go back home and he'll say to his friends and
neighbors, 'Here I am safe and sound,' and his pals'll be glad,
because be's a good sort, with engaging manners, contemptible creature
that he is, and—and this is the most stupid thing of all—but he
takes you in and you swallow him whole, the son of a bug.
"And then, those sort of beings, don't you believe there's only one
of them. There are barrels of 'em in every depot, that hang on and
writhe when their time comes to go, and they say, 'I'm not going,'
and they don't go, and they never succeed in driving them as far as
the front."
"Nothing new in all that," said Barque, "we know it, we know it!"
"Then there are the offices," Volpatte went on, engrossed in his
story of travel; "whole houses and streets and districts. I saw that
my little corner in the rear was only a speck, and I had full view of
them. Non, I'd never have believed there'd be so many men on chairs
while war was going on—"
A hand protruded from the rank and made trial of space—"No more
sauce falling"—"Then we're going out, bet your life on it." So
"March!" was the cry.
The storm held its peace. We filed off in the long narrow swamp
stagnating in the bottom of the trench where the moment before it had
shaken under slabs of rain. Volpatte's grumbling began again amidst
our sorry stroll and the eddies of floundering feet. I listened to him
as I watched the shoulders of a poverty-stricken overcoat swaying in
front of me, drenched through and through. This time Volpatte was on
the track of the police—
"The farther you go from the front the more you see of them."
"Their battlefield is not the same as ours."
Tulacque had an ancient grudge against them. "Look," he said, "how
the bobbies spread themselves about to get good lodgings and good
food, and then, after the drinking regulations, they dropped on the
secret wine-sellers. You saw them lying in wait, with a corner of an
eye on the shop-doors, to see if there weren't any poilus slipping
quietly out, two-faced that they are, leering to left and to right
and licking their mustaches."
"There are good ones among 'em. I knew one in my country, the Cote
d'Or, where I—"
"Shut up!" was Tulacque's peremptory interruption; "they're all
alike. There isn't one that can put another right."
"Yes, they're lucky," said Volpatte, "but do you think they're
contented? Not a bit; they grouse. At least," he corrected himself,
"there was one I met, and he was a grouser. He was devilish bothered
by the drill-manual. 'It isn't worth while to learn the drill
instruction,' he said, 'they're always changing it. F'r instance,
take the department of military police; well, as soon as you've got
the gist of it, it's something else. Ah, when will this war be over?'
he says."
"They do what they're told to do, those chaps," ventured Eudore.
"Surely. It isn't their fault at all. It doesn't alter the fact
that these professional soldiers, pensioned and decorated in the time
when we're only civvies, will have made war in a damned funny way."
"That reminds me of a forester that I saw as well," said Volpatte,
"who played hell about the fatigues they put him to. 'It's
disgusting,' the fellow said to me, 'what they do with us. We're old
non-coms., soldiers that have done four years of service at least.
We're paid on the higher scale, it's true, but what of that? We are
Officials, and yet they humiliate us. At H.Q. they set us to
cleaning, and carrying the dung away. The civilians see the treatment
they inflict on us, and they look down on us. And if you look like
grousing, they'll actually talk about sending you off to the trenches,
like foot-soldiers! What's going to become of our prestige? When we go
back to the parishes as rangers after the war—if we do come back from
it—the people of the villages and forests will say, "Ah, it was you
that was sweeping the streets at X—!" To get back our prestige,
compromised by human injustice and ingratitude, I know well,' he says,
'that we shall have to make complaints, and make complaints and make
'em with all our might, to the rich and to the influential!' he says."
"I knew a gendarme who was all right," said Lamuse. "'The police
are temperate enough in general,' he says, 'but there are always dirty
devils everywhere, pas? The civilian is really afraid of the
gendarme,' says he, 'and that's a fact; and so, I admit it, there are
some who take advantage of it, and those ones—the tag-rag of the
gendarmerie—know where to get a glass or two. If I was Chief or
Brigadier, I'd screw 'em down; not half I wouldn't,' he says; 'for
public opinion,' he says again. 'lays the blame on the whole force
when a single one with a grievance makes a complaint.'"
"As for me," says Paradis, "one of the worst days of my life was
once when I saluted a gendarme, taking him for a lieutenant, with his
white stripes. Fortunately—I don't say it to console myself, but
because it's probably true—fortunately, I don't think he saw me."
A silence. "Oui, 'vidently," the men murmured; "but what about it?
No need to worry."
* * * * * *
A little later, when we were seated along a wall, with our backs to
the stones, and our feet plunged and planted in the ground, Volpatte
continued unloading his impressions.
"I went into a big room that was a Depot office—bookkeeping
department, I believe. It swarmed with tables, and people in it like
in a market. Clouds of talk. All along the walls on each side and in
the middle, personages sitting in front of their spread-out goods
like waste-paper merchants. I put in a request to be put back into my
regiment, and they said to me, 'Take your damned hook, and get busy
with it.' I lit on a sergeant, a little chap with airs, spick as a
daisy, with a gold-rimmed spy-glass—eye-glasses with a tape on them.
He was young, but being a re-enlisted soldier, he had the right not to
go to the front. I said to him, 'Sergeant!' But he didn't hear me,
being busy slanging a secretary—it's unfortunate, mon garcon,' he was
saying; 'I've told you twenty times that you must send one notice of
it to be carried out by the Squadron Commander, Provost of the C.A.,
and one by way of advice, without signature, but making mention of the
signature, to the Provost of the Force Publique d'Amiens and of the
centers of the district, of which you have the list—in envelopes, of
course, of the general commanding the district. It's very simple,' he
says.
"I'd drawn back three paces to wait till he'd done with jawing.
Five minutes after, I went up to the sergeant. He said to me, 'My dear
sir, I have not the time to bother with you; I have many other
matters to attend to.' As a matter of fact, he was all in a flummox
in front of his typewriter, the chump, because he'd forgotten, he
said, to press on the capital-letter lever, and so, instead of
underlining the heading of his page, he'd damn well scored a line of
8's in the middle of the top. So he couldn't hear anything, and he
played hell with the Americans, seeing the machine came from there.
"After that, he growled against another woolly-leg, because on the
memorandum of the distribution of maps they hadn't put the names of
the Ration Department, the Cattle Department, and the Administrative
Convoy of the 328th D.I.
"Alongside, a fool was obstinately trying to pull more circulars
off a jellygraph than it would print, doing his damnedest to produce a
lot of ghosts that you could hardly read. Others were talking: 'Where
are the Parisian fasteners?' asked a toff. And they don't call things
by their proper names: 'Tell me now, if you please, what are the
elements quartered at X—?' The elements! What's all that sort of
babble?" asked Volpatte.
"At the end of the big table where these fellows were that I've
mentioned and that I'd been to, and the sergeant floundering about
behind a hillock of papers at the top of it and giving orders, a
simpleton was doing nothing but tap on his blotting-pad with his
hands. His job, the mug, was the department of leave-papers, and as
the big push had begun and all leave was stopped, he hadn't anything
to do—'Capital!' he says.
"And all that, that's one table in one room in one department in
one depot. I've seen more, and then more, and more and more again. I
don't know, but it's enough to drive you off your nut, I tell you."
"Have they got brisques?" [note 2]
"Not many there, but in the department of the second line every one
had 'em. You had museums of 'em there—whole Zoological Gardens of
stripes."
"Prettiest thing I've seen in the way of stripes," said Tulacque,
"was a motorist, dressed in cloth that you'd have said was satin,
with new stripes, and the leathers of an English officer, though a
second-class soldier as he was. With his finger on his cheek, he
leaned with his elbows on that fine carriage adorned with windows
that he was the valet de chambre of. He'd have made you sick, the
dainty beast. He was just exactly the poilu that you see pictures of
in the ladies' papers—the pretty little naughty papers."
Each has now his memories, his tirade on this much-excogitated
subject of the shirkers, and all begin to overflow and to talk at
once. A hubbub surrounds the foot of the mean wall where we are
heaped like bundles, with a gray, muddy, and trampled spectacle lying
before us, laid waste by rain.
"—orderly in waiting to the Road Department, then at the Bakery,
then cyclist to the Revictualing Department of the Eleventh Battery."
"—every morning he had a note to take to the Service de
l'Intendance, to the Gunnery School, to the Bridges Department, and
in the evening to the A.D. and the A.T.—that was all."
"—when I was coming back from leave,' said that orderly, 'the
women cheered us at all the level-crossing gates that the train
passed.' 'They took you for soldiers,' I said."
"—'Ah,' I said, 'you're called up, then, are you?' 'Certainly,'
he says to me, 'considering that I've been a round of meetings in
America with a Ministerial deputation. P'raps it's not exactly being
called up, that? Anyway, mon ami,' he says, 'I don't pay any rent, so
I must be called up.' 'And me—'"
"To finish," cries Volpatte, silencing the hum with his authority
of a traveler returned from "down there," "to finish, I saw a whole
legion of 'em all together at a blow-out. For two days I was a sort
of helper in the kitchen of one of the centers of the C.O.A., 'cos
they couldn't let me do nothing while waiting for my reply, which
didn't hurry, seeing they'd sent another inquiry and a super-inquiry
after it, and the reply had too many halts to make in each office,
going and coming.
"In short, I was cook in the shop. Once I waited at table, seeing
that the head cook had just got back from leave for the fourth time
and was tired. I saw and I heard those people every time I went into
the dining-room, that was in the Prefecture, and all that hot and
illuminated row got into my head. They were only auxiliaries in
there, but there were plenty of the armed service among the number,
too. They were almost all old men, with a few young ones besides,
sitting here and there.
"I'd begun to get about enough of it when one of the broomsticks
said, 'The shutters must be closed; it's more prudent.' My boy. they
were a lump of a hundred and twenty-five miles from the firing-line,
but that pock-marked puppy he wanted to make believe there was danger
of bombardment by aircraft—"
"And there's my cousin," said Tulacque, fumbling, "who wrote to
me—Look, here's what he says: 'Mon cher Adolphe, here I am
definitely settled in Paris as attache to Guard-Room 60. While you
are down there. I must stay in the capital at the mercy of a Taube or
a Zeppelin!'"
The phrase sheds a tranquil delight abroad, and we assimilate it
like a tit-bit, laughing.
"After that," Volpatte went on, "those layers of soft-jobbers fed
me up still more. As a dinner it was all right—cod, seeing it was
Friday, but prepared like soles a la Marguerite—I know all about it.
But the talk!—"
"They call the bayonet Rosalie, don't they?"
"Yes, the padded luneys. But during dinner these gentlemen talked
above all about themselves. Every one, so as to explain why he wasn't
somewhere else, as good as said (but all the while saying something
else and gorging like an ogre), 'I'm ill, I'm feeble, look at me, ruin
that I am. Me, I'm in my dotage.' They were all seeking inside
themselves to find diseases to wrap themselves up in—'I wanted to go
to the war, but I've a rupture, two ruptures, three ruptures.' Ah,
non, that feast!—'The orders that speak of sending everybody away,'
explained a funny man, 'they're like the comedies,' he explained,
'there's always a last act to clear up all the jobbery of the others.
That third act is this paragraph, "Unless the requirements of the
Departments stand in the way."' There was one that told this tale, 'I
had three friends that I counted on to give me a lift up. I was going
to apply to them; but, one after another, a little before I put my
request, they were killed by the enemy; look at that,' he says, 'I've
no luck!' Another was explaining to another that, as for him, he would
very much have liked to go, but the surgeon-major had taken him round
the waist to keep him by force in the depot with the auxiliary. 'Eh
bien,' he says, 'I resigned myself. After all, I shall be of greater
value in putting my intellect to the service of the country than in
carrying a knapsack.' And him that was alongside said, 'Oui,' with his
headpiece feathered on top. He'd jolly well consented to go to
Bordeaux at the time when the Boches were getting near Paris, and
then Bordeaux became the stylish place; but afterwards he returned
firmly to the front—to Paris—and said something like this, 'My
ability is of value to France; it is absolutely necessary that I
guard it for France.'
"They talked about other people that weren't there—of the
commandant who was getting an impossible temper, and they explained
that the more imbecile he got the harsher he got; and the General
that made unexpected inspections with the idea of kicking all the
soft-jobbers out, but who'd been laid up for eight days, very
ill—'he's certainly going to die; his condition no longer gives rise
to any uneasiness,' they said, smoking the cigarettes that Society
swells send to the depots for the soldiers at the front. 'D'you know,'
they said, 'little Frazy, who is such a nice boy, the cherub, he's at
last found an excuse for staying behind. They wanted some cattle
slaughterers for the abattoir, and he's enlisted himself in there for
protection, although he's got a University degree and in spite of
being an attorney's clerk. As for Flandrin's son, he's succeeded in
getting himself attached to the roadmenders.—Roadmender, him? Do you
think they'll let him stop so?' 'Certain sure,' replies one of the
cowardly milksops. 'A road-mender's job is for a long time.'
"Talk about idiots," Marthereau growls.
"And they were all jealous, I don't know why, of a chap called
Bourin. Formerly he moved in the best Parisian circles. He lunched
and dined in the city. He made eighteen calls a day, and fluttered
about the drawing-rooms from afternoon tea till daybreak. He was
indefatigable in leading cotillons, organizing festivities,
swallowing theatrical shows, without counting the motoring parties,
and all the lot running with champagne. Then the war came. So he's no
longer capable, the poor boy, of staying on the look-out a bit late at
an embrasure, or of cutting wire. He must stay peacefully in the warm.
And then, him, a Parisian, to go into the provinces and bury himself
in the trenches! Never in this world! 'I realize, too,' replied an
individual, 'that at thirty-seven I've arrived at the age when I must
take care of myself!' And while the fellow was saying that, I was
thinking of Dumont the gamekeeper, who was forty-two, and was done in
close to me on Hill 132, so near that after he got the handful of
bullets in his head, my body shook with the trembling of his."
"And what were they like with you, these thieves?"
"To hell with me, it was, but they didn't show it too much, only
now and again when they couldn't hold themselves in. They looked at me
out of the corner of their eyes, and took damn good care not to touch
me in passing, for I was still war-mucky.
"It disgusted me a bit to be in the middle of that heap of
good-for-nothings, but I said to myself, 'Come, it's only for a bit,
Firmin.' There was just one time that I very near broke out with the
itch, and that was when one of 'em said, 'Later, when we return, if
we do return.'—NO! He had no right to say that. Sayings like that,
before you let them out of your gob, you've got to earn them; it's
like a decoration. Let them get cushy jobs, if they like, but not
play at being men in the open when they've damned well run away. And
you hear 'em discussing the battles, for they're in closer touch than
you with the big bugs and with the way the war's managed; and
afterwards, when you return, if you do return, it's you that'll be
wrong in the middle of all that crowd of humbugs, with the poor
little truth that you've got.
"Ah, that evening, I tell you, all those heads in the reek of the
light, the foolery of those people enjoying life and profiting by
peace! It was like a ballet at the theater or the make-believe of a
magic lantern. There were—there were—there are a hundred thousand
more of them," Volpatte at last concluded in confusion.
But the men who were paying for the safety of the others with their
strength and their lives enjoyed the wrath that choked him, that
brought him to bay in his corner, and overwhelmed him with the
apparitions of shirkers.
"Lucky he doesn't start talking about the factory hands who've
served their apprenticeship in the war, and all those who've stayed
at home under the excuse of National Defense, that was put on its
feet in five secs!" murmured Tirette; "he'd keep us going with them
till Doomsday."
"You say there are a hundred thousand of them, flea-bite," chaffed
Barque. "Well, in 1914—do you hear me?—Millerand, the War Minister,
said to the M.P.'s, 'There are no shirkers.'"
"Millerand!" growled Volpatte. "I tell you, I don't know the man;
but if he said that, he's a dirty sloven, sure enough!"
* * * * * *
"One is always," said Bertrand, "a shirker to some one else."
"That's true; no matter what you call yourself, you'll
always—always—find worse blackguards and better blackguards than
yourself."
"All those that never go up to the trenches, or those who never go
into the first line, and even those who only go there now and then,
they're shirkers, if you like to call 'em so, and you'd see how many
there are if they only gave stripes to the real fighters."
"There are two hundred and fifty to each regiment of two
battalions," said Cocon.
"There are the orderlies, and a bit since there were even the
servants of the adjutants."—"The cooks and the under-cooks."—"The
sergeant-majors, and the quartermaster-sergeants, as often as
not."—"The mess corporals and the mess fatigues."—"Some
office-props and the guard of the colors."—"The baggage-masters."
"The drivers, the laborers, and all the section, with all its
non-coms., and even the sappers."—"The cyclists." "Not all of
them."—"Nearly all the Red Cross service."—"Not the
stretcher-bearers, of course; for they've not only got a devilish
rotten job, but they live with the companies, and when attacks are on
they charge with their stretchers; but the hospital attendants."
"Nearly all parsons, especially at the rear. For, you know, parsons
with knapsacks on, I haven't seen a devil of a lot of 'em, have you?"
"Nor me either. In the papers, but not here."
"There are some, it seems."—"Ah!"
"Anyway, the common soldier's taken something on in this war."
"There are others that are in the open. We're not the only ones."
"We are!" said Tulacque, sharply; "we're almost the only ones!"
He added, "You may say—I know well enough what you'll tell
me—that it was the motor lorries and the heavy artillery that brought
it off at Verdun. It's true, but they've got a soft job all the same
by the side of us. We're always in danger, against their once, and
we've got the bullets and the bombs, too, that they haven't. The heavy
artillery reared rabbits near their dug-outs, and they've been making
themselves omelettes for eighteen months. We are really in danger.
Those that only get a bit of it, or only once, aren't in it at all.
Otherwise, everybody would be. The nursemaid strolling the streets of
Paris would be, too, since there are the Taubes and the Zeppelins, as
that pudding-head said that the pal was talking about just now."
"In the first expedition to the Dardanelles, there was actually a
chemist wounded by a shell. You don't believe me, but it's true all
the same—an officer with green facings, wounded!"
"That's chance, as I wrote to Mangouste, driver of a remount horse
for the section, that got wounded—but it was done by a motor lorry."
"That's it, it's like that. After all, a bomb can tumble down on a
pavement, in Paris or in Bordeaux."
"Oui, oui; so it's too easy to say, 'Don't let's make distinctions
in danger!' Wait a bit. Since the beginning, there are some of those
others who've got killed by an unlucky chance; among us there are
some that are still alive by a lucky chance. It isn't the same thing,
that, seeing that when you're dead, it's for a long time."
"Yes," says Tirette, "but you're getting too venomous with your
stories of shirkers. As long as we can't help it, it's time to turn
over. I'm thinking of a retired forest-ranger at Cherey, where we
were last month, who went about the streets of the town spying
everywhere to rout out some civilian of military age, and he smelled
out the dodgers like a mastiff. Behold him pulling up in front of a
sturdy goodwife that had a mustache, and he only sees her mustache,
so he bullyrags her—'Why aren't you at the front, you?'"
"For my part," says Pepin, "I don't fret myself about the shirkers
or the semi-shirkers, it's wasting one's time; but where they get on
my nerves, it's when they swank. I'm of Volpatte's opinion. Let 'em
shirk, good, that's human nature; but afterwards they shouldn't say,
'I've been a soldier.' Take the engages, [note 3] for instance—"
"That depends on the engages. Those who have offered for the
infantry without conditions, I look up to those men as much as to
those that have got killed; but the engages in the departments or
special arms, even in the heavy artillery, they begin to get my back
up. We know 'em! When they're doing the agreeable in their social
circle, they'll say, 'I've offered for the war.'—'Ah, what a fine
thing you have done; of your own free will you have defied the
machine-guns! '—'Well, yes, madame la marquise, I'm built like that!'
Eh, get out of it, humbug!"
"Oui, it's always the same tale. They wouldn't be able to say in
the drawing-rooms afterwards, 'Tenez, here I am; look at me for a
voluntary engage!'"
"I know a gentleman who enlisted in the aerodromes. He had a fine
uniform—he'd have done better to offer for the Opera-Comique. What
am I saying—'he'd have done better?' He'd have done a damn sight
better, oui. At least he'd have made other people laugh honestly,
instead of making them laugh with the spleen in it."
"They're a lot of cheap china, fresh painted, and plastered with
ornaments and all sorts of falderals, but they don't go under fire."
"If there'd only been people like those, the Boches would be at
Bayonne."
"When war's on, one must risk his skin, eh, corporal?"
"Yes," said Bertrand, "there are some times when duty and danger
are exactly the same thing; when the country, when justice and liberty
are in danger, it isn't in taking shelter that you defend them. On
the contrary, war means danger of death and sacrifice of life for
everybody, for everybody; no one is sacred. One must go for it,
upright, right to the end, and not pretend to do it in a fanciful
uniform. These services at the bases, and they're necessary, must be
automatically guaranteed by the really weak and the really old."
"Besides, there are too many rich and influential people who have
shouted, 'Let us save France!—and begin by saving ourselves!' On the
declaration of war, there was a big rush to get out of it, that's what
there was, and the strongest succeeded. I noticed myself, in my little
corner, it was especially those that jawed most about patriotism
previously. Anyway, as the others were saying just now, if they get
into a funk-hole, the worst filthiness they can do is to make people
believe they've run risks. 'Cos those that have really run risks, they
deserve the same respect as the dead."
"Well, what then? It's always like that, old man; you can't change
human nature."
"It can't be helped. Grouse, complain? Tiens! talking about
complaining, did you know Margoulin?"
"Margoulin? The good sort that was with us, that they left to die
at le Crassier because they thought he was dead?"
"Well, he wanted to make a complaint. Every day he talked about
protesting against all those things to the captain and the
commandant. He'd say after breakfast, 'I'll go and say it as sure as
that pint of wine's there.' And a minute later, 'If I don't speak,
there's never a pint of wine there at all.' And if you were passing
later you'd hear him again, 'Tiens! is that a pint of wine there?
Well, you'll see if I don't speak! Result—he said nothing at all.
You'll say, 'But he got killed.' True, but previously he had God's
own time to do it two thousand times if he'd dared."
"All that, it makes me ill," growled Blaire, sullen, but with a
flash of fury.
"We others, we've seen nothing—seeing that we don't see
anything—but if we did see—!"
"Old chap," Volpatte cried, "those depots—take notice of what I
say—you'd have to turn the Seine, the Garonne, the Rhone and the
Loire into them to clean them. In the interval, they're living, and
they live well, and they go to doze peacefully every night, every
night!"
The soldier held his peace. In the distance he saw the night as
they would pass it—cramped up, trembling with vigilance in the deep
darkness, at the bottom of the listening-hole whose ragged jaws
showed in black outline all around whenever a gun hurled its dawn
into the sky.
Bitterly said Cocon: "All that, it doesn't give you any desire to
die."
"Yes, it does," some one replies tranquilly. "Yes, it does. Don't
exaggerate, old kipper-skin."
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[note 1:] Thirty or thirty-one years old in 1914.—Tr.
[note 2:] A-shape badges worn on the left arm to indicate the
duration of service at the front.—Tr.
[note 3:] Soldiers voluntarily enlisted in ordinary times for
three. four, or five years. Those enlisted for four or five year' have
the right to choose their arm of the service, subject to conditions.—
THE twilight of evening was coming near from the direction of the
country, and a gentle breeze, soft as a whisper, came with it.
In the houses alongside this rural way—a main road, garbed for a
few paces like a main street—the rooms whose pallid windows no
longer fed them with the limpidity of space found their own light
from lamps and candles, so that the evening left them and went
outside, and one saw light and darkness gradually changing places.
On the edge of the village, towards the fields, some unladen
soldiers were wandering, facing the breeze. We were ending the day in
peace, and enjoying that idle ease whose happiness one only realizes
when one is really weary. It was fine weather, we were at the
beginning of rest, and dreaming about it. Evening seemed to make our
faces bigger before it darkened them, and they shone with the serenity
of nature.
Sergeant Suilhard came to me, took my arm, and led me away. "Come,"
he said, "and I'll show you something."
The approaches to the village abounded in rows of tall and tranquil
trees, and we followed them along. Under the pressure of the breeze
their vast verdure yielded from time to time in slow majestic
movements.
Suilhard went in front of me. He led me into a deep lane, which
twisted about between high banks; and on each side grew a border of
bushes, whose tops met each other. For some moments we walked in a
bower of tender green. A last gleam of light, falling aslant across
the lane, made points of bright yellow among the foliage, and round
as gold coins. "This is pretty," I said.
He said nothing, but looked aside and hard. Then he stopped. "It
must be there."
He made me climb up a bit of a track to a field, a great quadrangle
within tall trees, and full of the scent of hay.
"Tiens!" I said, looking at the ground, "it's all trampled here;
there's been something to do."
"Come," said Suilhard to me. He led me into the field, not far from
its gate. There was a group of soldiers there, talking in low voices.
My companion stretched out his hand. "It's there," he said.
A very short post, hardly a yard high, was implanted a few paces
from the hedge, composed just there of young trees. "It was there,"
he said, "that they shot a soldier of the 204th this morning. They
planted that post in the night. They brought the chap here at dawn,
and these are the fellows of his squad who killed him. He tried to
dodge the trenches. During relief he stayed behind, and then went
quietly off to quarters. He did nothing else; they meant, no doubt,
to make an example of him."
We came near to the conversation of the others. "No. no, not at
all," said one. "He wasn't a ruffian, he wasn't one of those toughs
that we all know. We all enlisted together. He was a decent sort,
like ourselves, no more, no less—a bit funky, that's all. He was in
the front line from the beginning, he was, and I've never seen him
boozed, I haven't."
"Yes, but all must be told. Unfortunately for him, there was a
'previous conviction.' There were two, you know, that did the
trick—the other got two years. But Cajard, [note 1] because of the
sentence he got in civil life couldn't benefit by extenuating
circumstances. He'd done some giddy-goat trick in civil life, when he
was drunk."
"You can see a little blood on the ground if you look," said a
stooping soldier.
"There was the whole ceremonial," another went on, "from A to
Z—the colonel on horseback, the degradation; then they tied him to
the little post, the cattle-stoup. He had to be forced to kneel or sit
on the ground with a similar post."
"It's past understanding," said a third, after a silence, "if it
wasn't for the example the sergeant spoke about."
On the post the soldiers had scrawled inscriptions and protests. A
croix de guerre, cut clumsily of wood, was nailed to it, and read:
"A. Cajard, mobilized in August, 1914, in gratitude to France."
Returning to quarters I met Volpatte, still surrounded and talking.
He was relating some new anecdotes of his journey among the happy
ones.
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[note 1:] I have altered the name of this soldier as well as that
of the village.—H. B.
THE weather was appalling. Water and wind attacked the passers-by;
riddled, flooded, and upheaved the roads.
I was returning from fatigue to our quarters at the far end of the
village. The landscape that morning showed dirty yellow through the
solid rain, and the sky was dark as a slated roof. The downpour
flogged the horse-trough as with birchen rods. Along the walls. human
shapes went in shrinking files, stooping, abashed, splashing.
In spite of the rain and the cold and bitter wind, a crowd had
gathered in front of the door of the barn where we were lodging. All
close together and back to back, the men seemed from a distance like
a great moving sponge. Those who could see, over shoulders and
between heads, opened their eyes wide and said, "He has a nerve, the
boy!" Then the inquisitive ones broke away, with red noses and
streaming faces, into the down-pour that lashed and the blast that
bit, and letting the hands fall that they had upraised in surprise,
they plunged them in their pockets.
In the center, and running with rain, abode the cause of the
gathering—Fouillade, bare to the waist and washing himself in
abundant water. Thin as an insect, working his long slender arms in
riotous frenzy, he soaped and splashed his head, neck, and chest,
down to the upstanding gridirons of his sides. Over his funnel-shaped
cheeks the brisk activity had spread a flaky beard like snow, and
piled on the top of his head a greasy fleece that the rain was
puncturing with little holes.
By way of a tub, the patient was using three mess-tins which he had
filled with water—no one knew how—in a village where there was
none; and as there was no clean spot anywhere to put anything down in
that universal streaming of earth and sky, he thrust his towel into
the waistband of his trousers, while the soap went back into his
pocket every time he used it.
They who still remained wondered at this heroic gesticulation in
the face of adversity, and said again, as they wagged their heads,
"It's a disease of cleanliness he's got."
"You know he's going to be carpeted, they say, for that affair of
the shell-hole with Volpatte." And they mixed the two exploits
together in a muddled way, that of the shell-hole, and the present,
and looked on him as the hero of the moment, while he puffed,
sniffled, grunted, spat, and tried to dry himself under the celestial
shower-bath with rapid rubbing and as a measure of deception; then at
last he resumed his clothes.
* * * * * *
After his wash, Fouillade feels cold. He turns about and stands in
the doorway of the barn that shelters us. The arctic blast discolors
and disparages his long face, so hollow and sunburned; it draws tears
from his eyes, and scatters them on the cheeks once scorched by the
mistral; his nose, too, weeps increasingly.
Yielding to the ceaseless bite of the wind that grips his ears in
spite of the muffler knotted round his head, and his calves in spite
of the yellow puttees with which his cockerel legs are enwound, he
reenters the barn, but comes out of it again at once, rolling
ferocious eyes, and muttering oaths with the accent one hears in that
corner of the land, over six hundred miles from here, whence he was
driven by war.
So he stands outside, erect, more truly excited than ever before in
these northern scenes. And the wind comes and steals into him, and
comes again roughly, shaking and maltreating his scarecrow's slight
and flesh-less figure.
Ye gods! It is almost uninhabitable, the barn they have assigned to
us to live in during this period of rest. It is a collapsing refuge,
gloomy and leaky, confined as a well. One half of it is under
water—we see rats swimming in it—and the men are crowded in the
other half. The walls, composed of laths stuck together with dried
mud, are cracked, sunken, holed in all their circuit, and extensively
broken through above. The night we got here—until the morning—we
plugged as well as we could the openings within reach, by inserting
leafy branches and hurdles. But the higher holes, and those in the
roof, still gaped and always. When dawn hovers there, weakling and
early, the wind for contrast rushes in and blows round every side with
all its strength, and the squad endures the hustling of an everlasting
draught.
When we are there, we remain upright in the ruined obscurity,
groping, shivering, complaining.
Fouillade, who has come in once more, goaded by the cold, regrets
his ablutions. He has pains in his loins and back. He wants something
to do, but what?
Sit down? Impossible; it is too dirty inside there. The ground and
the paving-stones are plastered with mud; the straw scattered for our
sleeping is soaked through, by the water that comes through the holes
and by the boots that wipe themselves with it. Besides, if you sit
down, you freeze; and if you lie on the straw, you are troubled by the
smell of manure, and sickened by the vapors of ammonia. Fouillade
contents himself by looking at his place, and yawning wide enough to
dislocate his long jaw, further lengthened by a goatee beard where you
would see white hairs if the daylight were really daylight.
"The other pals and boys," said Marthereau, "they're no better off
than we are. After breakfast I went to see a jail-bird of the 11th on
the farm near the hospital. You've to clamber over a wall by a ladder
that's too short—talk about a scissor-cut!" says Marthereau, who is
short in the leg; "and when once you're in the hen-run and
rabbit-hutch you're shoved and poked by everybody and a nuisance to
'em all. You don't know where to put your pasties down. I vamoosed
from there, and sharp."
"For my part," says Cocon, "I wanted to go to the blacksmith's when
we'd got quit of grubbing, to imbibe something hot, and pay for it.
Yesterday he was selling coffee, but some bobbies called there this
morning, so the good man's got the shakes, and he's locked his door."
Lamuse has tried to clean his rifle. But one cannot clean his rifle
here, even if he squats on the ground near the door, nor even if he
takes away the sodden tent-cloth, hard and icy, which hangs across
the doorway like a stalactite; it is too dark. "And then, old chap,
if you let a screw fall, you may as well hang yourself as try to find
it, 'specially when your fists are frozen silly."
"As for me, I ought to be sewing some things, but—what cheer!"
One alternative remains—to stretch oneself on the straw, covering
the head with handkerchief or towel to isolate it from the searching
stench of fermenting straw, and sleep. Fouillade, master of his time
to-day, being on neither guard nor fatigues, decides. He lights a
taper to seek among his belongings, and unwinds the coils of his
comforter, and we see his emaciated shape, sculptured in black
relief, folding and refolding it.
"Potato fatigue, inside there, my little lambs!" a sonorous voice
bellows at the door. The hooded shape from which it comes is Sergeant
Henriot. He is a malignant sort of simpleton, and though all the while
joking in clumsy sympathy he supervises the evacuation of quarters
with a sharp eye for the evasive malingerer.
Outside, on the streaming road in the perpetual rain. the second
section is scattered, also summoned and driven to work by the
adjutant. The two sections mingle together. We climb the street and
the hillock of clayey soil where the traveling kitchen is smoking.
"Now then, my lads, get on with it; it isn't a long job when
everybody sets to—Come—what have you got to grumble about, you?
That does no good."
Twenty minutes later we return at a trot. As we grope about in the
barn, we cannot touch anything but what is sodden and cold, and the
sour smell of wet animals is added to the vapor of the liquid manure
that our beds contain.
We gather again, standing, around the props that hold the barn up,
and around the rills that fall vertically from the holes in the
roof—faint columns which rest on vague bases of splashing water.
"Here we are again!" we cry.
Two lumps in turn block the doorway, soaked with the rain that
drains from them—Lamuse and Barque. who have been in quest of a
brasier, and now return from the expedition empty-handed, sullen and
vicious. "Not a shadow of a fire-bucket, and what's more, no wood or
coal either, not for a fortune." It is impossible to have any fire.
"If I can't get any, no one can," says Barque, with a pride which a
hundred exploits justify.
We stay motionless, or move slowly in the little space we have,
aghast at so much misery. "Whose is the paper?"
"It's mine," says Becuwe.
"What does it say? Ah, zut, one can't read in this darkness!"
"It says they've done everything necessary now for the soldiers, to
keep them warm in the trenches. They've got all they want, and
blankets and shirts and brasiers and fire-buckets and bucketsful of
coal; and that it's like that in the first-line trenches."
"Ah, damnation!" growl some of the poor prisoners of the barn, and
they shake their fists at the emptiness without and at the newspaper
itself.
But Fouillade has lost interest in what they say. He has bent his
long Don Quixote carcase down in the shadow, and outstretched the
lean neck that looks as if it were braided with violin strings. There
is something on the ground that attracts him.
It is Labri, the other squad's dog, an uncertain sort of mongrel
sheep-dog, with a lopped tail, curled up on a tiny litter of
straw-dust. Fouillade looks at Labri, and Labri at him. Becuwe comes
up and says, with the intonation of the Lille district, "He won't eat
his food; the dog isn't well. Hey, Labri, what's the matter with you?
There's your bread and meat; eat it up; it's good when it's in your
bucket. He's poorly. One of these mornings we shall find him dead."
Labri is not happy. The soldier to whom he is entrusted is hard on
him, and usually ill-treats him—when he takes any notice of him at
all. The animal is tied up all day. He is cold and ill and left to
himself. He only exists. From time to time, when there is movement
going on around him, he has hopes of going out, rises and stretches
himself, and bestirs his tail to incipient demonstration. But he is
disillusioned, and lies down again, gazing past his nearly full
mess-tin.
He is weary, and disgusted with life. Even if he has escaped the
bullet or bomb to which he is as much exposed as we, he will end by
dying here. Fouillade puts his thin hand on the dog's head, and it
gazes at him again. Their two glances are alike—the only difference
is that one comes from above and the other from below.
Fouillade sits down also—the worse for him!—in a corner, his
hands covered by the folds of his greatcoat, his long legs doubled up
like a folding bed. He is dreaming, his eyes closed under their bluish
lids; there is something that he sees again. It is one of those
moments when the country from which he is divided assumes in the
distance the charms of reality—the perfumes and colors of l'Herault.
the streets of Cette. He sees so plainly and so near that he hears the
noise of the shallops in the Canal du Midi, and the unloading at the
docks; and their call to him is distinctly clear.
Above the road where the scent of thyme and immortelles is so
strong that it is almost a taste in the mouth, in the heart of the
sunshine whose winging shafts stir the air into a warmed and scented
breeze, on Mont St. Clair, blossoms and flourishes the home of his
folks. Up there, one can see with the same glance where the Lake of
Thau, which is green like glass, joins hands with the Mediterranean
Sea, which is azure; and sometimes one can make out as well, in the
depths of the indigo sky, the carven phantoms of the Pyrenees.
There was he born, there he grew up, happy and free. There he
played, on the golden or ruddy ground; played—even—at soldiers. The
eager joy of wielding a wooden saber flushed the cheeks now sunken and
seamed. He opens his eyes, looks about him, shakes his head, and falls
upon regret for the days when glory and war to him were pure, lofty,
and sunny things.
The man puts his hand over his eyes, to retain the vision within.
Nowadays, it is different.
It was up there in the same place, later, that he came to know
Clemence. She was just passing, the first time, sumptuous with
sunshine, and so fair that the loose sheaf of straw she carried in her
arms seemed to him nut-brown by contrast. The second time, she had a
friend with her, and they both stopped to watch him. He heard them
whispering, and turned towards them. Seeing themselves discovered, the
two young women made off, with a sibilance of skirts, and giggles like
the cry of a partridge.
And it was there, too, that he and she together set up their home.
Over its front travels a vine, which he coddled under a straw hat,
whatever the season. By the garden gate stands the rose-tree that he
knows so well—it never used its thorns except to try to hold him
back a little as he went by.
Will he return again to it all? Ah, he has looked too deeply into
the profundity of the past not to see the future in appalling
accuracy. He thinks of the regiment, decimated at each shift; of the
big knocks and hard he has had and will have, of sickness, and of
wear—
He gets up and snorts, as though to shake off what was and what
will be. He is back in the middle of the gloom, and is frozen and
swept by the wind, among the scattered and dejected men who blindly
await the evening. He is back in the present, and he is shivering
still.
Two paces of his long legs make him butt into a group that is
talking—by way of diversion or consolation—of good cheer.
"At my place," says one, "they make enormous loaves, round ones,
big as cart-wheels they are!" And the man amuses himself by opening
his eyes wide, so that he can see the loaves of the homeland.
"Where I come from," interposes the poor Southerner, "holiday
feasts last so long that the bread that's new at the beginning is
stale at the end!"
"There's a jolly wine—it doesn't look much, that little wine where
I come from; but if it hasn't fifteen degrees of alcohol it hasn't
anything!"
Fouillade speaks then of a red wine which is almost violet, which
stands dilution as well as if it had been brought into the world to
that end.
"We've got the jurancon wine," said a Bearnais, "the real thing,
not what they sell you for jurancon, which comes from Paris; indeed, I
know one of the makers."
"If it comes to that," said Fouillade, "in our country we've got
muscatels of every sort, all the colors of the rainbow, like patterns
of silk stuff. You come home with me some time, and every day you
shall taste a nonsuch, my boy."
"Sounds like a wedding feast," said the grateful soldier.
So it comes about that Fouillade is agitated by the vinous memories
into which he has plunged, which recall to him as well the dear
perfume of garlic on that far-off table. The vapors of the blue wine
in big bottles, and the liqueur wines so delicately varied, mount to
his head amid the sluggish and mournful storm that fills the barn.
Suddenly he calls to mind that there is settled in the village
where they are quartered a tavern-keeper who is a native of Beziers,
called Magnac. Magnac had said to him, "Come and see me, mon camarade,
one of these mornings, and we'll drink some wine from down there, we
will! I've several bottles of it, and you shall tell me what you think
of it."
This sudden prospect dazzles Fouillade. Through all his length runs
a thrill of delight, as though he had found the way of salvation.
Drink the wine of the South—of his own particular South, even—drink
much of it—it would be so good to see life rosy again, if only for a
day! Ah yes, he wants wine; and he gets drunk in a dream.
But as he goes out he collides at the entry with Corporal Broyer,
who is running down the street like a peddler, and shouting at every
opening, "Morning parade!"
The company assembles and forms in squares on the sticky mound
where the traveling kitchen is sending soot into the rain. "I'll go
and have a drink after parade," says Fouillade to himself.
And he listens listlessly, full of his plan, to the reading of the
report. But carelessly as he listens, he hears the officer read, "It
is absolutely forbidden to leave quarters before 5 p.m. and after 8
p.m.," and he hears the captain, without noticing the murmur that
runs round the poilus, add this comment on the order: "This is
Divisional Headquarters. However many there are of you, don't show
yourselves. Keep under cover. If the General sees you in the street,
he will have you put to fatigues at once. He must not see a single
soldier. Stay where you are all day in your quarters. Do what you
like as long as no one sees you—no one!"
We go back into the barn.
* * * * * *
Two o'clock. It is three hours yet, and then it will be totally
dark, before one may risk going outside without being punished.
Shall we sleep while waiting? Fouillade is sleepy no longer; the
hope of wine has shaken him up. And then, if one sleeps in the day,
he will not sleep at night. No! To lie with your eyes open is worse
than a nightmare. The weather gets worse; wind and rain increase,
without and within.
Then what? If one may not stand still, nor sit down, nor lie down,
nor go for a stroll, nor work—what?
Deepening misery settles on the party of benumbed and tired
soldiers. They suffer to the bone, nor know what to do with their
bodies. "Nom de Dieu, we're badly off!" is the cry of the
derelicts—a lamentation, an appeal for help.
Then by instinct they give themselves up to the only occupation
possible to them in there—to walk up and down on the spot, and thus
ward off anchylosis.
So they begin to walk quickly to and fro in the scanty place that
three strides might compass; they turn about and cross and brush each
other, bent forward, hands pocketed—tramp, tramp. These human beings
whom the blast cuts even among their straw are like a crowd of the
wretched wrecks of cities who await, under the lowering sky of winter,
the opening of some charitable institution. But no door will open for
them—unless it Le four days hence, one evening at the end of the
rest, to return to the trenches.
Alone in a corner, Cocon cowers. He is tormented by lice; but
weakened by the cold and wet he has not the pluck to change his
linen; and he sits there sullen, unmoving—and devoured.
As five o'clock draws near, in spite of all, Fouillade begins again
to intoxicate himself with his dream of wine, and he waits, with its
gleam in his soul. What time is it?—A quarter to five.—Five minutes
to five.—Now!
He is outside in black night. With great splashing skips he makes
his way towards the tavern of Magnac, the generous and communicative
Biterrois. Only with great trouble does he find the door in the dark
and the inky rain. By God, there is no light! Great God again, it is
closed! The gleam of a match that his great lean hand covers like a
lamp-shade shows him the fateful notice—"Out of Bounds." Magnac,
guilty of some transgression, has been banished into gloom and
idleness!
Fouillade turns his back on the tavern that has become the prison
of its lonely keeper. He will not give up his dream. He will go
somewhere else and have vin ordinaire, and pay for it, that's all. He
puts his hand in his pocket to sound his purse; it is there. There
ought to be thirty-seven sous in it, which will not run to the wine of
Prou, but—
But suddenly he starts, stops dead, and smites himself on the
forehead. His long-drawn face is contracted in a frightful grimace,
masked by the night. No, he no longer has thirty-seven sous, fool
that he is! He has forgotten the tin of sardines that he bought the
night before—so disgusting did he find the dark macaroni of the
soldiers' mess—and the drinks he stood to the cobbler who put him
some nails in his boots.
Misery! There could not be more than thirteen sous left!
To get as elevated as one ought, and to avenge himself on the life
of the moment, he would certainly need—damn'ation—a liter and a
half, In this place, a liter of red ordinary costs twenty-one sous.
It won't go.
His eyes wander around him in the darkness, looking for some one.
Perhaps there is a pal somewhere who will lend him money, or stand
him a liter.
But who—who? Not Becuwe, he has only a marraine [note 1:] who
sends him tobacco and note-paper every fortnight. Not Barque, who
would not toe the line; nor Blaire, the miser—he wouldn't understand.
Not Biquet, who seems to have something against him; nor Pepin who
himself begs, and never pays, even when he is host. Ah, if Volpatte
were there! There is Mesnil Andre, but he is actually in debt to
Fouillade on account of several drinks round. Corporal Bertrand?
Following on a remark of Fouillade's, Bertrand told him to go to the
devil, and now they look at each other sideways. Farfadet? Fouillade
hardly speaks a word to him in the ordinary way. No, he feels that he
cannot ask this of Farfadet. And then—a thousand thunders!—what is
the use of seeking saviors in one s imagination? Where are they, all
these people, at this hour?
Slowly he goes back towards the barn. Then mechanically he turns
and goes forward again, with hesitating steps. He will try, all the
same. Perhaps he can find convivial comrades. He approaches the
central part of the village just when night has buried the earth.
The lighted doors and windows of the taverns shine again in the mud
of the main street. There are taverns every twenty paces. One dimly
sees the heavy specters of soldiers, mostly in groups, descending the
street. When a motor-car comes along, they draw aside to let it pass,
dazzled by the head-lights, and bespattered by the liquid mud that the
wheels hurl over the whole width of the road.
The taverns are full. Through the steamy windows one can see they
are packed with compact clouds of helmeted men. Fouillade goes into
one or two, on chance. Once over the threshold, the dram-shop's tepid
breath, the light, the smell and the hubbub, affect him with longing.
This gathering at tables is at least a fragment of the past in the
present.
He looks from table to table, and disturbs the groups as he goes up
to scrutinize all the merrymakers in the room. Alas, he knows no one!
Elsewhere, it is the same; he has no luck. In vain he has extended his
neck and sent his desperate glances in search of a familiar head among
the uniformed men who in clumps or couples drink and talk or in
solitude write. He has the air of a cadger, and no one pays him heed.
Finding no soul to come to his relief, he decides to invest at
least what he has in his pocket. He slips up to the counter. "A pint
of wine—and good."
"White?"
"Eh, oui."
"You, mon garcon, you're from the South," says the landlady,
handing him a little full bottle and a glass, and gathering his
twelve sous.
He places himself at the corner of a table already overcrowded by
four drinkers who are united in a game of cards. He fills the glass
to the brim and empties it, then fills it again.
"Hey, good health to you! Don't drink the tumbler!" yelps in his
face a man who arrives in the dirty blue jumper of fatigues, and
displays a heavy cross-bar of eyebrows across his pale face, a
conical head, and half a pound's weight of ears. It is Harlingue, the
armorer.
It is not very glorious to be seated alone before a pint in the
presence of a comrade who gives signs of thirst. But Fouillade
pretends not to understand the requirements of the gentleman who
dallies in front of him with an engaging smile, and he hurriedly
empties his glass. The other turns his back, not without grumbling
that "they're not very generous, but on the contrary greedy, these
Southerners."
Fouillade has put his chin on his fists, and looks unseeing at a
corner of the room where the crowded poilus elbow, squeeze, and
jostle each other to get by.
It was pretty good, that swig of white wine, but of what use are
those few drops in the Sahara of Fouillade? The blues did not far
recede, and now they return.
The Southerner rises and goes out, with his two glasses of wine in
his stomach and one sou in his pocket. He plucks up courage to visit
one more tavern, to plumb it with his eyes, and by way of excuse to
mutter, as he leaves the place, "Curse him! He's never there, the
animal!"
Then he returns to the barn, which still—as always—whistles with
wind and water. Fouillade lights his candle, and by the glimmer of
the flame that struggles desperately to take wing and fly away, he
sees Labri. He stoops low, with his light over the miserable
dog—perhaps it will die first. Labri is sleeping, hut feebly, for he
opens an eye at once, and his tail moves.
The Southerner strokes him, and says to him in a low voice, "It
can't be helped, it—" He will not say more to sadden him, but the
dog signifies appreciation by jerking his head before closing his
eyes again. Fouillade rises stiffly, by reason of his rusty joints,
and makes for his couch. For only one thing more he is now hoping—to
sleep, that the dismal day may die, that wasted day, like so many
others that there will be to endure stoically and to overcome, before
the last day arrives of the war or of his life.
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[note 1:] French soldiers have extensively developed a system of
corresponding with French women whom they do not know from Eve and
whose acquaintance they usually make through newspaper
advertisements. As typical of the latter I copy the following:
"Officier artilleur, 30 ans, desire correspondance discrete avec
jeune marraine, femme du monde. Ecrire," etc. The "lonely soldier"
movement in this country is similar.—Tr.
It is Poterloo who asks, as he turns towards me and shows eyes so
blue that they make his fine, fair head seem transparent.
Poterloo comes from Souchez, and now that the Chasseurs have at
last retaken it, he wants to see again the village where he lived
happily in the days when he was only a man.
It is a pilgrimage of peril; not that we should have far to
go—Souchez is just there. For six months we have lived and worked in
the trenches almost within hail of the village. We have only to climb
straight from here on to the Bethune road along which the trench
creeps, the road honeycombed underneath by our shelters, and descend
it for four or five hundred yards as it dips down towards Souchez. But
all that ground is under regular and terrible attention. Since their
recoil, the Germans have constantly sent huge shells into it. Their
thunder shakes us in our caverns from time to time, and we see, high
above the scarps, now here now there, the great black geysers of earth
and rubbish, and the piled columns of smoke, as high as churches. Why
do they bombard Souchez? One cannot say why, for there is no longer
anybody or anything in the village so often taken and retaken, that we
have so fiercely wrested from each other.
But this morning a dense fog enfolds us, and by favor of the great
curtain that the sky throws over the earth one might risk it. We are
sure at least of not being seen. The fog hermetically closes the
perfected retina of the Sausage that must be somewhere up there,
enshrouded in the white wadding that raises its vast wall of
partition between our lines and those observation posts of Lens and
Angres, whence the enemy spies upon us.
"Right you are!" I say to Poterloo.
Adjutant Barthe, informed of our project, wags his head up and
down, and lowers his eyelids in token that he does not see.
We hoist ourselves out of the trench, and behold us both, upright,
on the Bethune road!
It is the first time I have walked there during the day. I have
never seen it, except from afar, the terrible road that we have so
often traveled or crossed in leaps, bowed down in the darkness, and
under the whistling of missiles.
"Well, are you coming, old man?"
After some paces, Poterloo has stopped in the middle of the road,
where the fog like cotton-wool unravels itself into pendent
fragments, and there he dilates his sky-blue eyes and half opens his
scarlet mouth.
"Ah, la, la! Ah, la, la!" he murmurs. When I turn to him he points
to the road, shakes his head and says, "This is it, Bon Dieu, to
think this is it! This bit where we are, I know it so well that if I
shut my eyes I can see it as it was, exactly. Old chap, it's awful to
see it again like that. It was a beautiful road, planted all the way
along with big trees.
"And now, what is it? Look at it—a sort of long thing without a
soul—sad, sad. Look at these two trenches on each side, alive; this
ripped-up paving, bored with funnels; these trees uprooted, split,
scorched, broken like faggots, thrown all ways, pierced by
bullets—look, this pock-marked pestilence, here! Ah, my boy, my boy,
you can't imagine how it is disfigured, this road!" And he goes
forward, seeing some new amazement at every step.
It is a fantastic road enough, in truth. On both sides of it are
crouching armies, and their missiles have mingled on it for a year
and a half. It is a great disheveled highway, traveled only by
bullets and by ranks and files of shells, that have furrowed and
upheaved it, covered it with the earth of the fields, scooped it and
laid bare its bones. It might be under a curse; it is a way of no
color, burned and old, sinister and awful to see.
"If you'd only known it—how clean and smooth it was!" says
Poterloo. "All sorts of trees were there, and leaves, and
colors—like butterflies; and there was always some one passing on it
to give good-day to some good woman rocking between two baskets, or
people shouting [note 1] to each other in a chaise, with the good wind
ballooning their smocks. Ah, how happy life was once on a time!"
He dives down to the banks of the misty stream that follows the
roadway towards the land of parapets. Stooping, he stops by some
faint swellings of the ground on which crosses are fixed—tombs,
recessed at intervals into the wall of fog, like the Stations of the
Cross in a church.
I call him—we shall never get there at such a funeral pace.
Allons!
We come to a wide depression in the land, I in front and Poterloo
lagging behind, his head confused and heavy with thought as he tries
in vain to exchange with inanimate things his glances of recognition.
Just there the road is lower, a fold secretes it from the side towards
the north. On this sheltered ground there is a little traffic.
Along the hazy, filthy, and unwholesome space, where withered grass
is embedded in black mud, there are rows of dead. They are carried
there when the trenches or the plain are cleared during the night.
They are waiting—some of them have waited long—to be taken back to
the cemeteries after dark.
We approach them slowly. They are close against each other, and
each one indicates with arms or legs some different posture of
stiffened agony. There are some with half-moldy faces, the skin
rusted, or yellow with dark spots. Of several the faces are black as
tar, the lips hugely distended—the heads of negroes blown out in
goldbeaters' skin. Between two bodies, protruding uncertainly from
one or the other, is a severed wrist, ending with a cluster of
strings.
Others are shapeless larvae of pollution, with dubious items of
equipment pricking up, or bits of bone. Farther on, a corpse has been
brought in in such a state that they have been obliged—so as not to
lose it on the way—to pile it on a lattice of wire which was then
fastened to the two ends of a stake. Thus was it carried in the hollow
of its metal hammock, and laid there. You cannot make out either end
of the body; alone, in the heap that it makes, one recognizes the gape
of a trouser-pocket. An insect goes in and out of it.
Around the dead flutter letters that have escaped from pockets or
cartridge pouches while they were being placed on the ground. Over
one of these bits of white paper, whose wings still beat though the
mud ensnares them, I stoop slightly and read a sentence—"My dear
Henry, what a fine day it is for your birthday!" The man is on his
belly; his loins are rent from hip to hip by a deep furrow; his head
is half turned round; we see a sunken eye; and on temples, cheek and
neck a kind of green moss is growing.
A sickening atmosphere roams with the wind around these dead and
the heaped-up debris, that lies about them—tent-cloth or clothing in
stained tatters, stiff with dried blood, charred by the scorch of the
shell, hardened, earthy and already rotting, quick with swarming and
questing things. It troubles us. We look at each other and shake our
heads, nor dare admit aloud that the place smells bad. All the same,
we go away slowly.
Now come breaking out of the fog the bowed backs of men who are
joined together by something they are carrying. They are Territorial
stretcher-bearers with a new corpse. They come up with their old wan
faces, toiling, sweating, and grimacing with the effort. To carry a
dead man in the lateral trenches when they are muddy is a work almost
beyond human power. They put down the body, which is dressed in new
clothes.
"It's not long since, now, that he was standing," says one of the
bearers. "It's two hours since he got his bullet in the head for
going to look for a Boche rifle in the plain. He was going on leave
on Wednesday and wanted to take a rifle home with him. He is a
sergeant of the 405th, Class 1914. A nice lad, too."
He takes away the handkerchief that is over the face. It is quite
young, and seems to sleep, except that an eyeball has gone, the cheek
looks waxen, and a rosy liquid has run over the nostrils, mouth, and
eyes.
The body strikes a note of cleanliness in the charnel-house, this
still pliant body that lolls its head aside when it is moved as if to
lie better; it gives a childish illusion of being less dead than the
others. But being less disfigured, it seems more pathetic, nearer to
one, more intimate, as we look. And had we said anything in the
presence of all that heap of beings destroyed, it would have been
"Poor boy!"
We take the road again, which at this point begins to slope down to
the depth where Souchez lies. Under our feet in the whiteness of the
fog it appears like a valley of frightful misery. The piles of
rubbish, of remains and of filthiness accumulate on the shattered
spine of the road's paving and on its miry borders in final
confusion. The trees bestrew the ground or have disappeared, torn
away, their stumps mangled. The banks of the road are overturned and
overthrown by shell-fire. All the way along, on both sides of this
highway where only the crosses remain standing, are trenches twenty
times blown in and re-hollowed, cavities—some with passages into
them—hurdles on quagmires.
The more we go forward, the more is everything turned terribly
inside out, full of putrefaction, cataclysmic. We walk on a surface
of shell fragments, and the foot trips on them at every step. We go
among them as if they were snares, and stumble in the medley of
broken weapons or bits of kitchen utensils, of water-bottles,
fire-buckets, sewing-machines, among the bundles of electrical
wiring, the French and German accouterments all mutilated and
encrusted in dried mud, and among the sinister piles of clothing,
stuck together with a reddish-brown cement. And one must look out,
too, for the unexploded shells, which everywhere protrude their noses
or reveal their flanks or their bases, painted red, blue, and tawny
brown.
"That's the old Boche trench, that they cleared out of in the end."
It is choked up in some places, in others riddled with shell-holes.
The sandbags have been torn asunder and gutted; they are crumbled,
emptied, scattered to the wind. The wooden props and beams arc
splintered, and point all ways. The dug-outs are filled to the brim
with earth and with—no one knows what. It is all like the dried bed
of a river, smashed, extended, slimy, that both water and men have
abandoned. In one place the trench has been simply wiped out by the
guns. The wide fosse is blocked, and remains no more than a field of
new-turned earth, made of holes symmetrically bored side by side, in
length and in breadth.
I point out to Poterloo this extraordinary field, that would seem
to have been traversed by a giant plow. But he is absorbed to his very
vitals in the metamorphosis of the country's face.
He indicates a space in the plain with his finger, and with a
stupefied air, as though he came out of a dream—"The Red Tavern!" It
is a flat field, carpeted with broken bricks.
And what is that, there? A milestone? No, it is not a milestone. It
is a head, a black head, tanned and polished. The mouth is all askew,
and you can see something of the mustache bristling on each side—the
great head of a carbonized cat. The corpse—it is German—is
underneath, buried upright.
"And that?" It is a ghastly collection containing an entirely white
skull, and then, six feet away, a pair of boots, and between the two
a heap of frayed leather and of rags, cemented by brown mud.
"Come on, there's less fog already. We must hurry."
A hundred yards in front of us, among the more transparent waves of
fog that are changing places with us and hide us less and less, a
shell whistles and bursts. It has fallen in the spot we are just
nearing. We are descending, and the gradient is less steep. We go
side by side. My companion says nothing, but looks to right and to
left. Then he stops again, as he did at the top of the road. I hear
his faltering voice, almost inaudible—"What's this! We're
there—this is it—"
In point of fact we have not left the plain, the vast plain, seared
and barren—but we are in Souchez!
The village has disappeared, nor have I seen a village go so
completely. Ablain-Saint-Nazaire, and Carency. these still retained
some shape of a place, with their collapsed and truncated houses,
their yards heaped high with plaster and tiles. Here, within the
framework of slaughtered trees that surrounds us as a spectral
background in the fog, there is no longer any shape. There is not
even an end of wall, fence, or porch that remains standing; and it
amazes one to discover that there are paving-stones under the tangle
of beams, stones, and scrap-iron. This—here—was a street.
It might have been a dirty and boggy waste near a big town, whose
rubbish of demolished buildings and its domestic refuse had been shot
here for years, till no spot was empty. We plunge into a uniform layer
of dung and debris, and make but slow and difficult progress. The
bombardment has so changed the face of things that it has diverted the
course of the millstream, which now runs haphazard and forms a pond on
the remains of the little place where the cross stood.
Here are several shell-holes where swollen horses are rotting; in
others the remains of what were once human beings are scattered,
distorted by the monstrous injury of shells.
Here, athwart the track we are following, that we ascend as through
an avalanche or inundation of ruin, under the unbroken melancholy of
the sky, here is a man stretched out as if he slept, but he has that
close flattening against the ground which distinguishes a dead man
from a sleeper. He is a dinner-fatigue man, with a chaplet of loaves
threaded over a belt, and a bunch of his comrades' water-bottles
slung on his shoulder by a skein of straps. It must have been only
last night that the fragment of a shell caught him in the back. No
doubt we are the first to find him, this unknown soldier secretly
dead. Perhaps he will be scattered before others find him, so we look
for his identity disc—it is stuck in the clotted blood where his
right hand stagnates. I copy down the name that is written in letters
of blood.
Poterloo lets me do it by myself—he is like a sleepwalker. He
looks, and looks in despair, everywhere. He seeks endlessly among
those evanished and eviscerated things; through the void he gazes to
the haze of the horizon. Then he sits down on a beam, having first
sent flying with a kick a saucepan that lay on it, and I sit by his
side. A light drizzle is falling. The fog's moisture is resolving in
little drops that cover everything with a slight gloss. He murmurs,
"Ah, la, la!"
He wipes his forehead and raises imploring eyes to me. He is trying
to make out and take in the destruction of all this corner of the
earth, and the mournfulness of it. He stammers disjointed remarks and
interjections. He takes off his great helmet and his head is smoking.
Then he says to me with difficulty, "Old man, you cannot imagine, you
cannot, you cannot—"
He whispers: "The Red Tavern, where that—where that Boche's head
is, and litters of beastliness all around, that sort of cesspool—it
was on the edge of the road, a brick house and two out-buildings
alongside—how many times, old man, on the very spot where we stood,
how many times, there, the good woman who joked with me on her
doorstep, I've given her good-day as I wiped my mouth and looked
towards Souchez that I was going back to! And then, after a few
steps, I've turned round to shout some nonsense to her! Oh, you
cannot imagine! But that, now, that!" He makes an inclusive gesture
to indicate all the emptiness that surrounds him.
"We mustn't stay here too long, old chap. The fog's lifting, you
know."
He stands up with an effort—"Allons."
The most serious part is yet to come. His house—
He hesitates, turns towards the east, goes. "It's there—no, I've
passed it. It's not there. I don't know where it is—or where it was.
Ah, misery, misery!" He wrings his hands in despair and staggers in
the middle of the medley of plaster and bricks. Then, bewildered by
this encumbered plain of lost landmarks, he looks questioningly about
in the air, like a thoughtless child, like a madman. He is looking for
the intimacy of the bedrooms scattered in infinite space, for their
inner form and their twilight now cast upon the winds!
After several goings and comings, he stops at one spot and draws
back a little—"It was there, I'm right. Look—it's that stone there
that I knew it by. There was a vent-hole there, you can see the mark
of the bar of iron that was over the hole before it disappeared."
Sniffling he reflects, and gently shaking his head as though he
could not stop it: "It is when you no longer have anything that you
understand how happy you were. Ah, how happy we were!"
He comes up to me and laughs nervously: "It's out of the common,
that, eh? I'm sure you've never seen yourself like it—can't find the
house where you've always lived since—since always—"
He turns about, and it is he who leads me away:
"Well, let's leg it, since there is nothing. Why spend a whole hour
looking at places where things were? Let's be off, old man."
We depart—the only two living beings to be seen in that unreal and
miasmal place, that village which bestrews the earth and lies under
our feet.
We climb again. The weather is clearing and the fog scattering
quickly. My silent comrade, who is making great strides with lowered
head, points out a field: "The cemetery," he says; "it was there
before it was everywhere, before it laid hold on everything without
end, like a plague."
Half-way, we go more slowly, and Poterloo comes close to me-"You
know, it's too much, all that. It's wiped out too much—all my life
up to now. It makes me afraid—it is so completely wiped out."
"Come; your wife's in good health, you know; your little girl,
too."
He looks at me comically: "My wife—I'll tell you something; my
wife—"
"Well?"
"Well, old chap, I've seen her again."
"You've seen her? I thought she was in the occupied country?"
"Yes, she's at Lens, with my relations. Well, I've seen her—ah,
and then, after all, zut!—I'll tell you all about it. Well, I was at
Lens, three weeks ago. It was the eleventh; that's twenty days since."
I look at him, astounded. But he looks like one who is speaking the
truth. He talks in sputters at my side. as we walk in the increasing
light—
"They told us—you remember, perhaps—but you weren't there, I
believe—they told us the wire had got to be strengthened in front of
the Billard Trench. You know what that means, eh? They hadn't been
able to do it till then. As soon as one gets out of the trench he's on
a downward slope, that's got a funny name."
"The Toboggan."
"Yes, that's it; and the place is as bad by night or in fog as in
broad daylight, because of the rifles trained on it before hand on
trestles, and the machine-guns that they point during the day. When
they can't see any more, the Boches sprinkle the lot.
"They took the pioneers of the C.H.R., hut there were some missing,
and they replaced 'em with a few poilus. I was one of 'em. Good. We
climb out. Not a single rifle-shot! 'What does it mean?' we says, and
behold. we see a Boche, two Boches, three Boches, coming out of the
ground—the gray devils!—and they make signs to us and shout
'Kamarad!' 'We're Alsatians,' they says. coming more and more out of
their communication trench—the International. 'They won't fire on
you, up there,' they says; 'don't be afraid, friends. Just let us
bury our dead.' And behold us working aside of each other, and even
talking together since they were from Alsace. And to tell the truth,
they groused about the war and about their officers. Our sergeant
knew all right that it was forbidden to talk with the enemy, and
they'd even read it out to us that we were only to talk to them with
our rifles. But the sergeant he says to himself that this is God's
own chance to strengthen the wire, and as long as they were letting
us work against them, we'd just got to take advantage of it,
"Then behold one of the Boches that says, 'There isn't perhaps one
of you that comes from the invaded country and would like news of his
family?'
"Old chap, that was a bit too much for me. Without thinking if I
did right or wrong, I went up to him and I said, 'Yes, there's me.'
The Boche asks me questions. I tell him my wife's at Lens with her
relations, and the little one, to. He asks where she's staying. I
explain to him, and he says he can see it from there. 'Listen,' he
says, 'I'll take her a letter, and not only that, but I'll bring you
an answer.' Then all of a sudden he taps his forehead, the Boche, and
comes close to me—'Listen, my friend, to a lot better still. If you
like to do what I say, you shall see your wife, and your kids as well,
and all the lot, sure as I see you.' He tells me, to do it, I've only
got to go with him at a certain time with a Boche greatcoat and a
shako that he'll have for me. He'd mix me up in a coal-fatigue in
Lens, and we'd go to our house. I could go and have a look on
condition that I laid low and didn't show myself, and he'd be
responsible for the chaps of the fatigue, but there were non-coms. in
the house that he wouldn't answer for—and, old chap, I agreed!"
"That was serious."
"Yes, for sure, it was serious. I decided all at once. without
thinking and without wishing to think, seeing I was dazzled with the
idea of seeing my people again; and if I got shot afterwards, well,
so much the worse—but give and take. The supply of law and demand
they call it, don't they?
"My boy, it all went swimmingly. The only hitch was they had such
hard work to find a shako big enough, for, as you know, I'm well off
for head. But even that was fixed up. They raked me out in the end a
lousebox big enough to hold my head. I've already some Boche
boots—those that were Caron's, you know. So, behold us setting off
in the Boche trenches—and they're most damnably like ours—with
these good sorts of Boche comrades, who told me in very good
French—same as I'm speaking—not to fret myself.
"There was no alarm, nothing. Getting there came off all right.
Everything went off so sweet and simple that I fancied I must be a
defaulting Boche. We got to Lens at nightfall. I remember we passed
in front of La Perche and went down the Rue du Quatorze-Juillet. I
saw some of the townsfolk walking about in the streets like they do
in our quarters. I didn't recognize them because of the evening, nor
them me, because of the evening too, and because of the seriousness
of things. It was so dark you couldn't put your finger into your eye
when I reached my folk's garden.
"My heart was going top speed. I was all trembling from head to
foot as if I were only a sort of heart myself. And I had to hold
myself back from carrying on aloud, and in French too, I was so happy
and upset. The Kamarad says to me, 'You go, pass once, then another
time, and look in at the door and the window. Don't look as if you
were looking. Be careful.' So I get hold of myself again, and swallow
my feelings all at a gulp. Not a bad sort, that devil, seeing he'd
have had a hell of a time if I'd got nailed.
"At our place, you know, same as everywhere in the Pas de Calais,
the outside doors of the houses are cut in two. At the bottom, it's a
sort of barrier, half-way up your body; and above, you might call it a
shutter. So you can shut the bottom half and be one-half private.
"The top half was open, and the room, that's the dining-room, and
the kitchen as well, of course, was lighted up and I heard voices.
"I went by with my neck twisted sideways. There were heads of men
and women with a rosy light on them, round the round table and the
lamp. My eyes fell on her, on Clotilde. I saw her plainly. She was
sitting between two chaps, non-coms., I believe, and they were
talking to her. And what was she doing? Nothing; she was smiling, and
her face was prettily bent forward and surrounded with a light little
framework of fair hair, and the lamp gave it a bit of a golden look.
"She was smiling. She was contented. She had a look of being well
off, by the side of the Boche officer, and the lamp, and the fire
that puffed an unfamiliar warmth out on me. I passed, and then I
turned round, and passed again. I saw her again, and she was always
smiling. Not a forced smile, not a debtor's smile, non, a real smile
that came from her, that she gave. And during that time of
illumination that I passed in two senses, I could see my baby as
well, stretching her hands out to a great striped simpleton and
trying to climb on his knee; and then, just by, who do you think I
recognized? Madeleine Vandaert, Vandaert's wife, my pal of the 19th,
that was killed at the Maine, at Montyon.
"She knew he'd been killed because she was in mourning. And she,
she was having good fun, and laughing outright, I tell you—and she
looked at one and the other as much as to say, 'I'm all right here!'
"Ah, my boy, I cleared out of that, and butted into the Kamarads
that were waiting to take me back. How I got back I couldn't tell
you. I was knocked out. I went stumbling like a man under a curse,
and if any-body had said a wrong word to me just then—! I should
have shouted out loud; I should have made a row, so as to get killed
and be done with this filthy life!
"Do you catch on? She was smiling, my wife, my Clotilde, at this
time in the war! And why? Have we only got to be away for a time for
us not to count any more? You take your damned hook from home to go
to the war, and everything seems finished with; and they worry for a
while that you're gone, but bit by bit you become as if you didn't
exist, they can do without you to be as happy as they were before,
and to smile. Ah, Christ! I'm not talking of the other woman that was
laughing, but my Clotilde, mine, who at that chance moment when I saw
her, whatever you may say, was getting on damned well without me!
"And then, if she'd been with friends or relations; but no,
actually with Boche officers! Tell me, shouldn't I have had good
reason to jump into the room, fetch her a couple of swipes, and wring
the neck of the other old hen in mourning?
"Yes, yes; I thought of doing it. I know all right I was getting
violent, I was getting out of control.
"Mark me. I don't want to say more about it than I have said. She's
a good lass, Clotilde. I know her, and I've confidence in her. I'm
not far wrong, you know. If I were done in, she'd cry all the tears
in her body to begin with. She thinks I'm alive, I admit, but that
isn't the point. She can't prevent herself from being; well off, and
contented, and letting herself go, when she's a good fire, a good
lamp, and company, whether I'm there or not—"
I led Poterloo away: "You exaggerate, old chap; you're getting
absurd notions, come." We had walked very slowly and were still at
the foot of the hill. The fog was becoming like silver as it prepared
for departure. Sunshine was very near.
* * * * * *
Poterloo looked up and said, "We'll go round by the Carency road
and go in at the back." We struck off at an angle into the fields. At
the end of a few minutes he said to me, "I exaggerate, you think? You
say that I exaggerate?" He reflected. "Ah!" Then he added, with the
shaking of the head that had hardly left him all the morning, "What
about it? All the same, it's a fact—"
We climbed the slope. The cold had become tepidity. Arrived on a
little plateau—"Let's sit here again before going in," he proposed.
He sat down, heavy with the world of thought that entangled him. His
forehead was wrinkled. Then he turned towards me with an awkward air,
as if he were going to beg some favor: "Tell me, mate, I'm wondering
if I'm right."
But after looking at me, he looked at everything else, as though he
would rather consult them than me.
A transformation was taking place in the sky and on the earth. The
fog was hardly more than a fancy. Distances revealed themselves. The
narrow plain, gloomy and gray, was getting bigger, chasing its
shadows away, and assuming color. The light was passing over it from
east to west like sails.
And down there at our very feet, by the grace of distance and of
light, we saw Souchez among the trees—the little place arose again
before our eyes, new-born in the sunshine!
"Am I right?" repeated Poterloo, more faltering, more dubious.
Before I could speak he replied to himself, at first almost in a
whisper, as the light fell on him—"She's quite young, you know;
she's twenty-six. She can't hold her youth in, it's coming out of her
all over, and when she's resting in the lamp-light and the warmth,
she's got to smile; and even if she burst out laughing, it would just
simply be her youth, singing in her throat. It isn't on account of
others, if truth were told; it's on account of herself. It's life. She
lives. Ah, yes, she lives, and that's all. It isn't her fault if she
lives. You wouldn't have her die? Very well, what do you want her to
do? Cry all day on account of me and the Boches? Grouse? One can't cry
all the time, nor grouse for eighteen months. Can't be done. It's too
long, I tell you. That's all there is to it."
He stops speaking to look at the view of Notre-Dame-de-Lorette, now
wholly illuminated.
"Same with the kid; when she found herself alongside a simpleton
that doesn't tell her to go and play with herself, she ends by
wanting to get on his knee. Perhaps she'd prefer that it was her
uncle or a friend or her father—perhaps—but she tries it on all the
same with the only man that's always there, even if it's a great hog
in spectacles.
"Ah," he cries, as he gets up and comes gesticulating before me.
"There's a good answer one could give me. If I didn't come back from
the war, I should say, 'My lad, you've gone to smash, no more
Clotilde, no more love! You'll be replaced in her heart sooner or
later; no getting round it; your memory, the portrait of you that she
carries in her, that'll fade bit by bit and another'll come on top of
it, and she'll begin another life again.' Ah, if I didn't come back!"
He laughs heartily. "But I mean to come back. Ah, yes! One must be
there. Otherwise—I must be there, look you," he says again more
seriously; "otherwise, if you're not there, even if you're dealing
with saints and angels, you'll be at fault in the end. That's life.
But I am there." He laughs. "Well, I'm a little there, as one might
say!"
I get up too, and tap him on the shoulder. "You're right, old pal,
it'll all come to an end."
He rubs his hands and goes on talking. "Yes, by God! it'll all
finish, don't worry. Oh, I know well there'll be hard graft before
it's finished, and still more after. We've got to work, and I don't
only mean work with the arms.
"It'll be necessary to make everything over again. Very well, we'll
do it. The house? Gone. The garden? Nowhere. All right, we'll rebuild
the house, we'll remake the garden. The less there is the more we'll
make over again. After all, it's life, and we're made to remake, eh?
And we'll remake our life together, and happiness. We'll make the days
again; we'll remake the nights.
"And the other side, too. They'll make their world again. Do you
know what I say?—perhaps it won't be as long as one thinks—"
"Tiens! I can see Madeleine Vandaert marrying another chap. She's
a widow; but, old man, she's been a widow eighteen months. Do you
think it's not a big slice, that, eighteen months? They even leave off
wearing mourning, I believe, about that time! People don't remember
that when they say 'What a strumpet she is,' and when, in effect, they
ask her to commit suicide. But mon vieux, one forgets. One is forced
to forget. It isn't the people that make you forget; you do it
yourself; it's just forgetfulness, mind you. I find Madeleine again
all of a sudden, and to see her frivvling there it broke me up as much
as if her husband had been killed yesterday—it's natural. But it's a
devil of a long time since he got spiked, poor lad. It's a long time
since, it's too long since. People are no longer the same. But, mark
you, one must come back, one must be there! We shall be there, and we
shall be busy with beginning again!"
On the way, he looks and winks, cheered up by finding a peg on
which to hang his ideas. He says—"I can see it from here, after the
war, all the Souchez people setting themselves again to work and to
life—what a business! Tiens, Papa Ponce, for example, the
back-number! He was so pernickety that you could see him sweeping the
grass in his garden with a horsehair brush, or kneeling on his lawn
and trimming the turf with a pair of scissors. Very well, he'll treat
himself to that again! And Madame Imaginaire, that lived in one of the
last houses towards the Chateau de Carleul, a large woman who seemed
to roll along the ground as if she'd got casters under her big
circular petticoats. She had a child every year, regular, punctual—a
proper machine-gun of kids. Very well, she'll take that occupation up
again with all her might."
He stops and ponders, and smiles a very little—almost within
himself: "Tiens, I'll tell you; I noticed—it isn't very important,
this," he insists, as though suddenly embarrassed by the triviality
of this parenthesis—"but I noticed (you notice it in a glance when
you're noticing something else) that it was cleaner in our house than
in my time—"
We come on some little rails in the ground, climbing almost hidden
in the withered grass underfoot. Poterloo points out with his foot
this bit of abandoned track, and smiles; "That, that's our railway.
It was a cripple, as you may say; that means something that doesn't
move. It didn't work very quickly. A snail could have kept pace with
it. We shall remake it. But certainly it won't go any quicker. That
can't be allowed!"
When we reached the top of the hill, Poterloo turned round and
threw a last look over the slaughtered places that we had just
visited. Even more than a minute ago, distance recreated the village
across the remains of trees shortened and sliced that now looked like
young saplings. Better even than just now, the sun shed on that white
and red accumulation of mingled material an appearance of life and
even an illusion of meditation. Its very stones seemed to feel the
vernal revival. The beauty of sunshine heralded what would be, and
revealed the future. The face of the watching soldier, too, shone with
a glamour of reincarnation, and the smile on it was born of the
springtime and of hope. His rosy cheeks and blue eyes seemed brighter
than ever.
We go down into the communication trench and there is sunshine
there. The trench is yellow, dry, and resounding. I admire its finely
geometrical depth, its shovel-smoothed and shining flanks; and I find
it enjoyable to hear the clean sharp sound of our feet on the hard
ground or on the caillebotis—little gratings of wood, placed end to
end and forming a plankway.
I look at my watch. It tells me that it is nine o'clock, and it
shows me, too, a dial of delicate color where the sky is reflected in
rose-pink and blue, and the fine fret-work of bushes that are planted
there above the marges of the trench.
And Poterloo and I look at each other with a kind of confused
delight. We are glad to see each other, as though we were meeting
after absence! He speaks to me, and though I am quite familiar with
the singsong accent of the North, I discover that he is singing.
We have had bad days and tragic nights in the cold and the rain and
the mud. Now, although it is still winter, the first fine morning
shows and convinces us that it will soon be spring once more. Already
the top of the trench is graced by green young grass, and amid its
new-born quivering some flowers are awakening. It means the end of
contracted and constricted days. Spring is coming from above and from
below. We inhale with joyful hearts; we are uplifted.
Yes, the had days are ending. The war will end, too, que diable!
And no doubt it will end in the beautiful season that is coming, that
already illumines us, whose zephyrs already caress us.
A whistling sound—tiens, a spent bullet! A bullet? Nonsense—it's
a blackbird! Curious how similar the sound was! The blackbirds and the
birds of softer song, the countryside and the pageant of the seasons,
the intimacy of dwelling-rooms, arrayed in light—Oh! the war will end
soon; we shall go back for good to our own; wife, children, or to her
who is at once wife and child, and we smile towards them in this young
glory that already unites us again.
At the forking of the two trenches, in the open and on the edge,
here is something like a doorway. Two posts lean one upon the other,
with a confusion of electric wires between them, hanging down like
tropical creepers. It looks well. You would say it was a theatrical
contrivance or scene. A slender climbing plant twines round one of
the posts, and as you follow it with your glance, you see that it
already dares to pass from one to the other.
Soon, passing along this trench whose grassy slopes quiver like the
flanks of a fine horse, we come out into our own trench on the
Bethune road, and here is our place. Our comrades are there, in
clusters. They are eating, and enjoying the goodly temperature.
The meal finished, we clean our aluminium mess-tins or plates with
a morsel of bread. "Tiens, the sun's going!" It is true; a cloud has
passed over and hidden it. "It's going to splash, my little lads,"
says Lamuse "that's our luck all over! Just as we are going off!"
"A damned country!" says Fouillade. In truth this Northern climate
is not worth much. It drizzles and mizzles, reeks and rains. And when
there is any sun it soon disappears in the middle of this great damp
sky.
Our four days in the trenches are finished, and the relief will
commence at nightfall. Leisurely we get ready for leaving. We fill
and put aside the knapsacks and bags. We give a rub to the rifles and
wrap them up.
It is already four o'clock. Darkness is falling quickly, and we
grow indistinct to each other. "Damnation. Here's the rain!" A few
drops and then the downpour. Oh, la, la, la! We don our capes and
tent-cloths. We go back unto the dug-out, dabbling, and gathering mud
on our knees, hands, and elbows, for the bottom of the trench is
getting sticky. Once inside, we have hardly time to light a candle,
stuck on a bit of stone, and to shiver all round—"Come on, en
route!"
We hoist ourselves into the wet and windy darkness outside. I can
dimly see Poterloo's powerful shoulders; in the ranks we are always
side by side. When we get going I call to him, "Are you there, old
chap?"—"Yes, in front of you," he cries to me, turning round. As he
turns he gets a buffet in the face from wind and rain, but he laughs.
His happy face of the morning abides with him. No downpour shall rob
him of the content that he carries in his strong and steadfast heart;
no evil night put out the sunshine that I saw possess his thoughts
some hours ago.
We march, and jostle each other, and stumble. The rain is
continuous, and water runs in the bottom of the trench. The
floor-gratings yield as the soil becomes soaked; some of them slope
to right or left and we skid on them. In the dark, too, one cannot
see them, so we miss them at the turnings and put our feet into holes
full of water.
Even in the grayness of the night I will not lose sight of the
slaty shine of Poterloo's helmet, which streams like a roof under the
torrent, nor of the broad back that is adorned with a square of
glistening oilskin. I lock my step in his, and from time to time I
question him and he answers me—always in good humor, always serene
and strong.
When there are no more of the wooden floor-gratings, we tramp in
the thick mud. It is dark now. There is a sudden halt and I am thrown
on Poterloo. Up higher we hear half-angry reproaches—"What the devil,
will you get on? We shall get broken up!"
"I can't get my trotters unstuck!" replies a pitiful voice.
The engulfed one gets clear at last, and we have to run to overtake
the rest of the company. We begin to pant and complain, and bluster
against those who are leading. Our feet go down haphazard; we stumble
and hold ourselves up by the wails, so that our hands are plastered
with mud. The march becomes a stampede, full of the noise of metal
things and of oaths.
In redoubled rain there is a second halt; some one has fallen, and
the hubbub is general. He picks himself up and we are off again. I
exert myself to follow Poterloo's helmet closely that gleams feebly
in the night before my eyes, and I shout from time to time, "All
right?"—"Yes, yes, all right," he replies, puffing and blowing, and
his voice always singsong and resonant.
Our knapsacks, tossed in this rolling race under the assault of the
elements, drag and hurt our shoulders.
The trench is blocked by a recent landslide, and we plunge unto it.
We have to tear our feet out of the soft and clinging earth, lifting
them high at each step. Then, when this crossing is laboriously
accomplished, we topple down again into the slippery stream, in the
bottom of which are two narrow ruts, boot-worn, which hold one's foot
like a vice, and there are pools into which it goes with a great
splash. In one place we must stoop very low to pass under a heavy and
glutinous bridge that crosses the trench, and we only get through with
difficulty. It obliges us to kneel in the mud, to flatten ourselves on
the ground, and to crawl on all fours for a few paces. A little
farther there are evolutions to perform as we grasp a post that the
sinking of the ground has set aslope across the middle of the fairway.
We come to a trench-crossing. "Allons, forward! Look out for
yourselves, boys!" says the adjutant, who has flattened himself in a
corner to let us pass and to speak to us. "This is a bad spot."
"We're done up," shouts a voice so hoarse that I cannot identify
the speaker.
"Damn! I've enough of it, I'm stopping here," groans another, at
the end of his wind and his muscle.
"What do you want me to do?" replies the adjutant, "No fault of
mine. eh? Allons, get a move on, it's a bad spot—it was shelled at
the last relief!"
We go on through the tempest of wind and water. We seem to be going
ever down and down, as in a pit. We slip and tumble, butt into the
wall of the trench, into which we drive our elbows hard, so as to
throw ourselves upright again. Our going is a sort of long slide, on
which we keep up just how and where we can. What matters is to
stumble only forward, and as straight as possible.
Where are we? I lift my head, in spite of the billows of rain, out
of this gulf where we are struggling. Against the hardly discernible
background of the buried sky, I can make out the rim of the trench;
and there, rising before my eyes all at once and towering over that
rim, is something like a sinister doorway, made of two black posts
that lean one upon the other, with something hanging from the middle
like a torn-off scalp. It is the doorway.
"Forward! Forward!"
I lower my head and see no more; but again I hear the feet that
sink in the mud and come out again, the rattle of the bayonets, the
heavy exclamations, and the rapid breathing.
Once more there is a violent back-eddy. We pull up sharply, and
again I am thrown upon Poterloo and lean on his back, his strong back
and solid, like the trunk of a tree, like healthfulness and like hope.
He cries to me, "Cheer up, old man, we're there!"
We are standing still. It is necessary to go hack a little—Nom de
Dieu!—no, we are moving on again!
Suddenly a fearful explosion falls on us. I tremble to my skull; a
metallic reverberation fills my head; a scorching and suffocating
smell of sulphur pierces my nostrils. The earth has opened in front
of me. I feel myself lifted and hurled aside—doubled up, choked, and
half blinded by this lightning and thunder. But still my recollection
is clear; and in that moment when I looked wildly and desperately for
my comrade-in-arms, I saw his body go up, erect and black, both his
arms outstretched to their limit, and a flame in the place of his
head!
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[note 1:] All these high roads are stone-paved, and traffic is
noisy.—Tr.
BARQUE notices that I am writing. He comes towards me on all fours
through the straw and lifts his intelligent face to me, with its
reddish forelock and the little quick eyes over which circumflex
accents fold and unfold them-selves. His mouth is twisting in all
directions, by reason of a tablet of chocolate that he crunches and
chews, while he holds the moist stump of it in his fist.
With his mouth full, and wafting me the odor of a sweetshop, he
stammers—"Tell me, you writing chap, you'll be writing later about
soldiers, you'll be speaking of us, eh?"
"Why yes, sonny, I shall talk about you, and about the boys, and
about our life."
"Tell me, then"—he indicates with a nod the papers on which I have
been making notes. With hovering pencil I watch and listen to him. He
has a question to put to me—"Tell me, then, though you needn't if you
don't want—there's something I want to ask you. This is it; if you
make the common soldiers talk in your book, are you going to make them
talk like they do talk, or shall you put it all straight—into pretty
talk? It's about the big words that we use. For after all, now,
besides falling out sometimes and blackguarding each other, you'll
never hear two poilus open their heads for a minute without saying and
repeating things that the printers wouldn't much like to print. Then
what? If you don't say 'em, your portrait won't be a lifelike one it's
as if you were going to paint them and then left out one of the
gaudiest colors wherever you found it. All the same, it isn't usually
done."
"I shall put the big words in their place, dadda, for they're the
truth."
"But tell me, if you put 'em in, won't the people of your sort say
you're swine, without worrying about the truth?"
"Very likely, but I shall do it all the same, without worrying
about those people."
"Do you want my opinion? Although I know nothing about books, it's
brave to do that, because it isn't usually done, and it'll be spicy
if you dare do it—but you'll find it hard when it comes to it,
you're too polite. That's just one of the faults I've found in you
since we've known each other; that, and also that dirty habit you've
got, when they're serving brandy out to us, you pretend it'll do you
harm, and instead of giving your share to a pal, you go and pour it
on your head to wash your scalp."
AT the end of the yard of the Muets farm, among the outbuildings,
the barn gapes like a cavern. It is always caverns for us, even in
houses! When you have crossed the yard, where the manure yields
underfoot with a spongy sound or have gone round it instead on the
narrow paved path of difficult equilibrium, and when you have arrived
at the entrance to the barn, you can see nothing at all.
Then, if you persist, you make out a misty hollow where equally
misty and dark lumps are asquat or prone or wandering from one corner
to another. At the back, on the right and on the left, the pale gleams
of two candles, each with the round halo of a distant moon allow you
at last to make out the human shape of these masses, whose mouths emit
either steam or thick smoke.
Our hazy retreat, which I allow carefully to swallow me whole, is a
scene of excitement this evening. We leave for the trenches to-morrow
morning, and the nebulous tenants of the barn are beginning to pack
up.
Although darkness falls on my eyes and chokes them as I come in
from the pallid evening, I still dodge the snares spread over the
ground by water-bottles, mess-tins and weapons, but I butt full into
the loaves that are packed together exactly in the middle, like the
paving of a yard. I reach my corner. Something alive is there with a
huge back, fleecy and rounded, squatting and stooping over a
collection of little things that glitter on the ground, and I tap the
shoulder upholstered in sheepskin. The being turns round, and by the
dull and fitful gleam of a candle which a bayonet stuck in the ground
upholds, I see one half of a face, an eye, the end of a mustache, and
the corner of a half-open mouth. It growls in a friendly way, and
resumes the inspection of its possessions.
"What are you doing there?"
"I'm fixing things, and clearing up."
The quasi-brigand who appears to be checking his booty, is my
comrade Volpatte. He has folded his tent-cloth in four and placed it
on his bed—that is, on the truss of straw assigned to him—and on
this carpet he has emptied and displayed the contents of his pockets.
And it is quite a shop that he broods over with a housewife's
solicitous eyes, watchful and jealous, lest some one walks over him.
With my eye I tick off his copious exhibition.
Alongside his handkerchief, pipe, tobacco-pouch (which also
contains a note-book), knife, purse, and pocket pipe-lighter, which
comprise the necessary and indispensable groundwork, here are two
leather laces twisted like earthworms round a watch enclosed in a case
of transparent celluloid, which has curiously dulled and blanched with
age. Then a little round mirror, and another square one; this last,
though broken, is of better quality, and bevel-edged. A flask of
essence of turpentine, a flask of mineral oil nearly empty, and a
third flask, empty. A German belt-plate, bearing the device, "Gott
mit uns"; a dragoon's tassel of similar origin; half wrapped in
paper, an aviator's arrow in the form of a steel pencil and pointed
like a needle; folding scissors and a combined knife and fork of
similar pliancy; a stump of pencil and one of candle; a tube of
aspirin, also containing opium tablets, and several tin boxes.
Observing that my inspection of his personal possessions is
detailed, Volpatte helps me to identify certain items—
"That, that's a leather officer's glove. I cut the fingers off to
stop up the mouth of my blunderbuss with; that, that's telephone
wire, the only thing to fasten buttons on your greatcoat with if you
want 'em to stay there; and here, inside here, d'you know what that
is? White thread, good stuff, not what you're put off with when they
give you new things, a sort of macaroni au fromage that you pull out
with a fork; and there's a set of needles on a post-card. The
safety-pins, they're there, separate."
"And here, that's the paper department. Quite a library."
There is indeed a surprising collection of papers among the things
disgorged by Volpatte's pockets—the violet packet of writing-paper,
whose unworthy printed envelope is out at heels; an Army squad-book,
of which the dirty and desiccated binding, like the skin of an old
tramp, has perished and shrunk all over: a note-book with a chafed
moleskin cover, and packed with papers and photographs, those of his
wife and children enthroned in the middle.
Out of this bundle of yellowed and darkened papers Volpatte
extracts this photograph and shows it to me once more. I renew
acquaintance with Madame Volpatte and her generous bosom, her mild and
mellow features; and with the two little boys in white collars, the
elder slender, the younger round as a ball.
"I've only got photos of old people," says Biquet, who is twenty
years old. He shows us a portrait holding it close to the candle, of
two aged people who look at us with the same well-behaved air as
Volpatte's children.
"I've got mine with me, too," says another; "I always stick to the
photo of the nestlings."
"Course! Every man carries his crowd along," adds another.
"It's funny," Barque declares, "a portrait wears itself out just
with being looked at. You haven't got to gape at it too often, or be
too long about it; in the long run, I don't know what happens, but
the likeness mizzles."
"You're right," says Blaire, "I've found it like that too,
exactly.''
"I've got a map of the district as well, among my papers," Volpatte
continues. He unfolds it to the light. Illegible and transparent at
the creases, it looks like one of those window-blinds made of squares
sewn together.
"I've some newspaper too"—he unfolds a newspaper article upon
poilus—"and a book"—a twopence-half-penny novel, called Twice a
Maid—"Tiens, another newspaper cutting from the Etampes Bee. Don't
know why I've kept that, but there must be a reason somewhere. I'll
think about it when I have time. And then, my pack of cards, and a
set of draughts, with a paper board and the pieces made of
sealing-wax."
Barque comes up, regards the scene, and says, "I've a lot more
things than that in my pockets." He addresses himself to Volpatte.
"Have you got a Boche pay-book, louse-head, some phials of iodine,
and a Browning? I've all that, and two knives."
"I've no revolver," says Volpatte, "nor a Boche pay-book, but I
could have had two knives or even ten knives; but I only need one."
"That depends," says Barque. "And have you any mechanical buttons,
fathead?"
"I haven't any," cries Becuwe.
"The private can't do without 'em," Lamuse asserts. "Without them,
to make your braces stick to your breeches, the game's up."
"And I've always got in my pocket," says Blaire, "so's they're
within reach, my case of rings." He brings it cut, wrapped up in a
gas-mask bag, and shakes it. The files ring inside, and we hear the
jingle of aluminium rings in the rough.
"I've always got string," says Biquet, "that's the useful stuff!"
"Not so useful as nails," says Pepin, and he shows three in his
hand, big, little, and average.
One by one the others come to join in the conversation. to chaffer
and cadge. We are getting used to the half-darkness. But Corporal
Salavert, who has a well-earned reputation for dexterity, makes a
banging lamp with a candle and a tray, the latter contrived from a
Camembert box and some wire. We light up, and around its illumination
each man tells what he has in his pockets, with parental preferences
and bias.
"To begin with, how many have we?"
"How many pockets? Eighteen," says some one—Cocon, of course, the
man of figures.
"Eighteen pockets! You're codding, rat-nose," says big Lamuse.
"Exactly eighteen," replies Cocon. "Count them, if you're as clever
as all that."
Lamuse is willing to be guided by reason in the matter, and putting
his two hands near the light so as to count accurately, he tells off
his great brick-red fingers: Two pockets in the back of the
greatcoat; one for the first-aid packet, which is used for tobacco;
two inside the greatcoat in front; two outside it on each side, with
flaps; three in the trousers, and even three and a half, counting the
little one in front.
"I'll bet a compass on it," says Farfadet.
'And I, my bits of tinder."
"I," says Tirloir, "I'll bet a teeny whistle that my wife sent me
when she said, 'If you're wounded in the battle you must whistle, so
that your comrades will come and save your life.'"
We laugh at the artless words. Tulacque intervenes, and says
indulgently to Tiloir, "They don't know what war is back there; and
if you started talking about the rear, it'd be you that'd talk rot."
"We won't count that pocket," says Salavert, "it's too small. That
makes ten."
"In the jacket, four. That only makes fourteen after all."
"There are the two cartridge pockets, the two new ones that fasten
with straps."
"Sixteen," says Salavert.
"Now, blockhead and son of misery, turn my jacket back. You haven't
counted those two pockets. Now then, what more do you want? And yet
they're just in the usual place. They're your civilian pockets, where
you shoved your nose-rag, your tobacco, and the address where you'd
got to deliver your parcel when you were a messenger."
"Eighteen!" says Salavert, as grave as a judge. "There are
eighteen, and no mistake; that's done it."
At this point in the conversation, some one makes a series of noisy
stumbles on the stones of the threshold with the sound of a horse
pawing the ground—and blaspheming. Then, after a silence, the
barking of a sonorous and authoritative voice—"Hey, inside there!
Getting ready? Everything must be fixed up this evening and packed
tight and solid, you know. Going into the first line this time, and
we may have a hot time of it."
"Right you are, right you are, mon adjutant." heedless voices
answer.
"How do you write 'Arnesse'?" asks Benech, who is on all fours, at
work with a pencil and an envelope. While Cocon spells "Ernest" for
him and the voice of the vanished adjutant is heard afar repeating
his harangue, Blaire picks up the thread, and says—
"You should always, my children—listen to what I'm telling
you—put your drinking-cup in your pocket. I've tried to stick it
everywhere else, but only the pocket's really practical, you take my
word. If you're in marching order, or if you've doffed your kit to
navigate the trenches either, you've always got it under your fist
when chances come, like when a pal who's got some gargle, and feels
good towards you says, 'Lend us your cup,' or a peddling wine-seller,
either. My young bucks, listen to what I tell you; you'll always find
it good—put your cup in your pocket."
"No fear," says Lamuse, "you won't see me put my cup in my pocket;
damned silly idea, no more or less. I'd a sight sooner sling it on a
strap with a hook."
"Fasten it on a greatcoat button, like the gas-helmet bag, that's a
lot better; for suppose you take off your accouterments and there's
any wine passing, you look soft."
"I've got a Boche drinking-cup," says Barque; "it's flat, so it
goes into a side pocket if you like, or it goes very well into a
cartridge-pouch, once you've fired the damn things off or pitched
them into a bag."
"A Boche cup's nothing special," says Pepin; "it won't stand up,
it's just lumber."
"You wait and see, maggot-snout," says Tirette, who is something of
a psychologist. "If we attack this time, same as the adjutant seemed
to hint, perhaps you'll find a Boche cup, and then it'll be something
special!"
"The adjutant may have said that," Eudore observes. "but he doesn't
know."
"It holds more than a half-pint, the Boche cup," remarks Cocon,
"seeing that the exact capacity of the half-pint is marked in the cup
three-quarters way up; and it's always good for you to have a big one,
for if you've got a cup that only just holds a half-pint, then so that
you can get your half-pint of coffee or wine or holy water or what
not, it's get to be filled right up, and they don't ever do it at
serving-out, and if they do, you spill it."
"I believe you that they don't fill it," says Paradis, exasperated
by the recollection of that ceremony. "The quartermaster-sergeant, he
pours it with his blasted finger in your cup and gives it two raps on
its bottom. Result, you get a third, and your cup's in mourning with
three black bands on top of each other."
"Yes," says Barque, "that's true; but you shouldn't have a cup too
big either, because the chap that's pouring it out for you, he
suspects you, and let's it go in damned drops, and so as not to give
you more than your measure he gives you less, and you can whistle for
it. with your tureen in your fists."
Volpatte puts back in his pockets, one by one, the items of his
display. When he came to the purse, he looked at it with an air of
deep compassion.
"He's damnably flat, poor chap!" He counted the contents. "Three
francs! My boy, I most set about feathering this nest again or I
shall be stony when we get back."
"You're not the only one that's broken-backed in the treasury."
"The soldier spends more than he earns, and don't you forget it. I
wonder what'd become of a man that only had his pay?"
Paradis replies with concise simplicity, "He'd kick the bucket."
"And see here, look what I've got in my pocket and never let go
of"—Pepin, with merry eyes, shows us some silver table-things. "They
belonged," he says, "to the ugly trollop where we were quartered at
Grand-Rozoy."
"Perhaps they still belong to her?"
Pepin made an uncertain gesture, in which pride mingled with
modesty; then, growing bolder, he smiled and said, "I knew her, the
old sneak. Certainly, she'll spend the rest of her life looking in
every corner for her silver things."
"For my part," says Volpatte, "I've never been able to rake in more
than a pair of scissors. Some people have the luck. I haven't. So
naturally I watch 'em close, though I admit I've no use for 'em."
"I've pinched a few bits of things here and there, but what of it?
The sappers have always left me behind in the matter of pinching; so
what about it?"
"You can do what you like, you're always got at by some one in your
turn, eh, my boy? Don't fret about it."
"I keep my wife's letters," says Blaire.
"And I send mine back to her."
"And I keep them, too. Here they are." Eudore exposes a packet of
worn and shiny paper, whose grimy condition the twilight modestly
veils. "I keep them. Sometimes I read them again. When I'm cold and
humpy, I read 'em again. It doesn't actually warm you up, but it
seems to."
There must be a deep significance in the curious expression, for
several men raise their heads and say, "Yes, that's so."
By fits and starts the conversation goes on in the bosom of this
fantastic barn and the great moving shadows that cross it; night is
heaped up in its corners, and pointed by a few scattered and sickly
candles.
I watch these busy and burdened flitters come and go, outline
themselves strangely, then stoop and slide down to the ground; they
talk to themselves and to each other. their feet are encumbered by
the litter. They are showing their riches to each other. "Tiens,
look!"—"Great!" they reply enviously.
What they have not got they want. There are treasures among the
squad long coveted by all; the two-liter water-bottle, for instance,
preserved by Barque, that a skillful rifle-shot with a blank
cartridge has stretched to the capacity of two and a half liters; and
Bertrand's famous great knife with the horn handle.
Among the heaving swarm there are sidelong glances that skim these
curiosities, and then each man resumes "eyes right," devotes himself
to his belongings, and concentrates upon getting it in order.
They are mournful belongings, indeed. Everything made for the
soldier is commonplace, ugly, and of bad quality; from his cardboard
boots, attached to the uppers by a criss-cross of worthless thread,
to his badly cut, badly shaped, and badly sewn clothes, made of
shoddy and transparent cloth—blotting-paper—that one day of
sunshine fades and an hour of rain wets through, to his emaciated
leathers, brittle as shavings and torn by the buckle spikes, to his
flannel underwear that is thinner than cotton, to his straw-like
tobacco.
Marthereau is beside me, and he points to our comrades: "Look at
them, these poor chaps gaping into their bags o' tricks. You'd say it
was a mothers' meeting, ogling their kids. Hark to 'em. They're
calling for their knick-knacks. Tiens, that one, the times he says
'My knife!' same as if be was calling 'Lon,' or 'Charles,' or
'Dolphus.' And you know it's impossible for them to make their load
any less. Can't be did. It isn't that they don't want—our job isn't
one that makes us any stronger, eh? But they can't. Too proud of
'em."
The burdens to be borne are formidable, and one knows well enough,
parbleu, that every item makes them more severe, each little addition
is one bruise more.
For it is not merely a matter of what one buries in his pockets and
pouches. To complete the burden there is what one carries on his
back. The knapsack is the trunk and even the cupboard; and the old
soldier is familiar with the art of enlarging it almost miraculously
by the judicious disposal of his household goods and provisions.
Besides the regulation and obligatory contents—two tins of pressed
beef, a dozen biscuits, two tablets of coffee and two packets of
dried soup, the bag of sugar, fatigue smock, and spare boots—we find
a way of getting in some pots of jam, tobacco, chocolate, candles,
soft-soled shoes; and even soap, a spirit lamp, some solidified
spirit, and some woolen things. With the blanket, sheet, tentcloth,
trenching-tool, water-bottle, and an item of the field-cooking kit,
[note 1] the burden gets heavier and taller and wider, monumental and
crushing. And my neighbor says truly that every time he reaches his
goal after some miles of highway and communication trenches, the poilu
swears hard that the next time he'll leave a heap of things behind and
give his shoulders a little relief from the yoke of the knapsack. But
every time he is preparing for departure, he assumes again the same
overbearing and almost superhuman load; he never lets it go, though he
curses it always.
"There are some bad boys," says Lamuse, "among the shirkers, that
find a way of keeping something in the company wagon or the medical
van. I know one that's got two shirts and a pair of drawers in an
adjutant's canteen [note 2]—but, you see, there's two hundred and
fifty chaps in the company, and they're all up to the dodge and not
many of 'em can profit by it; it's chiefly the non-coms.; the more
stripes they've got, the easier it is to plant their luggage, not
forgetting that the commandant visits the wagons sometimes without
warning and fires your things into the middle of the road if he finds
'em in a horse-box where they've no business—Be off with you!—not to
mention the bully-ragging and the clink."
"In the early days it was all right, my boy. There were some
chaps—I've seen 'em—who stuck their bags and even their knapsacks
in baby-carts and pushed 'em along the road."
"Ah, not half! Those were the good times of the war. But all that's
changed."
Volpatte, deaf to all the talk, muffled in his blanket as if in a
shawl which makes him look like an old witch, revolves round an
object that lies on the ground. "I'm wondering," lie says, addressing
no one, "whether to take away this damned tin stove. It's the only one
in the squad and I've always carried it. Oui, but it leaks like a
cullender." He cannot decide, and makes a really pathetic picture of
separation.
Barque watches him obliquely, and makes fun of him. We hear him
say, "Senile dodderer!" But he pauses in his chaffing to say, "After
all, if we were in his shoes we should be equally fatheaded."
Volpatte postpones his decision till later. "I'll see about it in
the morning, when I'm loading the camel's back."
After the inspection and recharging of pockets, it is the turn of
the bags, and then of the cartridge-pouches, and Barque holds forth
on the way to make the regulation two hundred cartridges go into the
three pouches. In the lump it is impossible. They must be unpacked
and placed side by side upright, head against foot. Thus can one cram
each pouch without leaving any space, and make himself a waistband
that weighs over twelve pounds.
Rifles have been cleaned already. One looks to the swathing of the
breech and the plugging of the muzzle, precautions which trench-dirt
renders indispensable.
How every rifle can easily be recognized is discussed. "I've made
some nicks in the sling. See, I've cut into the edge."
"I've twisted a bootlace round the top of the sling, and that way,
I can tell it by touch as well as seeing."
"I use a mechanical button. No mistake about that. In the dark I
can find it at once and say, 'That's my pea-shooter. Because, you
know, there are some boys that don't bother themselves; they just roll
around while the pals are cleaning theirs, and then they're devilish
quick at putting a quiet fist on a popgun that's been cleaned; and
then after they've even the cheek to go and say, 'Mon capitaine, I've
got a rifle that's a bit of all right.' I'm not on in that act. It's
the D system, my old wonder—a damned dirty dodge, and there are times
when I'm fed up with it, and more."
And thus, though their rifles are all alike, they are as different
as their handwriting.
* * * * * *
"It's curious and funny," says Marthereau to me "we're going up to
the trenches to-morrow, and there's nobody drunk yet, nor that way
inclined. Ah, I don't say," he concedes at once, "but what those two
there aren't a bit fresh, nor a little elevated; without being
absolutely blind, they're somewhat boozed, pr'aps—"
"It's Poitron and Poilpot, of Broyer's squad."
They are lying down and talking in a low voice. We can make out the
round nose of one, which stands out equally with his mouth, close by
a candle, and with his hand, whose lifted finger makes little
explanatory signs, faithfully followed by the shadow it casts.
"I know how to light a fire, but I don't know how to light it again
when it's gone out," declares Poitron.
"Ass!" says Poilpot, "if you know how to light it you know how to
relight it, seeing that if you light it, it's because it's gone out,
and you might say that you're relighting it when you're lighting it."
"That's all rot. I'm not mathematical, and to hell with the
gibberish you talk. I tell you and I tell you again that when it
comes to lighting a fire, I'm there, but to light it again when it's
gone out, I'm no good. I can't speak any straighter than that."
I do not catch the insistent retort of Poilpot, but—"But, you
damned numskull," gurgles Poitron, "haven't I told you thirty times
that I can't? You must have a pig's head, anyway!"
Marthereau confides to me, "I've heard about enough of that."
Obviously he spoke too soon just now.
A sort of fever, provoked by farewell libations, prevails in the
wretched straw-spread hole where our tribe—some upright and
hesitant, others kneeling and hammering like colliers—is mending,
stacking, and subduing its provisions, clothes, and tools. There is a
wordy growling, a riot of gesture. From the smoky glimmers, rubicund
faces start forth in relief, and dark hands move about in the shadows
like marionettes. In the barn next to ours, and separated from it only
by a wall of a man's height, arise tipsy shouts. Two men in there have
fallen upon each other with fierce violence and anger. The air is
vibrant with the coarsest expressions the human ear ever hears. But
one of the disputants, a stranger from another squad, is ejected by
the tenants, and the flow of curses from the other grows feebler and
expires.
"Same as us," says Marthereau with a certain pride, "they hold
themselves in!"
It is true. Thanks to Bertrand, who is possessed by a hatred of
drunkenness, of the fatal poison that gambles with multitudes, our
squad is one of the least befouled by wine and brandy.
They are shouting and singing and talking all around. And they
laugh endlessly, for in the human mechanism laughter is the sound of
wheels that work, of deeds that are done.
One tries to fathom certain faces that show up in provocative
relief among this menagerie of shadows, this aviary of reflections.
But one cannot. They are visible, but you can see nothing in the depth
of them.
* * * * * *
"Ten o'clock already, friends," says Bertrand. "We'll finish the
camel's humps off to-morrow. Time for by-by." Each one then slowly
retires to rest, but the jabbering hardly pauses. Man takes all
things easily when he is under no obligation to hurry. The men go to
and fro, each with some object in his hand, and along the wall I
watch Eudore's huge shadow gliding, as he passes in front of a candle
with two little bags of camphor hanging from the end of his fingers.
Lamuse is throwing himself about in search of a good position; he
seems ill at ease. To-day, obviously. and whatever his capacity may
be, he has eaten too much.
"Some of us want to sleep! Shut them up, you lot of louts!" cries
Mesnil Joseph from his litter.
This entreaty has a subduing effect for a moment, but does not stop
the burble of voices nor the passing to and fro.
"We're going up to-morrow, it's true," says Paradis, "and in the
evening we shall go into the first line. But nobody's thinking about
it. We know it, and that's all."
Gradually each has regained his place. I have stretched myself on
the straw, and Marthereau wraps himself up by my side.
Enter an enormous bulk, taking great pains not to make a noise. It
is the field-hospital sergeant, a Marist Brother, a huge bearded
simpleton in spectacles. When he has taken off his greatcoat and
appears in his jacket, you are conscious that he feels awkward about
showing his legs. We see that it hurries discreetly, this silhouette
of a bearded hippopotamus. He blows, sighs, and mutters.
Marthereau indicates him with a nod of his bead, and says to me,
"Look at him. Those chaps have always got to be talking fudge. When
we ask him what he does in civil life, he won't say 'I'm a school
teacher' he says, leering at you from under his specs with the half
of his eyes, 'I'm a professor.' When he gets up very early to go to
mass, he says, 'I've got belly-ache, I must go and take a turn round
the corner and no mistake.'"
A little farther off, Papa Ramure is talking of his homeland:
"Where I live, it's just a bit of a hamlet, no great shakes. There's
my old man there, seasoning pipes all day long; whether he's working
or resting, he blows his smoke up to the sky or into the smoke of the
stove."
I listen to this rural idyll, and it takes suddenly a specialized
and technical character: "That's why he makes a paillon. D'you know
what a paillon is? You take a stalk of green corn and peel it. You
split it in two and then in two again, and you have different sizes.
Then with a thread and the four slips of straw, he goes round the
stem of his pipe—"
The lesson ceases abruptly, there being no apparent audience.
There are only two candles alight. A wide wing of darkness
overspreads the prostrate collection of men.
Private conversation still flickers along the primitive dormitory,
and some fragments of it reach my ears. Just now, Papa Ramure is
abusing the commandant.
"The commandant, old man, with his four bits of gold string, I've
noticed he don't know how to smoke. He sucks all out at his pipes,
and he burns 'em. It isn't a mouth he's got in his head, it's a
snout. The wood splits and scorches, and instead of being wood, it's
coal. Clay pipes, they'll stick it better, but he roasts 'em brown
all the same. Talk about a snout! So, old man, mind what I'm telling
you, he'll come to what doesn't ever happen often; through being
forced to get white-hot and baked to the marrow, his pipe'll explode
in his nose before everybody. You'll see."
Little by little, peace, silence, and darkness take possession of
the barn and enshroud the hopes and the sighs of its occupants. The
lines of identical bundles formed by these beings rolled up side by
side in their blankets seem a sort of huge organ, which sends forth
diversified snoring.
With his nose already in his blanket, I hear Marthereau talking to
me about himself: "I'm a buyer of rags, you know," he says, "or to
put it better, a rag merchant. But me, I'm wholesale; I buy from the
little rag-and-bone men of the streets, and I have a shop—a
warehouse mind you!—which I use as a depot. I deal in all kinds of
rags, from linen to jam-pots, but principally brush-handles, sacks,
and old shoes; and naturally, I make a specialty of rabbit-skins."
And a little later I still hear him: "As for me, little and
queer-shaped as I am, all the same I can carry a bin of two hundred
pounds' weight to the warehouse. up the steps, and my feet in sabots.
Once I had a to-do with a person—"
"What I can't abide," cries Fouillade, all of a sudden, "is the
exercises and marches they give us when we're resting. My back's
mincemeat, and I can't get a snooze even, I'm that cramped."
There is a metallic noise in Volpatte's direction. He has decided
to take the stove, though he chides it constantly for the fatal fault
of its perforations.
One who is but half asleep groans, "Oh, la, la! When will this war
finish!"
A cry of stubborn and mysterious rebellion bursts forth—"They'd
take the very skin off us!"
There follows a single, "Don't fret yourself!" as darkly
inconsequent as the cry of revolt.
I wake up a long time afterwards, as two o'clock is striking; and
in a pallor of light which doubtless comes from the moon, I see the
agitated silhouette of Pinegal. A cock has crowed afar. Pinegal
raises himself halfway to a sitting position, and I hear his husky
voice: "Well now, it's the middle of the night, and there's a cock
loosing his jaw. He's blind drunk, that cock." He laughs, and repeats,
"He's blind, that cock," and he twists himself again into the woolens,
and resumes his slumber with a gurgle in which snores are mingled with
merriment.
Cocon has been wakened by Pinegal. The man of figures therefore
thinks aloud, and says: "The squad had seventeen men when it set off
for the war. It has seventeen also at present, with the stop-gaps.
Each man has already worn out four greatcoats, one of the original
blue, and three cigar-smoke blue, two pairs of trousers and six pairs
of boots. One must count two rifles to each man, but one can't count
the overalls. Our emergency rations have been renewed twenty-three
times. Among us seventeen, we've been mentioned fourteen times in Army
Orders, of which two were to the Brigade, four to the Division, and
one to the Army. Once we stayed sixteen days in the trenches without
relief. We've been quartered and lodged in forty-seven different
villages up to now. Since the beginning of the campaign, twelve
thousand men have passed through the regiment, which consists of two
thousand."
A strange lisping noise interrupts him. It comes from Blaire, whose
new ivories prevent him from talking as they also prevent him from
eating. But he puts them in every evening, and retains them all night
with fierce determination, for he was promised that in the end he
would grow accustomed to the object they have put into his head.
I raise myself on my elbow, as on a battlefield, and look once more
on the beings whom the scenes and happenings of the times have rolled
up all together. I look at them all, plunged in the abyss of passive
oblivion, some of them seeming still to be absorbed in their pitiful
anxieties, their childish instincts, and their slave-like ignorance.
The intoxication of sleep masters me. But I recall what they have
done and what they will do; and with that consummate picture of a
sorry human night before me, a shroud that fills our cavern with
darkness, I dream of some great unknown light.
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[note 1] There is a complete set for each squad—stoves, canvas
buckets, coffee-mill, pan, etc—and each man carries some item on
march.—Tr.
[note 2] Cantine vivres, chest containing two days' rations and
cooking utensils for four or five officers.—Tr.
WE were badly off, hungry and thirsty; and in these wretched
quarters there was nothing!
Something had gone wrong with the revictualing department and our
wants were becoming acute. Where the sorry place surrounded them,
with its empty doors, its bones of houses, and its bald-headed
telegraph posts. a crowd of hungry men were grinding their teeth and
confirming the absence of everything:—"The juice has sloped and the
wine's up the spout, and the bully's zero. Cheese? Nix. Napoo jam,
napoo butter on skewers."
"We've nothing, and no error, nothing; and play hell as you like,
it doesn't help."
"Talk about rotten quarters! Three houses with nothing inside but
draughts and damp."
"No good having any of the filthy here, you might as well have only
the skin of a bob in your purse, as long as there's nothing to buy."
"You might be a Rothschild, or even a military tailor, but what
use'd your brass be?"
"Yesterday there was a bit of a cat mewing round where the 7th are.
I feel sure they've eaten it."
"Yes, there was; you could see its ribs like rocks on the
sea-shore."
"There were some chaps," says Blaire, "who bustled about when they
got here and managed to find a few bottles of common wine at the
bacca-shop at the corner of the street."
"Ah, the swine! Lucky devils to be sliding that down their necks."
"It was muck, all the same, it'd make your cup as black as your
baccy-pipe."
"There are some, they say, who've swallowed a fowl."
"Damn," says Fouillade.
"I've hardly had a bite. I had a sardine left, and a little tea in
the bottom of a bag that I chewed up with some sugar."
"You can't even have a bit of a drunk—it's off the map."
"And that isn't enough either, even when you're not a big eater and
you're got a communication trench as flat as a pancake."
"One meal in two days—a yellow mess, shining like gold, no broth
and no meat—everything left behind."
"And worst of all we've nothing to light a pipe with."
"True, and that's misery. I haven't a single match. I had several
bits of ends, but they've gone. I've hunted in vain through all the
pockets of my flea-case—nix. As for buying them it's hopeless, as
you say."
"I've got the head of a match that I'm keeping." It is a real
hardship indeed, and the sight is pitiful of the poilus who cannot
light pipe or cigarette but put them away in their pockets and stroll
in resignation. By good fortune, Tirloir has his petrol pipe-lighter
and it still contains a little spirit. Those who are aware of it
gather round him, bringing their pipes packed and cold. There is not
even any paper to light, and the flame itself must be used until the
remaining spirit in its tiny insect's belly is burned.
As for me, I've been lucky, and I see Paradis wandering about, his
kindly face to the wind, grumbling and chewing a bit of wood.
"Tiens," I say to him, "take this."
"A box of matches!" he exclaims amazed, looking at it as one looks
at a jewel. "Egad! That's capital! Matches!"
A moment later we see him lighting his pipe, his face saucily
sideways and splendidly crimsoned by the reflected flame, and
everybody shouts, "Paradis' got some matches!"
Towards evening I meet Paradis near the ruined triangle of a
house-front at the corner of the two streets of this most miserable
among villages.
He beckons to me. "Hist!" He has a curious and rather awkward air.
"I say," he says to me affectionately, but looking at his feet, "a
bit since, you chucked me a box of flamers. Well, you're going to get
a bit of your own back for it. Here!"
He puts something in my hand. "Be careful!" he whispers, "it's
fragile!"
Dazzled by the resplendent purity of his present. hardly even
daring to believe my eyes, I see—an egg!
"REALLY and truly," said Paradis, my neighbor in the ranks,
"believe me or not, I'm knocked out—I've never before been so paid on
a march as I have been with this one, this evening."
His feet were dragging, and his square shoulders bowed under the
burden of the knapsack, whose height and big irregular outline seemed
almost fantastic. Twice he tripped and stumbled.
Paradis is tough. But he had been running up and down the trench
all night as liaison man while the others were sleeping, so he had
good reason to be exhausted and to growl "Quoi? These kilometers must
be made of india-rubber, there's no way out of it."
Every three steps he hoisted his knapsack roughly up with a hitch
of his hips, and panted under its dragging; and all the heap that he
made with his bundles tossed and creaked like an overloaded wagon.
"We're there," said a non-com.
Non-coms. always say that, on every occasion. But—in spite of the
non-com.'s declaration—we were really arriving in a twilight village
which seemed to be drawn in white chalk and heavy strokes of black
upon the blue paper of the sky, where the sable silhouette of the
church—a pointed tower flanked by two turrets more slender and more
sharp—was that of a tall cypress.
But the soldier, even when he enters the village where he is to be
quartered, has not reached the end of his troubles. It rarely happens
that either the squad or the section actually lodges in the place
assigned to them, and this by reason of misunderstandings and cross
purposes which tangle and disentangle themselves on the spot; and it
is only after several quarter-hours of tribulation that each man is
led to his actual shelter of the moment.
So after the usual wanderings we were admitted to our night's
lodging—a roof supported by four posts, and with the four quarters
of the compass for its walls. But it was a good roof—an advantage
which we could appreciate. It was already sheltering a cart and a
plow, and we settled ourselves by them. Paradis, who had fumed and
complained without ceasing during the hour we had spent in tramping
to and fro, threw down his knapsack and then himself, and stayed
there awhile, weary to the utmost, protesting that his limbs were
benumbed, that the soles of his feet were painful, and indeed all the
rest of him.
But now the house to which our hanging roof was subject, the house
which stood just in front of us, was lighted up. Nothing attracts a
soldier in the gray monotony of evening so much as a window whence
beams the star of a lamp.
"Shall we have a squint?" proposed Volpatte.
"So be it," said Paradis. He gets up gradually, and hobbling with
weariness, steers himself towards the golden window that has appeared
in the gloom, and then towards the door. Volpatte follows him, and I
Volpatte.
We enter, and ask the old man who has let us in and whose twinkling
head is as threadbare as an old hat, if he has any wine to sell.
"No," replies the old man, shaking his head, where a little white
fluff crops out in places.
"No beer? No coffee? Anything at all—"
"No, mes amis, nothing of anything. We don't belong here; we're
refugees, you know."
"Then seeing there's nothing, we'll be off." We right-about face.
At least we have enjoyed for a moment the warmth which pervades the
house and a sight of the lamp. Already Volpatte has gained the
threshold and his back is disappearing in the darkness.
But I espy an old woman, sunk in the depths of a chair in the other
corner of the kitchen, who appears to have some busy occupation.
I pinch Paradis' arm. "There's the belle of the house. Shall we pay
our addresses to her?"
Paradis makes a gesture of lordly indifference. He has lost
interest in women—all those he has seen for a year and a half were
not for him; and moreover, even when they would like to be his, he is
equally uninterested.
"Young or old—pooh!" he says to me, beginning to yawn. For want of
something to do and to lengthen the leaving, he goes up to the
goodwife. "Good-evening, gran'ma," he mumbles, finishing his yawn.
"Good-evening, mes enfants," quavers the old dame. So near, we see
her in detail. She is shriveled, bent and bowed in her old bones, and
the whole of her face is white as the dial of a clock.
And what is she doing? Wedged between her chair and the edge of the
table she is trying to clean some boots. It is a heavy task for her
infantile hands; their movements are uncertain, and her strokes with
the brush sometimes go astray. The boots, too, are very dirty indeed.
Seeing that we are watching her, she whispers to us that she must
polish them well, and this evening too, for they are her little
girl's boots, who is a dressmaker in the town and goes off first
thing in the morning.
Paradis has stooped to look at the boots more closely, and suddenly
he puts his hand out towards them. "Drop it, gran'ma; I'll spruce up
your lass's trotter-cases for you in three secs."
The old woman lodges an objection by shaking her head and her
shoulders. But Paradis takes the boots with authority, while the
grandmother, paralyzed by her weakness, argues the question and
opposes us with shadowy protest.
Paradis has taken a boot in each hand; he holds them gingerly and
looks at them for a moment, and you would even say that he was
squeezing them a little.
"Aren't they small!" he says in a voice which is not what we hear
in the usual way.
He has secured the brushes as well, and sets himself to wielding
them with zealous carefulness. I notice that he is smiling, with his
eyes fixed on his work.
Then, when the mud has gone from the boots, he takes some polish on
the end of the double-pointed brush and caresses them with it
intently.
They are dainty boots—quite those of a stylish young lady; rows of
little buttons shine on them.
"Not a single button missing," he whispers to me, and there is
pride in his tone.
He is no longer sleepy; he yawns no more. On the contrary, his lips
are tightly closed; a gleam of youth and spring-time lights up his
face; and he who was on the point of going to sleep seems just to
have woke up.
And where the polish has bestowed a beautiful black his fingers
move over the body of the boot, which opens widely in the upper part
and betrays—ever such a little—the lower curves of the leg. His
fingers, so skilled in polishing, are rather awkward all the same as
they turn the boots over and turn them again, as he smiles at them
and ponders—profoundly and afar—while the old woman lifts her arms
in the air and calls me to witness "What a very kind soldier!" he is.
It is finished. The boots are cleaned and finished off in style;
they are like mirrors. Nothing is left to do.
He puts them on the edge of the table, very carefully, as if they
were saintly relics; then at last his hands let them go. But his eyes
do not at once leave them. He looks at them, and then lowering his
head, he looks at his own boots. I remember that while he made this
comparison the great lad—a hero by destiny, a Bohemian, a
monk—smiled once more with all his heart.
The old woman was showing signs of activity in the depths of her
chair; she had an idea. "I'll tell her! She shall thank you herself,
monsieur! Hey, Josephine!" she cried, turning towards a door.
But Paradis stopped her with an expansive gesture which I thought
magnificent. "No, it's not worth while, gran'ma; leave her where she
is. We're going. We won't trouble her, allez!"
Such decision sounded in his voice that it carried authority, and
the old woman obediently sank into inactivity and held her peace.
We went away to our bed under the wall-less roof, between the arms
of the plow that was waiting for us. And then Paradis began again to
yawn; but by the light of the candle in our crib, a full minute
later, I saw that the happy smile remained yet on his face.
IN the excitement of a distribution of letters from which the squad
were returning—some with the delight of a letter, some with the
semi-delight of a postcard, and others with a new load (speedily
reassumed) of expectation and hope—a comrade comes with a brandished
newspaper to tell us an amazing story—"Tu sais, the weasel-faced
ancient at Gauchin?"
"The old boy who was treasure-seeking?"
"Well, he's found it!"
"Gerraway!"
"It's just as I tell you, you great lump! What would you like me to
say to you? Mass? Don't know it. Anyway, the yard of his place has
been bombed, and a chest full of money was turned up out of the
ground near a wall. He got his treasure full on the back. And now the
parson's quietly cut in and talks about claiming credit for the
miracle"
We listen open-mouthed. "A treasure—well! well! The old
bald-head!"
The sudden revelation plunges us in an abyss of reflection. "And to
think how damned sick we were of the old cackler when he made such a
song about his treasure and dinned it into our ears!"
"We were right enough down there, you remember, when we were saying
'One never knows.' Didn't guess how near we were to being right,
either."
"All the same, there are some things you can be sure of," says
Farfadet, who as soon as Gauchin was mentioned had remained dreaming
and distant, as though a lovely face was smiling on him. "But as for
this," he added, "I'd never have believed it either! Shan't I find
him stuck up, the old ruin, when I go back there after the war!"
* * * * * *
"They want a willing man to help the sappers with a job," says the
big adjutant.
"Not likely!" growl the men, without moving.
"It'll be of use in relieving the boys," the adjutant goes on.
With that the grumbling ceases, and several heads are raised.
"Here!" says Lamuse.
"Get into your harness, big 'un, and come with me." Lamuse buckles
on his knapsack, rolls up his blanket, and fetters his pouches. Since
his seizure of unlucky affection was allayed, he has become more
melancholy than before, and although a sort of fatality makes him
continually stouter, he has become engrossed and isolated, and rarely
speaks.
In the evening something comes along the trench, rising and falling
according to the lumps and holes in the ground; a shape that seems in
the shadows to be swimming, that outspreads its arms sometimes, as
though appealing for help. It is Lamuse.
He is among us again, covered with mold and mud. He trembles and
streams with sweat, as one who is afraid. His lips stir, and he
gasps, before they can shape a word.
"Well, what is there?" we ask him vainly.
He collapses in a corner among us and prostrates himself. We offer
him wine, and he refuses it with a sign. Then he turns towards me and
beckons me with a movement of his head.
When I am by him he whispers to me, very low, and as if in church,
"I have seen Eudoxie again." He gasps for breath, his chest wheezes,
and with his eyeballs fast fixed upon a nightmare, he says, "She was
putrid."
"It was the place we'd lost," Lamuse went on, "and that the
Colonials took again with the bayonet ten days ago.
"First we made a hole for the sap, and I was in at it. since I was
scooping more than the others I found myself in front. The others
were widening and making solid behind. But behold I find a jumble of
beams. I'd lit on an old trench, caved in, 'vidently; half caved
in—there was some space and room. In the middle of those stumps of
wood all mixed together that I was lifting away one by one from in
front of me, there was something like a big sandbag in height.
upright, and something on the top of it hanging down.
"And behold a plank gives way, and the queer sack falls on me, with
its weight on top. I was pegged down, and the smell of a corpse
filled my throat—on the top of the bundle there was a head, and it
was the hair that I'd seen hanging down.
"You understand, one couldn't see very well; but I recognized the
hair 'cause there isn't any other like it in the world, and then the
rest of the face, all stove in and moldy, the neck pulped, and all
the lot dead for a month perhaps. It was Eudoxie, I tell you.
"Yes, it was the woman I could never go near before, you know—that
I only saw a long way off and couldn't ever touch, same as diamonds.
She used to run about everywhere, you know. She used even to wander
in the lines. One day she must have stopped a bullet, and stayed
there, dead and lost, until the chance of this sap.
"You clinch the position? I was forced to hold her up with one arm
as well as I could, and work with the other. She was trying to fall
on me with all her weight. Old man, she wanted to kiss me, and I
didn't want—it was terrible. She seemed to be saying to me, 'You
wanted to kiss me, well then, come, come now!' She had on her—she
had there, fastened on, the remains of a bunch of flowers, and that
was rotten, too, and the posy stank in my nose like the corpse of
some little beast. "I had to take her in my arms, in both of them,
and turn gently round so that I could put her down on the other side.
The place was so narrow and pinched that as we turned, for a moment, I
hugged her to my breast and couldn't help it. with all my strength,
old chap, as I should have hugged her once on a time if she'd have let
me.
"I've been half an hour cleaning myself from the touch of her and
the smell that she breathed on me in spite of me and in spite of
herself. Ah, lucky for me that I'm as done up as a wretched
cart-horse!"
He turns over on his belly, clenches his fists, and slumbers, with
his face buried in the ground and his dubious dream of passion and
corruption.
IT is five o'clock in the evening. Three men are seen moving in the
bottom of the gloomy trench. Around their extinguished fire in the
dirty excavation they are frightful to see, black and sinister. Rain
and negligence have put their fire out, and the four cooks are
looking at the corpses of brands that are shrouded in ashes and the
stumps of wood whence the flame has flown.
Volpatte staggers up to the group and throws down the black mass
that he had on his shoulder. "I've pulled it out of a dug-out where
it won't show much."
"We have wood," says Blaire, "but we've got to light it. Otherwise,
how are we going to cook this cab-horse?"
"It's a fine piece," wails a dark-faced man, "thin flank. In my
belief, that's the best bit of the beast, the flank."
"Fire?" Volpatte objects, "there are no more matches, no more
anything."
"We must have fire," growls Poupardin, whose indistinct bulk has
the proportions of a bear as he rolls and sways in the dark depths of
our cage.
"No two ways about it, we've got to have it," Pepin agrees. He is
coming out of a dug-out like a sweep out of a chimney. His gray mass
emerges and appears, like night upon evening.
"Don't worry; I shall get some," declares Blaire in a concentrated
tone of angry decision. He has not been cook long, and is keen to
show himself quite equal to adverse conditions in the exercise of his
functions.
He spoke as Martin Cesar used to speak when he was alive. His aim
is to resemble the great legendary figure of the cook who always found
ways for a fire, just as others, among the non-coms., would fain
imitate Napoleon.
"I shall go if it's necessary and fetch every bit of wood there is
at Battalion H.Q. I shall go and requisition the colonel's matches—I
shall go—"
"Let's go and forage." Poupardin leads the way. His face is like
the bottom of a saucepan that the fire has gradually befouled. As it
is cruelly cold, he is wrapped up all over. He wears a cape which is
half goatskin and half sheepskin, half brown and half whitish, and
this twofold skin of tints geometrically cut makes him like some
strange occult animal.
Pepin has a cotton cap so soiled and so shiny with grease that it
might be made of black silk. Volpatte, inside his Balaklava and his
fleeces, resembles a walking tree-trunk. A square opening betrays a
yellow face at the top of the thick and heavy bark of the mass he
makes, which is bifurcated by a couple of legs.
"Let's look up the 10th. They've always got the needful. They're on
the Pylones road, beyond the Boyau-Neuf."
The four alarming objects get under way, cloud-shape, in the trench
that unwinds itself sinuously before them like a blind alley, unsafe,
unlighted, and unpaved. It is uninhabited, too, in this part, being a
gangway between the second lines and the first lines.
In the dusty twilight two Moroccans meet the fire-questing cooks.
One has the skin of a black boot and the other of a yellow shoe. Hope
gleams in the depths of the cooks' hearts.
"Matches, boys?"
"Napoo," replies the black one, and his smile reveals his long
crockery-like teeth in his cigar-colored mouth of moroccan leather.
In his turn the yellow one advances and asks, "Tobacco? A bit of
tobacco?" And be holds out his greenish sleeve and his great hard
paw, in which the cracks are full of brown dirt, and the nails
purplish.
Pepin growls, rummages in his clothes, and pulls out a pinch of
tobacco, mixed with dust, which he hands to the sharpshooter.
A little farther they meet a sentry who is half asleep—in the
middle of the evening—on a heap of loose earth. The drowsy soldier
says, "It's to the right, and then again to the right, and then
straight forward. Don't go wrong about it."
They march—for a long time. "We must have come a long way," says
Volpatte, after half an hour of fruitless paces and encloistered
loneliness.
"I say, we're going downhill a hell of a lot, don't you think?"
asks Blaire.
"Don't worry, old duffer," scoffs Pepin, "but if you've got cold
feet you can leave us to it."
Still we tramp on in the falling night. The ever-empty trench—a
desert of terrible length—has taken a shabby and singular
appearance. The parapets are in ruins; earthslides have made the
ground undulate in hillocks.
An indefinite uneasiness lays hold of the four huge fire-hunters,
and increases as night overwhelms them in this monstrous road.
Pepin, who is leading just now, stands fast and holds up his hand
as a signal to halt. "Footsteps," they say in a sobered tone.
Then, and in the heart of them, they are afraid. It was a mistake
for them all to leave their shelter for so long. They are to blame.
And one never knows.
"Get in there, quick, quick!" says Pepin, pointing to a
right-angled cranny on the ground level.
By the test of a hand, the rectangular shadow is proved to be the
entry to a funk-hole. They crawl in singly; and the last one,
impatient, pushes the others; they become an involuntary carpet in
the dense darkness of the hole.
A sound of steps and of voices becomes distinct and draws nearer.
From the mass of the four men who tightly hung up the burrow,
tentative hands are put out at a venture. All at once Pepin murmurs
in a stifled voice, "What's this?"
"What?" ask the others, pressed and wedged against him.
"Clips!" says Pepin under his breath, "Boche cartridge-clips on
the shelf! We're in the Boche trench!"
"Let's hop it." Three men make a jump to get out.
"Look out, bon Dieu! Don't stir!—footsteps—"
They hear some one walking, with the quick step of a solitary man.
They keep still and bold their breath. With their eyes fixed on the
ground level, they see the darkness moving on the right, and then a
shadow with legs detaches itself, approaches, and passes. The shadow
assumes an outline. It is topped by a helmet covered with a cloth and
rising to a point. There is no other sound than that of his passing
feet.
Hardly has the German gone by when the four cooks, with no
concerted plan and with a single movement, burst forth, jostling each
other, run like madmen, and hurl themselves on him.
"Kamerad, messieurs!" he says.
But the blade of a knife gleams and disappears. The man collapses
as if he would plunge into the ground. Pepin seizes the helmet as the
Boche is failing and keeps it in his hand.
"Let's leg it," growls the voice of Poupardin.
"Got to search him first!"
They lift him and turn him over, and set the soft, damp and warm
body up again. Suddenly he coughs.
"He isn't dead!"—"Yes, he is dead; that's the air."
They shake him by the pockets; with hasty breathing the four black
men stoop over their task. "The helmet's mine," says Pepin. "It was
me that knifed him, I want the helmet."
They tear from the body its pocket-book of still warm papers, its
field-glass, purse, and leggings.
"Matches!" shouts Blaire, shaking a box, "he's got some!"
"Ah, the fool that you are!" hisses Volpatte.
"Now let's be off like hell." They pile the body in a corner and
break into a run, prey to a sort of panic, and regardless of the row
their disordered flight makes.
"It's this way!—This way!—Hurry, lads—for all you're worth!"
Without speaking they dash across the maze of the strangely empty
trench that seems to have no end.
"My wind's gone," says Blaire, "I'm—" He staggers and stops.
"Come on, buck up, old chap," gasps Pepin, hoarse and breathless.
He takes him by the sleeve and drags him forward like a stubborn
shaft-horse.
'We're right!" says Poupardin suddenly. "Yes, I remember that tree.
It's the Pylones road!"
"Ah!" wails Blaire, whose breathing is shaking him like an engine.
He throws himself forward with a last impulse—and sits down on the
ground.
"Halt!" cries a sentry—"Good Lord!" he stammers as he sees the
four poilus. "Where the—where are you coming from, that way?"
They laugh, jump about like puppets, full-blooded and streaming
with perspiration, blacker than ever in the night. The German
officer's helmet is gleaming in the hands of Pepin. "Oh, Christ!"
murmurs the sentry, with gaping mouth, "but what's been up?"
An exuberant reaction excites and bewitches them. All talk at once.
In haste and confusion they act again the drama which hardly yet they
realize is over. They had gone wrong when they left the sleepy sentry
and had taken the International Trench, of which a part is ours and
another part German. Between the French and German sections there is
no barricade or division. There is merely a sort of neutral zone, at
the two ends of which sentries watch ceaselessly. No doubt the German
watcher was not at his post, or likely he hid himself when he saw the
four shadows, or perhaps be doubled back and had not time to bring up
reinforcements. Or perhaps, too, the German officer had strayed too
far ahead in the neutral zone. In short, one understands what happened
without understanding it.
"The funny part of it," says Pepin, "is that we knew all about
that, and never thought to be careful about it when we set off."
"We were looking for matches," says Volpatte.
"And we've got some!" cries Pepin. "You've not lost the flamers,
old broomstick?"
"No damned fear!" says Blaire; "Boche matches are better stuff than
ours. Besides, they're all we've got to light our fire! Lose my box?
Let any one try to pinch it off me!"
"We're behind time—the soup-water'll be freezing. Hurry up, so
far. Afterwards there'll be a good yarn to tell in the sewer where the
boys are, about what we did to the Boches."
WE are in the flat country, a vast mistiness, but above it is dark
blue. The end of the night is marked by a little falling snow which
powders our shoulders and the folds in our sleeves. We are marching
in fours, hooded. We seem in the turbid twilight to be the wandering
survivors of one Northern district who are trekking to another.
We have followed a road and have crossed the ruins of
Ablain-Saint-Nazaire. We have had confused glimpses of its whitish
heaps of houses and the dim spider-webs of its suspended roofs. The
village is so long that although full night buried us in it we saw
its last buildings beginning to pale in the frost of dawn. Through
the grating of a cellar on the edge of this petrified ocean's waves,
we made out the fire kept going by the custodians of the dead town.
We have paddled in swampy fields, lost ourselves in silent places
where the mud seized us by the feet, we have dubiously regained our
balance and our bearings again on another road, the one which leads
from Carency to Souchez. The tall bordering poplars are shivered and
their trunks mangled; in one place the road is an enormous colonnade
of trees destroyed. Then, marching with us on both sides, we see
through the shadows ghostly dwarfs of trees, wide-cloven like
spreading palms; botched and jumbled into round blocks or long
strips; doubled upon themselves, as if they knelt. From time to time
our march is disordered and bustled by the yielding of a swamp. The
road becomes a marsh which we cross on our heels, while our feet make
the sound of sculling. Planks have been laid in it here and there.
Where they have so far sunk in the mud as to proffer their edges to us
we slip on them. Sometimes there is enough water to float them, and
then under the weight of a man they splash and go under, and the man
stumbles or falls, with frenzied imprecations.
It must be five o'clock. The stark and affrighting scene unfolds
itself to our eyes, but it is still encircled by a great fantastic
ring of mist and of darkness. We go on and on without pause, and come
to a place where we can make out a dark hillock, at the foot of which
there seems to be some lively movement of human beings.
"Advance by twos," says the leader of the detachment. "Let each
team of two take alternately a plank and a hurdle." We load ourselves
up. One of the two in each couple assumes the rifle of his partner as
well as his own. The other with difficulty shifts and pulls out from
the pile a long plank, muddy and slippery, which weighs full eighty
pounds, or a hurdle of leafy branches as big as a door, which he can
only just keep on his back as he bends forward with his hands aloft
and grips its edges.
We resume our march, very slowly and very ponderously, scattered
over the now graying road, with complaints and heavy curses which the
effort strangles in our throats. After about a hundred yards, the two
men of each team exchange loads, so that after two hundred yards, in
spite of the bitter blenching breeze of early morning, all but the
non-coms. are running with sweat.
Suddenly a vivid star expands down yonder in the uncertain
direction that we are taking—a rocket. Widely it lights a part of the
sky with its milky nimbus, blots out the stars, and then falls
gracefully, fairy-like.
There is a swift light opposite us over there; a flash and a
detonation. It is a shell! By the flat reflection that the explosion
instantaneously spreads over the lower sky we see a ridge clearly
outlined in front of us from east to west, perhaps half a mile away.
That ridge is ours—so much of it as we can see from here and up to
the top of it, where our troops are. On the other slope, a hundred
yards from our first line, is the first German line. The shell fell
on the summit, in our lines; it is the others who are firing. Another
shell another and yet another plant trees of faintly violet light on
the top of the rise, and each of them dully illumines the whole of the
horizon.
Soon there is a sparkling of brilliant stars and a sudden jungle of
fiery plumes on the hill; and a fairy mirage of blue and white hangs
lightly before our eyes in the full gulf of night.
Those among us who must devote the whole buttressed power of their
arms and legs to prevent their greasy loads from sliding off their
backs and to prevent themselves from sliding to the ground, these
neither see nor hear anything. The others, sniffing and shivering
with cold, wiping their noses with limp and sodden handkerchiefs,
watch and remark, cursing the obstacles in the way with fragments of
profanity. "It's like watching fireworks," they say.
And to complete the illusion of a great operatic scene, fairy-like
but sinister, before which our bent and black party crawls and
splashes, behold a red star, and then a green; then a sheaf of red
fire, very much tardier. In our ranks, as the available half of our
pairs of eyes watch the display, we cannot help murmuring in idle
tones of popular admiration, "Ah, a red one!"—"Look, a green one!"
It is the Germans who are sending up signals, and our men as well who
are asking for artillery support.
Our road turns and climbs again as the day at last decides to
appear. Everything looks dirty. A layer of stickiness, pearl-gray and
white, covers the road, and around it the real world makes a mournful
appearance. Behind us we leave ruined Souchez, whose houses are only
flat heaps of rubbish and her trees but humps of bramble-like slivers.
We plunge into a hole on our left, the entrance to the communication
trench. We let our loads fall in a circular enclosure prepared for
them, and both hot and frozen we settled in the trench and wait our
hands abraded, wet, and stiff with cramp.
Buried in our holes up to the chin, our chests heaving against the
solid bulk of the ground that protects us, we watch the dazzling and
deepening drama develop. The bombardment is redoubled. The trees of
light on the ridge have melted into hazy parachutes in the pallor of
dawn, sickly heads of Medusae with points of fire; then, more sharply
defined as the day expands, they become bunches of smoke-feathers,
ostrich feathers white and gray, which come suddenly to life on the
jumbled and melancholy soil of Hill 119, five or six hundred yards in
front of us, and then slowly fade away. They are truly the pillar of
fire and the pillar of cloud, circling as one and thundering together.
On the flank of the bill we see a party of men running to earth. One
by one they disappear, swallowed up in the adjoining anthills.
Now, one can better make out the form of our "guests." At each shot
a tuft of sulphurous white underlined in black forms sixty yards up
in the air, unfolds and mottles itself, and we catch in the explosion
the whistling of the charge of bullets that the yellow cloud hurls
angrily to the ground. It bursts in sixfold squalls, one after
another—bang, bang, bang, bang, bang, bang. It is the 77 mm. gun.
We disdain the 77 mm. shrapnel, in spite of the fact that Blesbois
was killed by one of them three days ago. They nearly always burst
too high. Barque explains it to us, although we know it well: "One's
chamber-pot protects one's nut well enough against the bullets. So
they can destroy your shoulder and damn well knock you down, but they
don't spread you about. Naturally, you've got to be fly, all the same.
Got to be careful you don't lift your neb in the air as long as
they're buzzing about, nor put your hand out to see if it's raining.
Now, our 75 mm.—"
"There aren't only the 77's," Mesnil Andre broke in, "there's all
damned sorts. Spell those out for me—" Those are shrill and cutting
whistles, trembling or rattling; and clouds of all shapes gather on
the slopes yonder whose vastness shows through them, slopes where our
men are in the depths of the dug-outs. Gigantic plumes of faint fire
mingle with huge tassels of steam, tufts that throw out straight
filaments, smoky feathers that expand as they fall—quite white or
greenish-gray, black or copper with gleams of gold, or as if blotched
with ink.
The two last explosions are quite near. Above the battered ground
they take shape like vast balls of black and tawny dust; and as they
deploy and leisurely depart at the wind's will, having finished their
task, they have the outline of fabled dragons.
Our line of faces on the level of the ground turns that way, and we
follow them with our eyes from the bottom of the trench in the middle
of this country peopled by blazing and ferocious apparitions, these
fields that the sky has crushed.
"Those, they're the 150 mm. howitzers."—"They're the 210's,
calf-head."—"There go the regular guns, too; the hogs! Look at that
one!" It was a shell that burst on the ground and threw up earth and
debris in a fan-shaped cloud of darkness. Across the cloven land it
looked like the frightful spitting of some volcano, piled up in the
bowels of the earth.
A diabolical uproar surrounds us. We are conscious of a sustained
crescendo, an incessant multiplication of the universal frenzy. A
hurricane of hoarse and hollow banging, of raging clamor, of piercing
and beast-like screams, fastens furiously with tatters of smoke upon
the earth where we are buried up to our necks, and the wind of the
shells seems to set it heaving and pitching.
"Look at that," bawls Barque, "and me that said they were short of
munitions!"
"Oh, la, la! We know all about that! That and the other fudge the
newspapers squirt all over us!"
A dull crackle makes itself audible amidst the babel of noise. That
slow rattle is of all the sounds of war the one that most quickens
the heart.
"The coffee-mill! [note 1] One of ours, listen. The shots come
regularly, while the Boches' haven't got the same length of time
between the shots; they go
crack—crack-crack-crack—crack-crack—crack—"
"Don't cod yourself, crack-pate; it isn't an unsewing-machine at
all; it's a motor-cycle on the road to 31 dugout, away yonder."
"Well, I think it's a chap up aloft there, having a look round from
his broomstick," chuckles Pepin, as he raises his nose and sweeps the
firmament in search of an aeroplane.
A discussion arises, but one cannot say what the noise is, and
that's all. One tries in vain to become familiar with all those
diverse disturbances. It even happened the other day in the wood that
a whole section mistook for the hoarse howl of a shell the first notes
of a neighboring mule as he began his whinnying bray.
"I say, there's a good show of sausages in the air this morning,"
says Lamuse. Lifting our eyes, we count them.
"There are eight sausages on our side and eight on the Boches',"
says Cocon, who has already counted them.
There are, in fact, at regular intervals along the horizon,
opposite the distance-dwindled group of captive enemy balloons, the
eight long hovering eyes of the army, buoyant and sensitive, and
joined to the various headquarters by living threads.
"They see us as we see them. how the devil can one escape from that
row of God Almighties up there?"
There's our reply!
Suddenly, behind our backs, there bursts the sharp and deafening
stridor of the 75's. Their increasing crackling thunder arouses and
elates us. We shout with our guns, and look at each other without
hearing our shouts—except for the curiously piercing voice that
comes from Barque's great mouth—amid the rolling of that fantastic
drum whose every note is the report of a cannon.
Then we turn our eyes ahead and outstretch our necks, and on the
top of the hill we see the still higher silhouette of a row of black
infernal trees whose terrible roots are striking down into the
invisible slope where the enemy cowers.
While the "75" battery continues its barking a hundred yards behind
us—the sharp anvil-blows of a huge hammer, followed by a dizzy
scream of force and fury—a gigantic gurgling dominates the devilish
oratorio; that, also, is coming from our side. "It's a gran'pa, that
one!"
The shell cleaves the air at perhaps a thousand yards above us; the
voice of its gun covers all as with a pavilion of resonance. The
sound of its travel is sluggish, and one divines a projectile
bigger-boweled, more enormous than the others. We can hear it passing
and declining in front with the ponderous and increasing vibration of
a train that enters a station under brakes; then, its heavy whine
sounds fainter. We watch the hill opposite. and after several seconds
it is covered by a salmon-pink cloud that the wind spreads over
one-half of the horizon. "It's a 220 mm."
"One can see them," declares Volpatte, "those shells, when they
come out of the gun. If you're in the right line, you can even see
them a good long away from the gun."
Another follows: "There! Look, look! Did you see that one? You
didn't look quick enough, you missed it. Get a move on! Look,
another! Did you see it?"
"I did not see it."—"Ass! Got to be a bedstead for you to see it!
Look, quick, that one, there! Did you see it, unlucky
good-for-nothing?"—" I saw it; is that all?"
Some have made out a small black object, slender and pointed as a
blackbird with folded wings, pricking a wide curve down from the
zenith.
"That weighs 240 lb., that one, my old bug," says Volpatte proudly,
"and when that drops on a funk-hole it kills everybody inside it.
Those that aren't picked off by the explosion are struck dead by the
wind of it, or they're gas-poisoned before they can say 'ouf!'"
"The 270 mm. shell can be seen very well, too—talk about a bit of
iron—when the howitzer sends it up—allez, off you go!"
"And the 155 Rimailho, too; but you can't see that one because it
goes too straight and too far; the more you look for it the more it
vanishes before your eyes."
In a stench of sulphur amid black powder, of burned stuffs and
calcined earth which roams in sheets about the country, all the
menagerie is let loose and gives battle. Bellowings, roarings,
growlings, strange and savage; feline caterwaulings that fiercely
rend your ears and search your belly, or the long-drawn piercing hoot
like the siren of a ship in distress. At times, even, something like
shouts cross each other in the air-currents, with curious variation of
tone that make the sound human. The country is bodily lifted in places
and falls back again. From one end of the horizon to the other it
seems to us that the earth itself is raging with storm and tempest.
And the greatest guns, far away and still farther, diffuse growls
much subdued and smothered, but you know the strength of them by the
displacement of air which comes and raps you on the ear.
Now, behold a heavy mass of woolly green which expands and hovers
over the bombarded region and draws out in every direction. This
touch of strangely incongruous color in the picture summons
attention, and all we encaged prisoners turn our faces towards the
hideous outcrop.
"Gas, probably. Let's have our masks ready."—"The hogs!"
"They're unfair tricks, those," says Farfadet.
"They're what?" asks Barque jeeringly.
"Why, yes, they're dirty dodges, those gases—"
"You make me tired," retorts Barque, "with your fair ways and your
unfair ways. When you've seen men squashed, cut in two, or divided
from top to bottom, blown into showers by an ordinary shell, bellies
turned inside out and scattered anyhow, skulls forced bodily into the
chest as if by a blow with a club, and in place of the head a bit of
neck, oozing currant jam of brains all over the chest and back—you've
seen that and yet you can say 'There are clean ways!'"
"Doesn't alter the fact that the shell is allowed, it's
recognized—"
"Ah, la, la! I'll tell you what—you make me blubber just as much
as you make me laugh!" And he turns his back.
"Hey, look out, boys!"
We strain our eyes, and one of us has thrown himself flat on the
ground; others look instinctively and frowning towards the shelter
that we have not time to reach. and during these two seconds each one
bends his head. It is a grating noise as of huge scissors which comes
near and nearer to us, and ends at last with a ringing crash of
unloaded iron.
That ore fell not far from us—two hundred yards away, perhaps. We
crouch in the bottom of the trench and remain doubled up while the
place where we are is lashed by a shower of little fragments.
"Don't want this in my tummy, even from that distance," says
Paradis, extracting from the earth of the trench wall a morsel that
has just lodged there. It is like a bit of coke, bristling with edged
and pointed facets, and he dances it in his hand so as not to burn
himself.
There is a hissing noise. Paradis sharply bows his head and we
follow suit. "The fuse!—it has gone over." The shrapnel fuse goes up
and then comes down vertically; but that of the percussion shell
detaches itself from the broken mass after the explosion and usually
abides buried at the point of contact, but at other times it flies
off at random like a big red-hot pebble. One must beware of it. It
may hurl itself on you a very long time after the detonation and by
incredible paths, passing over the embankment and plunging into the
cavities.
"Nothing so piggish as a fuse. It happened to me once—"
"There's worse things," broke in Bags of the 11th, "The Austrian
shells, the 130's and the 74's. I'm afraid of them. They're
nickel-plated, they say, but what I do know, seeing I've been there,
is they come so quick you can't do anything to dodge them. You no
sooner hear em snoring than they burst on you.
"The German 105's, neither, you haven't hardly the time to flatten
yourself. I once got the gunners to tell me all about them."
"I tell you, the shells from the naval guns, you haven't the time
to hear 'em. Got to pack yourself up before they come."
"And there's that new shell, a dirty devil, that breaks wind after
it's dodged into the earth and out of it again two or three times in
the space of six yards. When I know there's one of them about, I want
to go round the corner. I remember one time—"
"That's all nothing, my lads," said the new sergeant, stopping on
his way past, "you ought to see what they chucked us at Verdun, where
I've come from. Nothing but whoppers, 380's and 420's and 244's. When
you've been shelled down there you know all about it—the woods are
sliced down like cornfields, the dug-outs marked and burst in even
when they've three thicknesses of beams, all the road-crossings
sprinkled, the roads blown into the air and changed into long heaps of
smashed convoys and wrecked guns, corpses twisted together as though
shoveled up. You could see thirty chaps laid out by one shot at the
cross-roads; you could see fellows whirling around as they went up,
always about fifteen yards, and bits of trousers caught and stuck on
the tops of the trees that were left. You could see one of these 380's
go into a house at Verdun by the roof, bore through two or three
floors, and burst at the bottom, and all the damn lot's got to go
aloft; and in the fields whole battalions would scatter and lie flat
under the shower like poor little defenseless rabbits. At every step
on the ground in the fields you'd got lumps as thick as your arm and
as wide as that, and it'd take four poilus to lift the lump of iron.
The fields looked as if they were full of rocks. And that went on
without a halt for months on end, months on end!" the sergeant
repeated as he passed on, no doubt to tell again the story of his
souvenirs somewhere else.
"Look, look, corporal, those chaps over there—are they soft in the
head?" On the bombarded position we saw dots of human beings emerge
hurriedly and run towards the explosions.
"They're gunners," said Bertrand; "as soon as a shell's burst they
sprint and rummage for the fuse is the hole, for the position of the
fuse gives the direction of its battery, you see, by the way it's dug
itself in; and as for the distance, you've only got to read it—it's
shown on the range-figures cut on the time-fuse which is set just
before firing."
"No matter—they're off their onions to go out under such
shelling."
"Gunners, my boy," says a man of another company who was strolling
in the trench, "are either quite good or quite bad. Either they're
trumps or they're trash. I tell you—"
"That's true of all privates, what you're saying."
"Possibly; but I'm not talking to you about all privates; I'm
talking to you about gunners, and I tell you too that—"
"Hey, my lads! Better find a hole to dump yourselves in, before you
get one on the snitch!"
The strolling stranger carried his story away, and Cocon, who was
in a perverse mood, declared: "We can be doing our hair in the
dug-out, seeing it's rather boring outside."
"Look, they're sending torpedoes over there!" said Paradis,
pointing. Torpedoes go straight up, or very nearly so, like larks,
fluttering and rustling; then they stop, hesitate, and come straight
down again, heralding their fall in its last seconds by a "baby-cry"
that we know well. From here, the inhabitants of the ridge seem like
invisible players, lined up for a game with a ball.
"In the Argonne," says Lamuse, "my brother says in a letter that
they get turtle-doves, as he calls them. They're big heavy things,
fired off very close. They come in cooing, really they do, he says,
and when they break wind they don't half make a shindy, he says."
"There's nothing worse than the mortar-toad, that seems to chase
after you and jump over the top of you, and it bursts in the very
trench, just scraping over the bank."
"Tiens, tiens, did you hear it?" A whistling was approaching us
when suddenly it ceased. The contrivance has not burst. "It's a shell
that cried off," Paradis asserts. And we strain our ears for the
satisfaction of hearing—or of not hearing—others.
Lamuse says: "All the fields and the roads and the villages about
here, they're covered with dud shells of all sizes—ours as well, to
say truth. The ground must be full of 'em, that you can't see. I
wonder how they'll go on, later, when the time comes to say, 'That's
enough of it, let's start work again.'"
And all the time, in a monotony of madness, the avalanche of fire
and iron goes on; shrapnel with its whistling explosion and its
overcharged heart of furious metal and the great percussion shells,
whose thunder is that of the railway engine which crashes suddenly
into a wall, the thunder of loaded rails or steel beams, toppling
down a declivity. The air is now glutted and viewless, it is crossed
and recrossed by heavy blasts, and the murder of the earth continues
all around, deeply and more deeply, to the limit of completion.
There are even other guns which now join in—they are ours. Their
report is like that of the 75's, but louder, and it has a prolonged
and resounding echo, like thunder reverberating among mountains.
"They're the long 120's. They're on the edge of the wood half a
mile away. Fine guns, old man, like gray-hounds. They're slender and
fine-nosed, those guns—you want to call them 'Madame.' They're not
like the 220's—they're all snout, like coal-scuttles, and spit their
shells out from the bottom upwards. The 120's get there just the same,
but among the teams of artillery they look like kids in bassinettes."
Conversation languishes; here and there are yawns. The dimensions
and weight of this outbreak of the guns fatigue the mind. Our voices
flounder in it and are drowned.
"I've never seen anything like this for a bombardment," shouts
Barque.
"We always say that," replies Paradis.
"Just so," bawls Volpatte. "There's been talk of an attack lately;
I should say this is the beginning of something."
The others say simply, "Ah!"
Volpatte displays an intention of snatching a wink of sleep. He
settles himself on the ground with his back against one wall of the
trench and his feet buttressed against the other wall.
We converse together on divers subjects. Biquet tells the story of
a rat he has seen: "He was cheeky and comical, you know. I'd taken off
my trotter-cases, and that rat, he chewed all the edge of the uppers
into embroidery. Of course, I'd greased 'em."
Volpatte, who is now definitely out of action, moves and says, "I
can't get to sleep for your gabbling."
"You can't make me believe, old fraud," says Marthereau, "that you
can raise a single snore with a shindy like this all round you."
Volpatte replies with one.
* * * * * *
Fall in! March!
We are changing our spot. Where are they taking us to? We have no
idea. The most we know is that we are in reserve, and that they may
take us round to strengthen certain points in succession, or to clear
the communication trenches, in which the regulation of passing troops
is as complicated a job, if blocks and collisions are to be avoided,
as it is of the trains in a busy station. It is impossible to make out
the meaning of the immense maneuver in which the rolling of our
regiment is only that of a little wheel, nor what is going on in all
the huge area of the sector. But, lost in the network of deeps where
we go and come without end, weary, harassed and stiff-jointed by
prolonged halts, stupefied by noise and delay, poisoned by smoke, we
make out that our artillery is becoming more and more active; the
offensive seems to have changed places.
* * * * * *
Halt! A fire of intense and incredible fury was threshing the
parapets of the trench where we were halted at the moment: "Fritz is
going it strong; he's afraid of an attack, he's going dotty. Ah,
isn't he letting fly!"
A heavy hail was pouring over us, hacking terribly at atmosphere
and sky, scraping and skimming all the plain.
I looked through a loophole and saw a swift and strange vision. In
front of us, a dozen yards away at most, there were motionless forms
outstretched side by side—a row of mown-down soldiers—and the
countless projectiles that hurtled from all sides were riddling this
rank of the dead!
The bullets that flayed the soil in straight streaks amid raised
slender stems of cloud were perforating and ripping the bodies so
rigidly close to the ground, breaking the stiffened limbs, plunging
into the wan and vacant faces. bursting and bespattering the
liquefied eyes; and even did that file of corpses stir and budge out
of line under the avalanche.
We could hear the blunt sound of the dizzy copper points as they
pierced cloth and flesh, the sound of a furious stroke with a knife,
the harsh blow of a stick upon clothing. Above us rushed jets of
shrill whistling. with the declining and far more serious hum of
ricochets. And we bent our heads under the enormous flight of noises
and voices.
"Trench must be cleared—Gee up!" We leave this most infamous
corner of the battlefield where even the dead are torn, wounded, and
slain anew.
We turn towards the right and towards the rear. The communication
trench rises, and at the top of the gully we pass in front of a
telephone station and a group of artillery officers and gunners. Here
there is a further halt. We mark time, and hear the artillery observer
shout his commands, which the telephonist buried beside him picks up
and repeats: "First gun, same sight; two-tenths to left; three a
minute!"
Some of us have risked our heads over the edge of the bank and have
glimpsed for the space of the lightning's flash all the field of
battle round which our company has uncertainly wandered since the
morning. I saw a limitless gray plain, across whose width the wind
seemed to be driving faint and thin waves of dust, pierced in places
by a more pointed billow of smoke.
Where the sun and the clouds trail patches of black and of white,
the immense space sparkles dully from point to point where our
batteries are firing, and I saw it one moment entirely spangled with
short-lived flashes. Another minute, part of the field grew dark
under a steamy and whitish film, a sort of hurricane of snow.
Afar, on the evil, endless, and half-ruined fields, caverned like
cemeteries, we see the slender skeleton of a church, like a bit of
torn paper; and from one margin of the picture to the other, dim rows
of vertical marks, close together and underlined, like the straight
strokes of a written page—these are the roads and their trees.
Delicate meandering lines streak the plain backward and forward and
rule it in squares, and these windings are stippled with men.
We can make out some fragments of lines made up of these human
points who have emerged from the hollowed streaks and are moving on
the plain in the horrible face of the flying firmament. It is
difficult to believe that each of those tiny spots is a living thing
with fragile and quivering flesh, infinitely unarmed in space, full
of deep thoughts, full of far memories and crowded pictures. One is
fascinated by this scattered dust of men as small as the stars in the
sky.
Poor unknowns, poor fellow-men, it is your turn to give battle.
Another time it will be ours. Perhaps to-morrow it will be ours to
feel the heavens burst over our heads or the earth open under our
feet, to be assailed by the prodigious plague of projectiles, to be
swept away by the blasts of a tornado a hundred thousand times
stronger than the tornado.
They urge us into the rearward shelters. For our eyes the field of
death vanishes. To our ears the thunder is deadened on the great
anvil of the clouds. The sound of universal destruction is still. The
squad surrounds itself with the familiar noises of life, and sinks
into the fondling littleness of the dug-outs.
RUDELY awakened in the dark, I open my eyes: "What? What's up?"
"Your turn on guard—it's two o'clock in the morning," says
Corporal Bertrand at the opening into the hole where I am prostrate on
the floor. I hear him without seeing him.
"I'm coming," I growl, and shake myself, and yawn in the little
sepulchral shelter. I stretch my arms, and my hands touch the soft
and cold clay. Then I cleave the heavy odor that fills the dug-out
and crawl out in the middle of the dense gloom between the collapsed
bodies of the sleepers. After several stumbles and entanglements
among accouterments, knapsacks and limbs stretched out in all
directions, I put my hand on my rifle and find myself upright in the
open air, half awake and dubiously balanced, assailed by the black
and bitter breeze.
Shivering, I follow the corporal; he plunges in between the dark
embankments whose lower ends press strangely and closely on our
march. He stops; the place is here. I make out a heavy mass half-way
up the ghostly wail which comes loose and descends from it with a
whinnying yawn, and I hoist myself into the niche which it had
occupied.
The moon is hidden by mist, but a very weak and uncertain light
overspreads the scene, and one's sight gropes its way. Then a wide
strip of darkness, hovering and gliding up aloft, puts it out. Even
after touching the breastwork and the loophole in front of my face I
can hardly make them out, and my inquiring hand discovers, among an
ordered deposit of things, a mass of grenade handles.
"Keep your eye skinned, old chap," says Bertrand in a low voice.
"Don't forget that our listening-post is in front there on the left.
Allons, so long." His steps die away, followed by those of the sleepy
sentry whom I am relieving.
Rifle-shots crackle all round. Abruptly a bullet smacks the earth
of the wall against which I am leaning. I peer through the loophole.
Our line runs along the top of the ravine, and the land slopes
downward in front of me, plunging into an abyss of darkness where one
can see nothing. One's sight ends always by picking out the regular
lines of the stakes of our wire entanglements, planted on the shore of
the waves of night, and here and there the circular funnel-like wounds
of shells, little, larger, or enormous, and some of the nearest
occupied by mysterious lumber. The wind blows in my face, and nothing
else is stirring save the vast moisture that drain from it. It is cold
enough to set one shivering in perpetual motion. I look upwards, this
way and that; everything is borne down by dreadful gloom. I might be
derelict and alone in the middle of a world destroyed by a cataclysm.
There is a swift illumination up above—a rocket. The scene in
which I am stranded is picked out in sketchy incipience around me. The
crest of our trench stands forth, jagged and dishevelled, and I see,
stuck to the outer wall every five paces like upright caterpillars,
the shadows of the watchers. Their rifles are revealed beside them by
a few spots of light. The trench is shored with sandbags. It is
widened everywhere, and in many places ripped up by landslides. The
sandbags, piled up and dislodged, appear in the starlike light of the
rocket like the great dismantled stones of ancient ruined buildings. I
look through the loophole, and discern in the misty and pallid
atmosphere expanded by the meteor the rows of stakes and even the thin
lines of barbed wire which cross and recross between the posts. To my
seeing they are like strokes of a pen scratched upon the pale and
perforated ground. Lower down, the ravine is filled with the
motionless silence of the ocean of night.
I come down from my look-out and steer at a guess towards my
neighbor in vigil, and come upon him with outstretched hand. "Is that
you?" I say to him in a subdued voice, though I don't know him.
"Yes," he replies, equally ignorant who I am, blind like myself.
"It's quiet at this time," he adds "A bit since I thought they were
going to attack, and they may have tried it on, on the right, where
they chucked over a lot of bombs. There's been a barrage of
75's—vrrrran, vrrrran—Old man, I said to myself, 'Those 75's,
p'raps they've good reason for firing. If they did come out, the
Boches, they must have found something.' Tiens, listen, down there,
the bullets buffing themselves!"
He opens his flask and takes a draught, and his last words, still
subdued, smell of wine: "Ah, la, la! Talk about a filthy war! Don't
you think we should be a lot better at home!—Hullo! What's the
matter with the ass?" A rifle has rung out beside us, making a brief
and sudden flash of phosphorescence. Others go off here and there
along our line. Rifle-shots are catching after dark.
We go to inquire of one of the shooters, guessing our way through
the solid blackness that has fallen again upon us like a roof.
Stumbling, and thrown anon on each other, we reach the man and touch
him—"Well, what's up?"
He thought he saw something moving, but there is nothing more. We
return through the density, my unknown neighbor and I, unsteady, and
laboring along the narrow way of slippery mud, doubled up as if we
each carried a crushing burden. At one point of the horizon and then
at another all around, a gun sounds, and its heavy din blends with
the volleys of rifle-fire, redoubled one minute and dying out the
next, and with the clusters of grenade-reports, of deeper sound than
the crack of Lebel or Mauser, and nearly like the voice of the old
classical rifles. The wind has again increased; it is so strong that
one must protect himself against it in the darkness; masses of huge
cloud are passing in front of the moon.
So there we are, this man and I, jostling without knowing each
other, revealed and then hidden from each other in sudden jerks by
the flashes of the guns. oppressed by the opacity, the center of a
huge circle of fires that appear and disappear in the devilish
landscape.
"We're under a curse," says the man.
We separate, and go each to his own loophole, to weary our eyes
upon invisibility. Is some frightful and dismal storm about to break?
But that night it did not. At the end of my long wait, with the first
streaks of day, there was even a lull.
Again I saw, when the dawn came down on us like a stormy evening,
the steep banks of our crumbling trench as they came to life again
under the sooty scarf of the low-hanging clouds, a trench dismal and
dirty, infinitely dirty, humped with debris and filthiness. Under the
livid sky the sandbags are taking the same hue, and their vaguely
shining and rounded shapes are like the bowels and viscera of giants,
nakedly exposed upon the earth.
In the trench-wall behind me, in a hollowed recess, there is a heap
of horizontal things like logs. Tree-trunks? No, they are corpses.
* * * * * *
As the call of birds goes up from the furrowed ground, as the
shadowy fields are renewed, and the light breaks and adorns each
blade of grass, I look towards the ravine. Below the quickening field
and its high surges of earth and burned hollows, beyond the bristling
of stakes, there is still a lifeless lake of shadow, and in front of
the opposite slope a wall of night still stands.
Then I turn again and look upon these dead men whom the day is
gradually exhuming, revealing their stained and stiffened forms.
There are four of them. They are our comrades, Lamuse, Barque,
Biquet, and little Eudore. They rot there quite near us, blocking one
half of the wide, twisting, and muddy furrow that the living must
still defend.
They have been laid there as well as may be, supporting and
crushing each other. The topmost is wrapped in a tent-cloth.
Handkerchiefs had been placed on the faces of the others; but in
brushing against them in the dark without seeing them, or even in the
daytime without noticing them, the handkerchiefs have fallen, and we
are living face to face with these dead, heaped up there like a
wood-pile.
* * * * * *
It was four nights ago that they were all killed together. I
remember the night myself indistinctly—it is like a dream. We were
on patrol—they, I, Mesnil Andre, and Corporal Bertrand; and our
business was to identify a new German listening-post marked by the
artillery observers. We left the trench towards midnight and crept
down the slope in line, three or four paces from each other. Thus we
descended far into the ravine, and saw, lying before our eyes, the
embankment of their International Trench. After we had verified that
there was no listening-post in this slice of the ground we climbed
back, with infinite care. Dimly I saw my neighbors to right and left,
like sacks of shadow, crawling, slowly sliding, undulating and rocking
in the mud and the murk, with the projecting needle in front of a
rifle. Some bullets whistled above us, but they did not know we were
there, they were not looking for us. When we got within sight of the
mound of our line, we took a breather for a moment; one of us let a
sigh go, another spoke. Another turned round bodily, and the sheath of
his bayonet rang out against a stone. Instantly a rocket shot redly up
from the International Trench. We threw ourselves flat on the ground,
closely, desperately, and waited there motionless, with the terrible
star hanging over us and flooding us with daylight, twenty-five or
thirty yards from our trench. Then a machine-gun on the other side of
the ravine swept the zone where we were. Corporal Bertrand and I had
had the luck to find in front of us, just as the red rocket went up
and before it burst into light, a shell-hole, where a broken trestle
was steeped in the mud. We flattened ourselves against the edge of the
hole, buried ourselves in the mud as much as possible, and the poor
skeleton of rotten wood concealed us. The jet of the machine-gun
crossed several times. We heard a piercing whistle in the middle of
each report, the sharp and violent sound of bullets that went into the
earth, and dull and soft blows as well, followed by groans, by a
little cry, and suddenly by a sound like the heavy snoring of a
sleeper, a sound which slowly ebbed. Bertrand and I waited, grazed by
the horizontal hail of bullets that traced a network of death an inch
or so above us and sometimes scraped our clothes, driving us still
deeper into the mud, nor dared we risk a movement which might have
lifted a little some part of our bodies. The machine-gun at last held
its peace in an enormous silence. A quarter of an hour later we two
slid out of the shell-hole, and crawling on our elbows we fell at last
like bundles into our listening-post. It was high time, too, for at
that moment the moon shone out. We were obliged to stay in the bottom
of the trench till morning, and then till evening, for the machine-gun
swept the approaches without pause. We could not see the prostrate
bodies through the loop-holes of the post, by reason of the steepness
of the ground—except, just on the level of our field of vision, a
lump which appeared to be the back of one of them. In the evening, a
sap was dug to reach the place where they had fallen. The work could
not be finished in one night and was resumed by the pioneers the
following night, for, overwhelmed with fatigue, we could no longer
keep from falling asleep.
Awaking from a leaden sleep, I saw the four corpses that the
sappers had reached from underneath, hooking and then hauling them
into the sap with ropes. Each of them had several adjoining wounds,
bullet-holes an inch or so apart—the mitrailleuse had fired fast.
The body of Mesnil Andre was not found, and his brother Joseph did
some mad escapades in search of it. He went out quite alone into No
Man's Land, where the crossed fire of machine-guns swept it three ways
at once and constantly. In the morning, dragging himself along like a
slug, he showed over the bank a face black with mud and horribly
wasted. They pulled him in again, with his face scratched by barbed
wire, his hands bleeding, with heavy clods of mud in the folds of his
clothes, and stinking of death. Like an idiot be kept on saying, "He's
nowhere." He buried himself in a corner with his rifle, which he set
himself to clean without hearing what was said to him, and only
repeating "He's nowhere."
It is four nights ago since that night, and as the dawn comes once
again to cleanse the earthly Gehenna, the bodies are becoming
definitely distinct.
Barque in his rigidity seems immoderately long, his arms lie
closely to the body, his chest has sunk, his belly is hollow as a
basin. With his head upraised by a lump of mud, he looks over his feet
at those who come up on the left; his face is dark and polluted by the
clammy stains of disordered hair, and his wide and scalded eyes are
heavily encrusted with blackened blood. Eudore seems very small by
contrast, and his little face is completely white, so white as to
remind you of the be-flowered face of a pierrot, and it is touching
to see that little circle of white paper among the gray and bluish
tints of the corpses. The Breton Biquet, squat and square as a
flagstone, appears to be under the stress of a huge effort; he might
be trying to uplift the misty darkness; and the extreme exertion
overflows upon the protruding cheek-bones and forehead of his
grimacing face, contorts it hideously, sets the dried and dusty hair
bristling, divides his jaws in a spectral cry, and spreads wide the
eyelids from his lightless troubled eyes, his flinty eyes; and his
hands are contracted in a clutch upon empty air.
Barque and Biquet were shot in the belly; Eudore in the throat. In
the dragging and carrying they were further injured. Big Lamuse, at
last bloodless, had a puffed and creased face, and the eyes were
gradually sinking in their sockets, one more than the other. They
have wrapped him in a tent-cloth, and it shows a dark stain where the
neck is. His right shoulder has been mangled by several bullets, and
the arm is held on only by strips of the sleeve and by threads that
they have put in since. The first night he was placed there, this arm
hung outside the heap of dead, and the yellow hand, curled up on a
lump of earth, touched passers-by in the face; so they pinned the arm
to the greatcoat.
A pestilential vapor begins to hover about the remains of these
beings with whom we lived so intimately and suffered so long.
When we see them we say, "They are dead, all four"; but they are
too far disfigured for us to say truly, "It is they," and one must
turn away from the motionless monsters to feel the void they have left
among us and the familiar things that have been wrenched away.
Men of other companies or regiments, strangers who come this way by
day—by night one leans unconsciously on everything within reach of
the hand, dead or alive-give a start when faced by these corpses
flattened one on the other in the open trench. Sometimes they are
angry—"What are they thinking about to leave those stiffs
there?"—"It's shameful." Then they add, "It's true they can't be
taken away from there." And they were only buried in the night.
Morning has come. Opposite us we see the other slope of the ravine,
Hill 119, an eminence scraped, stripped, and scratched, veined with
shaken trenches and lined with parallel cuttings that vividly reveal
the clay and the chalky soil. Nothing is stirring there; and our
shells that burst in places with wide spouts of foam like huge
billows seem to deliver their resounding blows upon a great
breakwater, ruined and abandoned.
My spell of vigil is finished, and the other sentinels, enveloped
in damp and trickling tent-cloths, with their stripes and plasters of
mud and their livid jaws, disengage themselves from the soil wherein
they are molded, bestir themselves, and come down. For us, it is rest
until evening.
We yawn and stroll. We see a comrade pass and then another.
Officers go to and fro, armed with periscopes and telescopes. We feel
our feet again, and begin once more to live. The customary remarks
cross and clash; and were it not for the dilapidated outlook, the
sunken lines of the trench that buries us on the hillside, and the
veto on our voices, we might fancy ourselves in the rear lines. But
lassitude weighs upon all of us, our faces are jaundiced and the
eyelids reddened; through long watching we look as if we had been
weeping. For several days now we have all of us been sagging and
growing old.
One after another the men of my squad have made a confluence at a
curve in the trench. They pile themselves where the soil is only
chalky, and where, above the crust that bristles with severed roots,
the excavations have exposed some beds of white stones that had lain
in the darkness for over a hundred thousand years.
There in the widened fairway, Bertrand's squad beaches itself. It
is much reduced this time, for beyond the losses of the other night,
we no longer have Poterloo, killed in a relief, nor Cadilhac. wounded
in the leg by a splinter the same evening as Poterloo, nor Tirioir
nor Tulacque who have been sent back, the one for dysentery, and the
other for pneumonia, which is taking an ugly turn—as he says in the
postcards which he sends us as a pastime from the base hospital where
he is vegetating.
Once more I see gathered and grouped, soiled by contact with the
earth and dirty smoke, the familiar faces and poses of those who have
not been separated since the beginning, chained and riveted together
in fraternity. But there is less dissimilarity than at the beginning
in the appearance of the cave-men.
Papa Blaire displays in his well-worn mouth a set of new teeth, so
resplendent that one can see nothing in all his poor face except
those gayly-dight jaws. The great event of these foreign teeth's
establishment, which he is taming by degrees and sometimes uses for
eating, has profoundly modified his character and his manners. He is
rarely besmeared with grime, he is hardly slovenly. Now that he has
become handsome he feels it necessary to become elegant. For the
moment he is dejected, because—a miracle—he cannot wash himself.
Deeply sunk in a corner, he half opens a lack-luster eye, bites and
masticates his old soldier's mustache—not long ago the only ornament
on his face—and from time to time spits out a hair.
Fouillade is shivering, cold-smitten, or yawns, depressed and
shabby. Marthereau has not changed at all. He is still as always
well-bearded, his eye round and blue, and his legs so short that his
trousers seem to be slipping continually from his waist and dropping
to his feet. Cocon is always Cocon by the dried and parchment-like
head wherein sums are working; but a recurrence of lice, the ravages
of which we see overflowing on to his neck and wrists, has isolated
him for a week now in protracted tussles which leave him surly when
he returns among us. Paradis retains unimpaired the same quantum of
good color and good temper; he is unchanging, perennial. We smile
when he appears in the distance, placarded on the background of
sandbags like a new poster. Nothing has changed in Pepin either, whom
we can just see taking a stroll—we can tell him behind by his
red-and-white squares of an oilcloth draught-board, and in front by
his blade-like face and the gleam of a knife in his cold gray look.
Nor has Volpatte changed, with his leggings, his shouldered blanket,
and his face of a Mongolian tatooed with dirt; nor Tirette, although
he has been worried for some time by blood-red streaks in his
eyes—for some unknown and mysterious reason. Farfadet keeps himself
aloof, in pensive expectation. When the post is being given out he
awakes from his reverie to go so far, and then retires into himself.
His clerkly hands indite numerous and careful postcards. He does not
know of Eudoxie's end. Lamuse said no more to any one of the ultimate
and awful embrace in which he clasped her body. He regretted—I knew
it—his whispered confidence to me that evening, and up to his death
he kept the horrible affair sacred to himself, with tenacious
bashfulness. So we see Farfadet continuing to live his airy existence
with the living likeness of that fair hair, which he only leaves for
the scarce monosyllables of his contact with us. Corporal Bertrand has
still the same soldierly and serious mien among us; he is always ready
with his tranquil smile to answer all questions with lucid
explanations, to help each of us to do his duty.
We are chatting as of yore, as not long since. But the necessity of
speaking in low tones distinguishes our remarks and imposes on them a
lugubrious tranquillity.
* * * * * *
Something unusual has happened. For the last three months the
sojourn of each unit in the first-line trenches has been four days.
Yet we have now been five days here and there is no mention of
relief. Some rumors of early attack are going about, brought by the
liaison men and those of the fatigue-party that renews our rations
every other night—without regularity or guarantee. Other portents
are adding themselves to the whispers of offensive—the stopping of
leave, the failure of the post, the obvious change in the officers,
who are serious and closer to us. But talk on this subject always
ends with a shrug of the shoulders; the soldier is never warned what
is to be done with him; they put a bandage on his eyes, and only
remove it at the last minute. So, "We shall see."—"We can only
wait."
We detach ourselves from the tragic event foreboded. Is this
because of the impossibility of a complete understanding, or a
despondent unwillingness to decipher those orders that are sealed
letters to us, or a lively faith that one will pass through the peril
once more? Always, in spite of the premonitory signs and the
prophecies that seem to be coming true, we fall back automatically
upon the cares of the moment and absorb ourselves in them—hunger,
thirst, the lice whose crushing ensanguines all our nails, the great
weariness that saps us all.
"Seen Joseph this morning?" says Volpatte. "He doesn't look very
grand, poor lad."
"He'll do something daft, certain sure. He's as good as a goner,
that lad, mind you. First chance he has he'll jump in front of a
bullet. I can see he will."
"It'd give any one the pip for the rest of his natural. There were
six brothers of 'em, you know; four of 'em killed; two in Alsace, one
in Champagne, one in Argonne. If Andre's killed he's the fifth."
"If he'd been killed they'd have found his body—they'd have seen
it from the observation-post; you can't lose the rump and the thighs.
My idea is that the night they went on patrol he went astray coming
back—crawled right round, poor devil, and fell right into the Boche
lines."
"Perhaps he got sewn up in their wire."
"I tell you they'd have found him if he'd been done in; you know
jolly well the Boches wouldn't have brought the body in. And we
looked everywhere. As long as he's not been found you can take it
from me that he's got away somewhere on his feet, wounded or
unwounded."
This so logical theory finds favor, and now it is known that Mesnil
Andre is a prisoner there is less interest in him. But his brother
continues to be a pitiable object—"Poor old chap, he's so young!" And
the men of the squad look at him secretly.
"I've got a twist!" says Cocon suddenly. The hour of dinner has
gone past and we are demanding it. There appears to be only the
remains of what was brought the night before.
"What's the corporal thinking of to starve us? There he is—I'll go
and get hold of him. Hey, corporal! Why can't you get us something to
eat?"—"Yes, yes—something to eat!" re-echoes the destiny of these
eternally hungry men.
"I'm coming," says bustling Bertrand, who keeps going both day and
night.
"What then?" says Pepin, always hot-headed. "I don't feel like
chewing macaroni again; I shall open a tin of meat in less than two
secs?" The daily comedy of dinner steps to the front again in this
drama.
"Don't touch your reserve rations!" says Bertrand; "as soon as I'm
back from seeing the captain I'll get you something."
When he returns he brings and distributes a salad of potatoes and
onions, and as mastication proceeds our features relax and our eyes
become composed.
For the ceremony of eating, Paradis has hoisted a policeman's hat.
It is hardly the right place or time for it, but the hat is quite
new, and the tailor, who promised it for three months ago, only
delivered it the day we came up. The pliant two-cornered hat of
bright blue cloth on his flourishing round head gives him the look of
a pasteboard gendarme with red-painted cheeks. Nevertheless, all the
while he is eating, Paradis looks at me steadily. I go up to him.
"You've a funny old face."
"Don't worry about it," he replies. "I want a chat with you. Come
with me and see something."
His hand goes out to his half-full cup placed beside his dinner
things; he hesitates, and then decides to put his wine in a safe
place down his gullet, and the cup in his pocket. He moves off and I
follow him.
In passing he picks up his helmet that gapes on the earthen bench.
After a dozen paces he comes close to me and says in a low voice and
with a queer air, without looking at me—as he does when he is
upset—"I know where Mesnil Andre is. Would you like to see him?
Come, then."
So saying, he takes off his police hat, folds and pockets it. and
puts on his helmet. He sets off again and I follow him without a
word.
He leads me fifty yards farther, towards the place where our common
dug-out is, and the footbridge of sandbags under which one always
slides with the impression that the muddy arch will collapse on one's
back. After the footbridge, a hollow appears in the wall of the
trench, with a step made of a hurdle stuck fast in the clay. Paradis
climbs there, and motions to me to follow him on to the narrow and
slippery platform. There was recently a sentry's loophole here, and it
has been destroyed and made again lower down with a couple of
bullet-screens. One is obliged to stoop low lest his head rise above
the contrivance.
Paradis says to me, still in the same low voice, "It's me that
fixed up those two shields, so as to see—for I'd got an idea, and I
wanted to see. Put your eye to this—"
"I don't see anything; the hole's stopped up. What's that lump of
cloth?"
"It's him," says Paradis.
Ah! It was a corpse, a corpse sitting in a hole, and horribly
near—
Having flattened my face against the steel plate and glued my eye
to the hole in the bullet-screen, I saw all of it. He was squatting,
the head hanging forward between the legs, both arms placed on his
knees, his hands hooked and half closed. He was easily
identifiable—so near, so near!—in spite of his squinting and
lightless eyes, by the mass of his muddy beard and the distorted
mouth that revealed the teeth. He looked as if he were both smiling
and grimacing at his rifle, stuck straight up in the mud before him.
His outstretched hands were quite blue above and scarlet underneath,
crimsoned by a damp and hellish reflection.
It was he, rain-washed and besmeared with a sort of scum, polluted
and dreadfully pale, four days dead, and close up to our embankment
into which the shell-hole where he had burrowed had bitten. We had
not found him because he was too near!
Between this derelict dead in its unnatural solitude and the men
who inhabited the dug-out there was only a slender partition of earth,
and I realize that the place in it where I lay my head corresponds to
the spot buttressed by this dreadful body.
I withdraw my face from the peep-hole and Paradis and I exchange
glances. "Mustn't tell him yet," my companion whispers. "No, we
mustn't, not at once—" "I spoke to the captain about rooting him
out, and he said, too, we mustn't mention it now to the lad.'" A
light breath of wind goes by. "I can smell it!"—"Rather!" The odor
enters our thoughts and capsizes our very hearts.
"So now," says Paradis, "Joseph's left alone, out of six brothers.
And I'll tell you what—I don't think he'll stop long. The lad won't
take care of himself—he'll get himself done in. A lucky wound's got
to drop on him from the sky, otherwise he's corpsed. Six
brothers—it's too bad, that! Don't you think it's too bad?" He
added, "It's astonishing that he was so near us."
"His arm's just against the spot where I put my head."
"Yes," says Paradis, "his right arm, where there's a wrist-watch."
The watch—I stop short—is it a fancy, a dream? It seems to
me—yes, I am sure now—that three days ago, the night when we were
so tired out, before I went to sleep I heard what sounded like the
ticking of a watch and even wondered where it could come from.
"It was very likely that watch you heard all the same, through the
earth," says Paradis, whom I have told some of my thoughts; "they go
on thinking and turning round even when the chap stops. Damn, your
own ticker doesn't know you—it just goes quietly on making little
circles."
I asked, "There's blood on his hands; but where was be hit?"
"Don't know; in the belly, I think; I thought there was something
dark underneath him. Or perhaps in the face—did you notice the
little stain on the cheek?"
I recall the hairy and greenish face of the dead man. "Yes, there
was something on the cheek. Yes, perhaps it went in there—"
"Look out!" says Paradis hurriedly, "there he is! We ought not to
have stayed here."
But we stay all the same, irresolutely wavering, as Mesnil Joseph
comes straight up to us. Never did he seem so frail to us. We can see
his pallor afar off, his oppressed and unnatural expression; he is
bowed as be walks, and goes slowly, borne down by endless fatigue and
his immovable notion.
"What's the matter with your face?" he asks me—he has seen me
point out to Paradis the possible entry of the bullet. I pretend not
to understand and then make some kind of evasive reply. All at once I
have a torturing idea—the smell! It is there, and there is no
mistaking it. It reveals a corpse; and perhaps he will guess rightly
It seems to me that he has suddenly smelt the sign—the pathetic,
lamentable appeal of the dead. But he says nothing, continues his
solitary walk, and disappears round the corner.
"Yesterday," says Paradis to me, "be came just here, with his
mess-tin full of rice that he didn't want to eat. Just as if he knew
what he was doing, the fool stops here and talks of pitching the rest
of his food over the bank, just on the spot where—where the other
was. I couldn't stick that, old chap. I grabbed his arm just as he
chucked the rice into the air, and it flopped down here in the trench.
Old man, he turned round on me in a rage and all red in the face,
'What the hell's up with you now?' he says. I looked as fat-headed as
I could, and mumbled some rot about not doing it on purpose. He shrugs
his shoulders, and looks at me same as if I was dirt. He goes off,
saying to himself, 'Did you see him, the blockhead?' He's
bad-tempered, you know, the poor chap, and I couldn't complain. 'All
right, all right,' he kept saying; and I didn't like it, you know,
because I did wrong all the time, although I was right."
We go back together in silence and re-enter the dugout where the
others are gathered. It is an old headquarters post, and spacious.
Just as we slide in, Paradis listens. "Our batteries have been
playing extra hell for the last hour, don't you think?"
I know what he means, and reply with an empty gesture, "We shall
see, old man, we shall see all right!"
In the dug-out, to an audience of three, Tirette is again pouring
out his barrack-life tales. Marthereau is snoring in a corner; he is
close to the entry, and to get down we have to stride over his short
legs, which seem to have gone back into his trunk. A group of
kneeling men around a folded blanket are playing with cards—
"My turn!"—"40, 42—48—49!—Good!"
"Isn't he lucky, that game-bird; it's imposs', I've got stumped
three times I want nothing more to do with you. You're skinning me
this evening, and you robbed me the other day, too, you infernal
fritter!"—"What did you revoke for, mugwump?"—"I'd only the king,
nothing else."
"All the same," murmurs some one who is eating in a corner, "this
Camembert, it cost twenty-five sous, but you talk about muck! Outside
there's a layer of sticky glue, and inside it's plaster that breaks."
Meanwhile Tirette relates the outrages inflicted on him during his
twenty-one days of training owing to the quarrelsome temper of a
certain major: "A great hog he was, my boy. everything rotten on this
earth. All the lot of us looked foul when he went by or when we saw
him in the officers' room spread out on a chair that you couldn't see
underneath him, with his vast belly and huge cap. and circled round
with stripes from top to bottom, like a barrel—he was hard on the
private! They called him Loeb—a Boche, you see!"
"I knew him!" cried Paradis; "when war started he was declared
unfit for active service, naturally. While I was doing my term he was
a dodger already—but he dodged round all the street corners to pinch
you—you got a day's clink for an unbuttoned button, and he gave it
you over and above if there was some bit of a thing about you that
wasn't quite O.K.—and everybody laughed. He thought they were
laughing at you, and you knew they were laughing at him, but you knew
it in vain, you were in it up to your head for the clink."
"He had a wife," Tirette goes on, "the old—"
"I remember her, too," Paradis exclaimed. "You talk about a bitch!"
"Some of 'em drag a little pug-dog about with 'em, but him, he
trailed that yellow minx about everywhere, with her broom-handle hips
and her wicked look. It was her that worked the old sod up against us.
He was more stupid than wicked, but as soon as she was there he got
more wicked than stupid. So you bet they were some nuisance—"
Just then, Marthereau wakes up from his sleep by the entry with a
half-groan. He straightens himself up, sitting on his straw like a
gaol-bird, and we see his bearded silhouette take the vague outline
of a Chinese, while his round eye rolls and turns in the shadows. He
is looking at his dreams of a moment ago. Then he passes his hand
over his eyes and—as if it had some connection with his
dream—recalls the scene that night when we came up to the
trenches—"For all that," he says, in a voice weighty with slumber
and reflection, "there were some half-seas-over that night! Ah, what
a night! All those troops, companies and whole regiments, yelling and
surging all the way up the road! In the thinnest of the dark you could
see the jumble of poilus that went on and up—like the sea itself,
you'd say—and carrying on across all the convoys of artillery and
ambulance wagons that we met that night. I've never seen so many, so
many convoys in the night, never!" Then he deals himself a thump on
the chest, settles down again in self-possession, groans, and says no
more.
Blaire's voice rises, giving expression to the haunting thought
that wakes in the depths of the men: "It's four o'clock. It's too late
for there to be anything from our side."
One of the gamesters in the other corner yelps a question at
another: "Now then? Are you going to play or aren't you, worm-face?"
Tirette continues the story of his major: "Behold one day they'd
served us at the barracks with some suetty soup. Old man, a disease,
it was! So a chap asks to speak to the captain, and holds his
mess-tin up to his nose."
"Numskull!" some one shouts in the other corner. "Why didn't you
trump, then?"
"'Ah, damn it,' said the captain, 'take it away from my nose, it
positively stinks.'"
"It wasn't my game," quavers a discontented but unconvinced voice.
"And the captain, he makes a report to the major. But behold the
major, mad as the devil, he butts in shaking the paper in his paw:
'What's this?' he says. 'Where's the soup that has caused this
rebellion, that I may taste it?' They bring him some in a clean
mess-tin and he sniffs it. 'What now!' he says, 'it smells good. They
damned well shan't have it then, rich soup like this!'"
"Not your game! And he was leading, too! Bungler! It's unlucky, you
know."
"Then at five o'clock as we were coming out of barracks, our two
marvels butt in again and plank themselves in front of the swaddies
coming out, trying to spot some little thing not quite so, and he
said, 'Ah, my bucks, you thought you'd score off me by complaining of
this excellent soup that I have consumed myself along with my partner
here; just wait and see if I don't get even with you. Hey, you with
the long hair, the tall artist, come here a minute!' And all the time
the beast was jawing, his bag-o'-bones—as straight and thin as a
post—went 'oui, oui' with her head."
"That depends; if he hadn't a trump, it's another matter."
"But all of a sudden we see her go white as a sheet, she puts her
fist on her tummy and she shakes like all that, and then suddenly, in
front of all the fellows that filled the square, she drops her
umbrella and starts spewing!"
"Hey, listen!" says Paradis, sharply, "they're shouting in the
trench. Don't you hear? Isn't it 'alarm!' they're shouting?"
"Alarm? Are you mad?"
The words were hardly said when a shadow comes in through the low
doorway of our dug-out and cries—"Alarm, 22nd! Stand to arms!"
A moment of silence and then several exclamations. "I knew it,"
murmurs Paradis between his teeth, and he goes on his knees towards
the opening into the molehill that shelters us. Speech then ceases
and we seem to be struck dumb. Stooping or kneeling we bestir
ourselves; we buckle on our waist-belts; shadowy arms dart from one
side to another; pockets are rummaged. And we issue forth pell-mell,
dragging our knapsacks behind us by the straps, our blankets and
pouches.
Outside we are deafened. The roar of gunfire has increased a
hundredfold, to left, to right, and in front of us. Our batteries
give voice without ceasing.
"Do you think they're attacking?" ventures a man. "How should I
know?" replies another voice with irritated brevity.
Our jaws are set and we swallow our thoughts, hurrying, bustling,
colliding, and grumbling without words.
A command goes forth—"Shoulder your packs."—"There's a
counter-command—" shouts an officer who runs down the trench with
great strides, working his elbows, and the rest of his sentence
disappears with him. A counter-command! A visible tremor has run
through the files, a start which uplifts our heads and holds us all
in extreme expectation.
But no; the counter-order only concerns the knapsacks. No pack; but
the blanket rolled round the body, and the trenching-tool at the
waist. We unbuckle our blankets, tear them open and roll them up.
Still no word is spoken; each has a steadfast eye and the mouth
forcefully shut. The corporals and sergeants go here and there,
feverishly spurring the silent haste in which the men are bowed: "Now
then, hurry up! Come, come, what the hell are you doing? Will you
hurry, yes or no?"
A detachment of soldiers with a badge of crossed axes on their
sleeves clear themselves a fairway and swiftly delve holes in the
wall of the trench. We watch them sideways as we don our equipment.
"What are they doing, those chaps?"—"It's to climb up by."
We are ready. The men marshal themselves, still silently, their
blankets crosswise, the helmet-strap on the chin, leaning on their
rifles. I look at their pale, contracted, and reflective faces. They
are not soldiers, they are men. They are not adventurers, or
warriors, or made for human slaughter, neither butchers nor cattle.
They are laborers and artisans whom one recognizes in their uniforms.
They are civilians uprooted, and they are ready. They await the signal
for death or murder; but you may see, looking at their faces between
the vertical gleams of their bayonets, that they are simply men.
Each one knows that he is going to take his head, his chest, his
belly, his whole body, and all naked, up to the rifles pointed
forward, to the shells, to the bombs piled and ready, and above all
to the methodical and almost infallible machine-guns—to all that is
waiting for him yonder and is now so frightfully silent—before he
reaches the other soldiers that he must kill. They are not careless
of their lives, like brigands, nor blinded by passion like savages.
In spite of the doctrines with which they have been cultivated they
are not inflamed. They are above instinctive excesses. They are not
drunk, either physically or morally. It is in full consciousness, as
in full health and full strength, that they are massed there to hurl
themselves once more into that sort of madman's part imposed on all
men by the madness of the human race. One sees the thought and the
fear and the farewell that there is in their silence, their
stillness, in the mask of tranquillity which unnaturally grips their
faces. They are not the kind of hero one thinks of, but their
sacrifice has greater worth than they who have not seen them will
ever be able to understand.
They are waiting; a waiting that extends and seems eternal. Now and
then one or another starts a little when a bullet, fired from the
other side, skims the forward embankment that shields us and plunges
into the flabby flesh of the rear wall.
The end of the day is spreading a sublime but melancholy light on
that strong unbroken mass of beings of whom some only will live to
see the night. It is raining—there is always rain in my memories of
all the tragedies of the great war. The evening is making ready,
along with a vague and chilling menace; it is about to set for men
that snare that is as wide as the world.
* * * * * *
New orders are peddled from mouth to mouth. Bombs strung on wire
hoops are distributed—"Let each man take two bombs!"
The major goes by. He is restrained in his gestures, in undress,
girded, undecorated. We hear him say, "There's something good, mes
enfants, the Boches are clearing out. You'll get along all right,
eh?"
News passes among us like a breeze. "The Moroccans and the 21st
Company are in front of us. The attack is launched on our right."
The corporals are summoned to the captain, and return with armsful
of steel things. Bertrand is fingering me; he hooks something on to a
button of my greatcoat. It is a kitchen knife. "I'm putting this on to
your coat," he says.
"Me too!" says Pepin.
"No," says Bertrand, "it's forbidden to take volunteers for these
things."
"Be damned to you!" growls Pepin.
We wait, in the great rainy and shot-hammered space that has no
other boundary than the distant and tremendous cannonade. Bertrand
has finished his distribution and returns. Several soldiers have sat
down, and some of them are yawning.
The cyclist Billette slips through in front of us, carrying an
officer's waterproof on his arm and obviously averting his face.
"Hullo, aren't you going too?" Cocon cries to him.
"No, I'm not going," says the other. "I'm in the 17th. The Fifth
Battalion's not attacking!"
"Ah, they've always got the luck, the Fifth. They've never got to
fight like we have!" Billette is already in the distance, and a few
grimaces follow his disappearance.
A man arrives running, and speaks to Bertrand, and then Bertrand
turns to us—
"Up you go," he says, "it's our turn."
All move at once. We put our feet on the steps made by the sappers,
raise ourselves, elbow to elbow, beyond the shelter of the trench,
and climb on to the parapet.
* * * * * *
Bertrand is out on the sloping ground. He covers us with a quick
glance, and when we are all there he says, "Allons, forward!"
Our voices have a curious resonance. The start has been made very
quickly, unexpectedly almost, as in a dream. There is no whistling
sound in the air. Among the vast uproar of the guns we discern very
clearly this surprising silence of bullets around us—
We descend over the rough and slippery ground with involuntary
gestures, helping ourselves sometimes with the rifle. Mechanically
the eye fastens on some detail of the declivity, of the ruined
ground, on the sparse and shattered stakes pricking up, at the
wreckage in the holes. It is unbelievable that we are upright in full
daylight on this slope where several survivors remember sliding along
in the darkness with such care, and where the others have only
hazarded furtive glances through the loopholes. No, there is no
firing against us. The wide exodus of the battalion out of the ground
seems to have passed unnoticed! This truce is full of an increasing
menace, increasing. The pale light confuses us.
On all sides the slope is covered by men who, like us, are bent on
the descent. On the right the outline is defined of a company that is
reaching the ravine by Trench 97—an old German work in ruins. We
cross our wire by openings. Still no one fires on us. Some awkward
ones who have made false steps are getting up again. We form up on
the farther side of the entanglements and then set ourselves to
topple down the slope rather faster—there is an instinctive
acceleration in the movement. Several bullets arrive at last among
us. Bertrand shouts to us to reserve our bombs and wait till the last
moment.
But the sound of his voice is carried away. Abruptly, across all
the width of the opposite slope, lurid flames burst forth that strike
the air with terrible detonations. In line from left to right fires
emerge from the sky and explosions from the ground. It is a frightful
curtain which divides us from the world, which divides us from the
past and from the future. We stop, fixed to the ground, stupefied by
the sudden host that thunders from every side; then a simultaneous
effort uplifts our mass again and throws it swiftly forward. We
stumble and impede each other in the great waves of smoke. With harsh
crashes and whirlwinds of pulverized earth, towards the profundity
into which we hurl ourselves pell-mell, we see craters opened here and
there, side by side, and merging in each other. Then one knows no
longer where the discharges fall. Volleys are let loose so monstrously
resounding that one feels himself annihilated by the mere sound of the
downpoured thunder of these great constellations of destruction that
form in the sky. One sees and one feels the fragments passing close to
one's head with their hiss of red-hot iron plunged in water. The blast
of one explosion so burns my hands that I let my rifle fall. I pick it
up again, reeling, and set off in the tawny-gleaming tempest with
lowered head, lashed by spirits of dust and soot in a crushing
downpour like volcanic lava. The stridor of the bursting shells hurts
your ears, beats you on the neck, goes through your temples, and you
cannot endure it without a cry. The gusts of death drive us on, lift
us up, rock us to and fro. We leap, and do not know whither we go. Our
eyes are blinking and weeping and obscured. The view before us is
blocked by a flashing avalanche that fills space.
It is the barrage fire. We have to go through that whirlwind of
fire and those fearful showers that vertically fall. We are passing
through. We are through it, by chance. Here and there I have seen
forms that spun round and were lifted up and laid down, illumined by
a brief reflection from over yonder. I have glimpsed strange faces
that uttered some sort of cry—you could see them without hearing
them in the roar of annihilation. A brasier full of red and black
masses huge and furious fell about me, excavating the ground, tearing
it from under my feet, throwing me aside like a bouncing toy. I
remember that I strode over a smoldering corpse, quite black, with a
tissue of rosy blood shriveling on him; and I remember, too, that the
skirts of the greatcoat flying next to me had caught fire, and left a
trail of smoke behind. On our right, all along Trench 97, our glances
were drawn and dazzled by a rank of frightful flames, closely crowded
against each other like men.
Forward!
Now, we are nearly running. I see some who fall solidly flat, face
forward, and others who founder meekly, as though they would sit down
on the ground. We step aside abruptly to avoid the prostrate dead,
quiet and rigid, or else offensive, and also—more perilous
snares!—the wounded that hook on to you, struggling.
The International Trench! We are there. The wire entanglements have
been torn up into long roots and creepers, thrown afar and coiled up,
swept away and piled in great drifts by the guns. Between these big
bushes of rain-damped steel the ground is open and free.
The trench is not defended. The Germans have abandoned it, or else
a first wave has already passed over it. Its interior bristles with
rifles placed against the bank. In the bottom are scattered corpses.
From the jumbled litter of the long trench, hands emerge that
protrude from gray sleeves with red facings, and booted legs. In
places the embankment is destroyed and its woodwork splintered—all
the flank of the trench collapsed and fallen into an indescribable
mixture. In other places, round pits are yawning. And of all that
moment I have best retained the vision of a whimsical trench covered
with many-colored rags and tatters. For the making of their sandbags
the Germans had used cotton and woolen stuffs of motley design
pillaged from some house-furnisher's shop; and all this hotch-potch
of colored remnants, mangled and frayed, floats and flaps and dances
in our faces.
We have spread out in the trench. The lieutenant, who has jumped to
the other side, is stooping and summoning us with signs and
shouts—"Don't stay there; forward, forward!"
We climb the wall of the trench with the help of the sacks, of
weapons, and of the backs that are piled up there. In the bottom of
the ravine the soil is shot-churned, crowded with jetsam, swarming
with prostrate bodies. Some are motionless as blocks of wood; others
move slowly or convulsively. The barrage fire continues to increase
its infernal discharge behind us on the ground that we have crossed.
But where we are at the foot of the rise it is a dead point for the
artillery.
A short and uncertain calm follows. We are less deafened and look
at each other. There is fever in the eyes, and the cheek-bones are
blood-red. Our breathing snores and our hearts drum in our bodies.
In haste and confusion we recognize each other, as if we had met
again face to face in a nightmare on the uttermost shores of death.
Some hurried words are cast upon this glade in hell—"It's you!
"—"Where's Cocon?"—"Don't know."—"Have you seen the captain?
"—"No."—"Going strong?"—"Yes."
The bottom of the ravine is crossed and the other slope rises
opposite. We climb in Indian file by a stairway rough-hewn in the
ground: "Look out!" The shout means that a soldier half-way up the
steps has been struck in the loins by a shell-fragment; he falls with
his arms forward, bareheaded, like the diving swimmer. We can see the
shapeless silhouette of the mass as it plunges into the gulf. I can
almost see the detail of his blown hair over the black profile of his
face.
We debouch upon the height. A great colorless emptiness is
outspread before us. At first one can see nothing but a chalky and
stony plain, yellow and gray to the limit of sight. No human wave is
preceding ours; in front of us there is no living soul, but the
ground is peopled with dead—recent corpses that still mimic agony or
sleep, and old remains already bleached and scattered to the wind,
half assimilated by the earth.
As soon as our pushing and jolted file emerges, two men close to me
are hit, two shadows are hurled to the ground and roll under our
feet, one with a sharp cry, and the other silently, as a felled ox.
Another disappears with the caper of a lunatic, as if he had been
snatched away. Instinctively we close up as we hustle forward—always
forward—and the wound in our line closes of its own accord. The
adjutant stops, raises his sword, lets it fall, and drops to his
knees. His kneeling body slopes backward in jerks, his helmet drops on
his heels, and he remains there, bareheaded, face to the sky.
Hurriedly the rush of the rank has split open to respect his
immobility.
But we cannot see the lieutenant. No more leaders then—Hesitation
checks the wave of humanity that begins to beat on the plateau. Above
the trampling one hears the hoarse effort of our lungs. "Forward!"
cries some soldier, and then all resume the onward race to perdition
with increasing speed.
* * * * * *
"Where's Bertrand?" comes the laborious complaint of one of the
foremost runners. "There! Here!" He had stooped in passing over a
wounded man, but he leaves him quickly, and the man extends his arms
towards him and seems to sob.
It is just at the moment when he rejoins us that we hear in front
of us, coming from a sort of ground swelling, the crackle of a
machine-gun. It is a moment of agony—more serious even than when we
were passing through the flaming earthquake of the barrage. That
familiar voice speaks to us across the plain, sharp and horrible. But
we no longer stop. "Go on, go on!"
Our panting becomes hoarse groaning, yet still we hurl ourselves
toward the horizon.
"The Boches! I see them!" a man says suddenly. "Yes—their heads,
there—above the trench—it's there, the trench, that line. It's
close, Ah, the hogs!"
We can indeed make out little round gray caps which rise and then
drop on the ground level, fifty yards away, beyond a belt of dark
earth, furrowed and humped. Encouraged they spring forward, they who
now form the group where I am. So near the goal, so far unscathed,
shall we not reach it? Yes, we will reach it! We make great strides
and no longer hear anything. Each man plunges straight ahead,
fascinated by the terrible trench, bent rigidly forward, almost
incapable of turning his head to right or to left. I have a notion
that many of us missed their footing and fell to the ground. I jump
sideways to miss the suddenly erect bayonet of a toppling rifle.
Quite close to me, Farfadet jostles me with his face bleeding, throws
himself on Volpatte who is beside me and clings to him. Volpatte
doubles up without slackening his rush and drags him along some paces,
then shakes him off without looking at him and without knowing who be
is, and shouts at him in a breaking voice almost choked with exertion:
"Let me go, let me go, nom de Dieu! They'll pick you up
directly—don't worry."
The other man sinks to the ground, and his face, plastered with a
scarlet mask and void of all expression, turns in every direction;
while Volpatte, already in the distance, automatically repeats
between his teeth, "Don't worry," with a steady forward gaze on the
line.
A shower of bullets spirts around me, increasing the number of
those who suddenly halt, who collapse slowly, defiant and
gesticulating, of those who dive forward solidly with all the body's
burden, of the shouts, deep, furious, and desperate, and even of that
hollow and terrible gasp when a man's life goes bodily forth in a
breath. And we who are not yet stricken, we look ahead, we walk and we
run, among the frolics of the death that strikes at random into our
flesh.
The wire entanglements—and there is one stretch of them intact. We
go along to where it has been gutted into a wide and deep opening.
This is a colossal funnel-hole, formed of smaller funnels placed
together, a fantastic volcanic crater, scooped there by the guns.
The sight of this convulsion is stupefying; truly it seems that it
must have come from the center of the earth. Such a rending of virgin
strata puts new edge on our attacking fury, and none of us can keep
from shouting with a solemn shake of the head—even just now when
words are but painfully torn from our throats—"Ah, Christ! Look what
hell we've given 'em there! Ah, look!"
Driven as if by the wind, we mount or descend at the will of the
hollows and the earthy mounds in the gigantic fissure dug and
blackened and burned by furious flames. The soil clings to the feet
and we tear them out angrily. The accouterments and stuffs that cover
the soft soil, the linen that is scattered about from sundered
knapsacks, prevent us from sticking fast in it, and we are careful to
plant our feet in this debris when we jump into the holes or climb the
hillocks.
Behind us voices urge us—Forward, boys, forward, nome de Dieu!"
"All the regiment is behind us!" they cry. We do not turn round to
see, but the assurance electrifies our rush once more.
No more caps are visible behind the embankment of the trench we are
nearing. Some German dead are crumbling in front of it, in pinnacled
heaps or extended lines. We are there. The parapet takes definite and
sinister shape and detail; the loopholes—we are prodigiously,
incredibly close!
Something falls in front of us. It is a bomb. With a kick Corporal
Bertrand returns it so well that it rises and bursts just over the
trench.
With that fortunate deed the squad reaches the trench.
Pepin has hurled himself flat on the ground and is involved with a
corpse. He reaches the edge and plunges in—the first to enter.
Fouillade, with great gestures and shouts, jumps into the pit almost
at the same moment that Pepin rolls down it. Indistinctly I see—in
the time of the lightning's flash—a whole row of black demons
stooping and squatting for the descent, on the ridge of the
embankment, on the edge of the dark ambush.
A terrible volley bursts point-blank in our faces, flinging in
front of us a sudden row of flames the whole length of the earthen
verge. After the stunning shock we shake ourselves and burst into
devilish laughter—the discharge has passed too high. And at once,
with shouts and roars of salvation, we slide and roll and fall alive
into the belly of the trench!
* * * * * *
We are submerged in a mysterious smoke, and at first I can only see
blue uniforms in the stifling gulf. We go one way and then another,
driven by each other, snarling and searching. We turn about, and with
our hands encumbered by knife, bombs, and rifle, we do not know at
first what to do.
"They're in their funk-holes, the swine!" is the cry. Heavy
explosions are shaking the earth—underground, in the dug-outs. We
are all at once divided by huge clouds of smoke so thick that we are
masked and can see nothing more. We struggle like drowning men
through the acrid darkness of a fallen fragment of night. One
stumbles against barriers of cowering clustered beings who bleed and
howl in the bottom. Hardly can one make out the trench walls,
straight up just here and made of white sandbags, which are
everywhere torn like paper. At one time the heavy adhesive reek sways
and lifts, and one sees again the swarming mob of the attackers. Torn
out of the dusty picture, the silhouette of a hand-to-hand struggle is
drawn in fog on the wall, it droops and sinks to the bottom. I hear
several shrill cries of "Kamarad!" proceeding from a pale-faced and
gray-clad group in the huge corner made by a rending shell. Under the
inky cloud the tempest of men flows back, climbs towards the right,
eddying, pitching and falling, along the dark and ruined mole.
* * * * * *
And suddenly one feels that it is over. We see and hear and
understand that our wave, rolling here through the barrage fire, has
not encountered an equal breaker. They have fallen back on our
approach. The battle has dissolved in front of us. The slender
curtain of defenders has crumbled into the holes, where they are
caught like rats or killed. There is no more resistance, but a void,
a great void. We advance in crowds like a terrible array of
spectators.
And here the trench seems all lightning-struck. With its tumbled
white walls it might be just here the soft and slimy bed of a
vanished river that has left stony bluffs, with here and there the
flat round hole of a pool, also dried up; and on the edges, on the
sloping banks and in the bottom, there is a long trailing glacier of
corpses—a dead river that is filled again to overflowing by the new
tide and the breaking wave of our company. In the smoke vomited by
dug-outs and the shaking wind of subterranean explosions, I come upon
a compact mass of men hooked onto each other who are describing a wide
circle. Just as we reach them the entire mass breaks up to make a
residue of furious battle. I see Blaire break away, his helmet hanging
on his neck by the chin-strap and his face flayed, and uttering a
savage yell. I stumble upon a man who is crouching at the entry to a
dug-out. Drawing back from the black hatchway, yawning and
treacherous, he steadies himself with his left hand on a beam. In his
right hand and for several seconds he holds a bomb which is on the
point of exploding. It disappears in the hole, bursts immediately, and
a horrible human echo answers him from the bowels of the earth. The
man seizes another bomb.
Another man strikes and shatters the posts at the mouth of another
dug-out with a pickax he has found there, causing a landslide, and
the entry is blocked. I see several shadows trampling and
gesticulating over the tomb.
Of the living ragged band that has got so far and has reached this
long-sought trench after dashing against the storm of invincible
shells and bullets launched to meet them, I can hardly recognize
those whom I know, just as though all that had gone before of our
lives had suddenly become very distant. There is some change working
in them. A frenzied excitement is driving them all out of themselves.
"What are we stopping here for?" says one, grinding his teeth.
"Why don't we go on to the next?" a second asks me in fury. "Now
we're here, we'd be there in a few jumps!'
"I, too, I want to go on."—"Me, too. Ah, the hogs!" They shake
themselves like banners. They carry the luck of their survival as it
were glory; they are implacable, uncontrolled, intoxicated with
themselves.
We wait and stamp about in the captured work, this strange
demolished way that winds along the plain and goes from the unknown
to the unknown.
Advance to the right!
We begin to flow again in one direction. No doubt it is a movement
planned up there, back yonder, by the chiefs. We trample soft bodies
underfoot, some of which are moving and slowly altering their
position; rivulets and cries come from them. Like posts and heaps of
rubbish, corpses are piled anyhow on the wounded, and press them
down, suffocate them, strangle them. So that I can get by, I must
push at a slaughtered trunk of which the neck is a spring of gurgling
blood.
In the cataclysm of earth and of massive wreckage blown up and
blown out, above the hordes of wounded and dead that stir together,
athwart the moving forest of smoke implanted in the trench and in all
its environs, one no longer sees any face but what is inflamed,
blood-red with sweat, eyes flashing. Some groups seem to be dancing
as they brandish their knives. They are elated, immensely confident,
ferocious.
The battle dies down imperceptibly. A soldier says, "Well, what's
to be done now?" ft flares up again suddenly at one point. Twenty
yards away in the plain, in the direction of a circle that the gray
embankment makes, a cluster of rifle-shots crackles and hurls its
scattered missiles around a hidden machine-gun, that spits
intermittently and seems to be in difficulties.
Under the shadowy wing of a sort of yellow and bluish nimbus I see
men encircling the flashing machine and closing in on it. Near to me
I make out the silhouette of Mesnil Joseph, who is steering straight
and with no effort of concealment for the spot whence the barking
explosions come in jerky sequence.
A flash shoots out from a corner of the trench between us two.
Joseph halts, sways, stoops, and drops on one knee. I run to him and
he watches me coming. "It's nothing—my thigh. I can crawl along by
myself." He seems to have become quiet, childish, docile; and sways
slowly towards the trench.
I have still in my eyes the exact spot whence rang the shot that
hit him, and I slip round there by the left, making a detour. No one
there. I only meet another of our squad on the same errand—Paradis.
We are bustled by men who are carrying on their shoulders pieces of
iron of all shapes. They block up the trench and separate us. "The
machine-gun's taken by the 7th," they shout, "it won't bark any more.
It was a mad devil—filthy beast! Filthy beast!"
"What's there to do now?"—"Nothing."
We stay there, jumbled together, and sit down. The living have
ceased to gasp for breath, the dying have rattled their last,
surrounded by smoke and lights and the din of the guns that rolls to
all the ends of the earth. We no longer know where we are. There is
neither earth nor sky—nothing but a sort of cloud. The first period
of inaction is forming in the chaotic drama, and there is a general
slackening in the movement and the uproar. The cannonade grows less;
it still shakes the sky as a cough shakes a man, but it is farther
off now. Enthusiasm is allayed, and there remains only the infinite
fatigue that rises and overwhelms us, and the infinite waiting that
begins over again.
* * * * * *
Where is the enemy? He has left his dead everywhere, and we have
seen rows of prisoners. Yonder again there is. one, drab, ill-defined
and smoky, outlined against the dirty sky. But the bulk seem to have
dispersed afar. A few shells come to us here and there blunderingly,
and we ridicule them. We are saved, we are quiet, we are alone, in
this desert where an immensity of corpses adjoins a line of the
living.
Night has come. The dust has flown away, but has yielded place to
shadow and darkness over the long-drawn multitude's disorder. Men
approach each other, sit down, get up again and walk about, leaning
on each other or hooked together. Between the dug-outs, which are
blocked by the mingled dead, we gather in groups and squat. Some have
laid their rifles on the ground and wander on the rim of the trench
with their arms balancing; and when they come near we can see that
they are blackened and scorched, their eyes are red and slashed with
mud. We speak seldom, but are beginning to think.
We see the stretcher-bearers, whose sharp silhouettes stoop and
grope; they advance linked two and two together by their long
burdens. Yonder on our right one hears the blows of pick and shovel.
I wander into the middle of this gloomy turmoil. In a place where
the embankment has crushed the embankment of the trench into a gentle
slope, some one is seated. A faint light still prevails. The tranquil
attitude of this man as he looks reflectively in front of him is
sculptural and striking. Stooping, I recognize him as Corporal
Bertrand. He turns his face towards me, and I feel that he is looking
at me through the shadows with his thoughtful smile.
"I was coming to look for you," he says; "they're organizing a
guard for the trench until we've got news of what the others have done
and what's going on in front. I'm going to put you on double sentry
with Paradis, in a listening-post that the sappers have just dug."
We watch the shadows of the passers-by and of those who are seated,
outlined in inky blots, bowed and bent in diverse attitudes under the
gray sky, all along the ruined parapet. Dwarfed to the size of insects
and worms, they make a strange and secret stirring among these
shadow-hidden lands where for two years war has caused cities of
soldiers to wander or stagnate over deep and boundless cemeteries.
Two obscure forms pass in the dark, several paces from us; they are
talking together in low voices—"You bet, old chap, instead of
listening to him, I shoved my bayonet into his belly so that I
couldn't haul it out."
"There were four in the bottom of the hole. I called to 'em to come
out, and as soon as one came out I stuck him. Blood ran down me up to
the elbow and stuck up my sleeves."
"Ah!" the first speaker went on, "when we are telling all about it
later, if we get back, to the other people at home, by the stove and
the candle, who's going to believe it? It's a pity, isn't it?"
"I don't care a damn about that, as long as we do get back," said
the other; "I want the end quickly, and only that."
Bertrand was used to speak very little ordinarily, and never of
himself. But he said, "I've got three of them on my hands. I struck
like a madman. Ah, we were all like beasts when we got here!"
He raised his voice and there was a restrained tremor in it: "it
was necessary," he said, "it was necessary, for the future's sake."
He crossed his arms and tossed his head: "The future!" he cried all
at once as a prophet might. "How will they regard this slaughter,
they who'll live after us, to whom progress̵